Chapter 85

Today is the day.

I seriously can not believe that today Austin is going to mark me. It's such a mix of emotions for me right now. The thought of Austin marking me today makes me really nervous and uncomfortable, but at the same time, there is a part of me that is very curious and wants to go through with it. I mean, I need to do this right? It’s for Jacob and Austin too, I need to do this for both of them.

Although, It's just so strange because Austin is Jacob's brother, and even though we have been intimate before, this feels like a whole new level. I'm not sure if I will be comfortable having him marking me.

I know this was my decision, and I thought I was ready to do it when I said it but now, deep down inside of me, I can't help but feel really uncomfortable about it. It's like this overwhelming feeling that I'm just not ready, you know? Who am I kidding, I'm not ready at all. I don’t think I can do this.

Since morning, I have been thinking about it nonstop, and it's driving me