POVMillie As soon as the words leave my mouth he goes white but there, I said it. I planned the whole thing out in my head and then with Steph on our way here but that obviously went to shit. It was going to be delicate but no, he was a dick so I decided to be one back. “You’re what?” He whispers like he hasn’t heard the words correctly. “I’m..” but he puts a hand up to stop from saying the words again. He stands up to his full length, “how?” He demands, his appearance changing to grim. “We had unprotected sex X, how else?” I ask but I know he’s ignoring me. “How far along?” He asks through angry gritted teeth and eyes losing pigment. “Between seven and eight weeks,” I say intertwining my fingers together on my lap, palms collecting moisture.“Are you sure it’s even mine?” His words tear through me like a slow-motion jagged knife. “What?!” I ask standing up myself now. “Did you fuck Nico? Chase? Or some other fucking prick?” He asks, the white flesh turning red. “You’re jok
POVXI watch her leave and then she’s gone but I haven’t moved an inch in minutes. Then convince yourself to forget you ever met me. The fuck I will..that’s like asking me to survive without oxygen. I don’t want a fucking baby, it’s a bad idea. I knew one day she’d come asking for one but fuck I didn’t know it’d just happen out of the blue like that. I release myself from the stone position I’m in and sit on the couch with my elbows resting on my lap and my head occupying my hands. “Fuck!” I say aloud to myself. I want to go after Millie and tell her everything will be fine, that I can do this for her and whatever she wants in life I’ll deliver it, but I don’t. I don’t do it because like I’d said before, we are not living in a fairytale. …It’s now the next night and I haven’t talked to Millie since she left yesterday but I also haven’t reached out either. Julian throws a pillow at the side of my head from the other side of the couch. “What the fuck man!” I yell and throw it
POV Millie I’m a shell of a person. The guy I saw yesterday was nothing more than a vile creature. I can understand it was a surprise of a revelation but my god, did he have to be so eerily cruel? I stare up at the blotchy white ceiling in my bedroom as I’m sprawled on top of the white comforter with jumbled thoughts. I haven’t talked to X since yesterday and although that hurts me, I’m pissed at him and he could shove it where the sun don’t shine. Asshole..“I guess it’s us against the world little gummy bear,” I speak to my belly and rub it. The sun has long set but I’m not tired, not even a little. I turn on the Bachelor but it’s just not doing it for me right now, I can’t concentrate. I don’t know where X and I stand anymore and it’s eating me alive. I won’t sacrifice this child to please him and he’s set on not wanting one so where does this leave us? As if he can read my mind I get a text from him. X: yo!!!! Needa talk Uhhh..Me: Okay, when? X: I dnt no Is he drunk?
POVMillie I tap my blue pen against my desk at work. I’m finding it to be a habit whenever something is weighing on my mind, which happens to be often lately. Last night I left right after X fell asleep, I found no use in being there in his presence. Yes, he revealed some truth about why he doesn’t want a baby but I’m sure as hell he won’t be giving that information out sober. I still don’t know where we stand so I decide it’s finally time we have a conversation about this. I text him. Me: hey can we talk tonight? X: ya Nice, he’s being short with me..great start. Me: I’ll come right after work if that’s okay X: k What is his deal? When I finish up at work I drive to X’s house feeling indifferent as I sit in traffic. By the time I get there, I’m nervous about how this talk will go, and if this motherfucker thinks I’m gonna just let the whole Dani being there thing go he’s got another thing comin'. I knock at his door and within seconds he’s opening it. Goddamn, my hormones
POV Millie It’s now Saturday morning and I’ve been invited by Mia to the annual Fourth of July party at the house. It’s on the beach and apparently the best party of the year with BBQ, swimming, music and fireworks. I’m a little apprehensive about going because X and I are on…interesting terms. The last few days have been off-kilter between us. I try to give him the space he needs to process everything that’s happening in our life right now but it’s still kinda awkward. For my sake, he’s trying. He asked me to send him the ultrasound pictures the other day which was pretty shocking to me and although I wanted to pry and ask why, I didn’t. My hopes are that he’s feeling connected to the image just as much as I, starting to accept what’s to come. We went out to lunch yesterday and he never brought up the whole Fourth of July party. I brought it up to him and he said he wasn’t planning on going, he thinks it’s lame but when I told him I got invited and was planning to go he changed h
POVXHappy fucking Fourth of July, okay not really, it’s July 2nd but who wants to party on a Monday? So today we celebrate..which is the last fucking thing I want to do because I don’t feel like being annoyed by a bunch of drunk assholes. I was going to forget the whole thing altogether but of course, Millie caught wind of it and wanted in on the party, I don’t know why because she can’t even drink which is worse than being drunk at these parties. There’s no way in hell I’d let her be here at this or any party without me so naturally I’m sitting here sweating my balls off. Since I’m so patriotic I’m dressed in dark blue jeans, and a white shirt and I even changed my nose ring to a red one for the occasion, oh yeah and I'm also wearing a black hat with an American flag on it, backward may I add just for a certain someone. It’s all a show, logically I had to since I guess I’m the host? Bad fucking idea with the jeans, it’s hot as shit out today. I could easily go change out of them
POVMillie I’m driving him wild but this show isn’t for him. He’s a completely different person today than he has been for the last week and I’m loving it. And the comment about eating? What the fuck was that and why did that turn me on so much? I spot Dani out of my peripheral vision every so often but I don’t give her my full attention. I’m not sure what her end game is but I don’t trust her, I just simply don’t. “I’m gonna go get a drink, anyone need anything?” Dani asks as she gets up, revealing her toned body. She’s wearing a small white bikini with dark denim shorts leaving the button open. The contrast of the white bikini against her long, straight black hair is extremely sexy but I’d never admit that out loud for obvious reasons. Julian and X request another beer and I shake my head no. In the meantime, slim and some other rowdy guys I don’t know yet join us in the cabana. One stumbles against me on accident and X immediately sets me to the side of him and bolts up off t
**WARNING**This chapter is a dip into dark romance. Please be advised that this may be triggering to some readers. In the case that you are uncomfortable reading, you are not missing out on any significance to the storyline. POV Stephanie I go on and on with Mia as we talk about our sexual fantasies. Finally, someone gets me! My phone vibrates on the glass-topped coffee table, it’s Julian. Babe, can you please get my hat from upstairs? The sun is killing my gorgeous eyes Me: ur so lazy it’s sickening Julian: love u 2 “Hey guys, I’ll be right back Julian is slaving me around again,” I say to my beautiful girlies. I walk throughout the beach collecting buckets of sand in my shoes and in between my toes. I swear I love the beach but the sand gets effin everywhere, it’s so annoying. I take the elevator up to the third floor because Jesus Christ I’m not walking up the stairs in my flip-flops. I make it to my door and wait for it to unlock, as soon as I put my hand on the knob a