POV XI haven’t talked to Millie since Sunday night and it’s killing me, I’ve picked up my phone countless times to call her but never went through with it. I want her to approach me when she’s ready. I’ve been burying myself in work, if I take another phone call I think I’ll just lose my shit. Since I haven’t been traveling since the whole incident, I’ve been doing extra work in the meantime. Making a deal with Hugo would’ve brought in so much money but honestly how much money do I really need? I have enough money to get me through two lifetimes. At the end of the day, the deal with Colombia was just to emit more power to myself. I hear a knock at my front door from the office I’ve been practically living in for days. Please be Millie..I walk through the hallway half excited, half nervous for what she’ll say. Please don’t break my heart any further. I open the door but I am sadly mistaken when it’s not Millie on the other side, it’s Adria..“You really just don’t know when to qui
POV Millie It’s now Friday morning and I dread having to go into work today to see Nick. I curl my hair, brushing it out after it’s set. I do my makeup in neutral tones so it doesn’t look like I’m trying to dress up for him today. I walk out of the bedroom ready to go but still have a little time before I have to leave. I make myself a hot coffee. I don’t add anything in, I take a sip of the black coffee. “Yeah, no, not happening..” I say to myself with a scrunched face. I grab the French vanilla coffee creamer out of the fridge, adding more than usual to dissipate the gross plain black coffee I had to force down my throat. “So much better,” I say to myself with a smile. “Are you having a conversation with yourself mills?” Steph asks coming out of her room. I laugh, “maybe…” “Whatcha guys talking about?” She asks with a grin. “Coffee,” I say proudly. “Well can Millie 1, ask Millie 2 to make me a cup while she’s at it?” Steph asks sitting on a barstool. “They say yes,” I sa
POVX“Did you even read the contract?” I ask laughing with my question.I know the answer to that when she sits up straighter. “No..” she says.She makes it so damn easy for me.“I did this for you, X!” Adria says panicked. “No, Adria you did this for no one other than you,” I say calmly, pressing my fingertips into her small framed shoulders and she flinches from underneath.I’m about to show her who really is the boss in this house. “But ya know, I am going to do something for me now, I haven’t done anything selfish in a while and I owe it to myself to do this,” I say whispering in her ear again. “Please, X” she begs, she knows me well enough to know what’s coming next.“I wish I could say that this won’t bring me any greater joy than what I’m about to do Adria, but it does. It didn’t have to be this way, you could’ve just kept to yourself, did your job like everyone else but it just was never enough for you. I took pity on you when I allowed for you to stay but you know, deep
POV Millie As we’re finishing up our two-hour-long walk, stopping plenty of times to sit and talk, we make it back to the hotel entrance. “I had a really good time, Em,” Nick says genuinely. “Yeah, me too,” I say with a smile. “I still can’t believe the way you jumped when you saw that mouse crawl out of that garbage bin,” I say with a laugh. “Hey! I was startled!” He says with a laugh. “Yeah, yeah, whatever you say,” I say teasing him. “Well, I should probably get goin', you have an early morning,” Nick says tilting back and forth on his heels. “I mean…yeah…but we could maybe just have one drink?” I suggest. He lifts an eyebrow at me, “Okay, yeah, sure.”We walk into the lobby together and go up the elevator, for some odd reason, I have this gut instinct that something is just off, not particularly with Nick, but just in general. It’s probably just from the guilt I’m feeling or my nerves. As we walk down the hallway, my gut instincts were right, he’s leaned up against the
POVMillie I sit along the wall in the hotel hallway with Nick still out. At first, I was afraid X may have killed him with that punch but I see that he’s breathing. It’s going to be really awkward if another hotel guest comes waltzing down the hall. Luckily, this floor is a pretty quiet one. Nick starts to move a little, I think he may be getting out of his unconscious state. He opens his eyes and sees me looking down at him. He perks up and scoots away from me like I’m the devil himself. “Where is he?!” he asks frightened looking around. Gee, guess I could count on him to protect me if I needed it…“He’s gone, Nick,” I say. “Why didn’t you tell me you were X’s?!” He asks belittling me. “I’m not his, he doesn’t own me,” I say annoyed. “Sorry..” he says trying to recover himself. I lean my head against the wall behind me, “sorry about all of this.” I say not looking at him. “It’s not your fault Millie, X is…” he says trailing off. “I know, you don’t need to explain, since w
POVMillie I take the piece of white paper out of the envelope, the page is filled with black ink numbered 1-20 of things about himself. I take a deep breath in and deeper one out and start reading number one. 1. Until you, Julian was my only true friend2. I didn’t take the Colombia deal even though it was offered 3. I secretly wished my mom would’ve denied the $25,000 to stay in my life 4. I hate the business I’m in but it’s all I’ve ever known 5. Sometimes I wish my mom would’ve taken me with her so I could’ve had a normal life 6. I hate that my mom had more kids 7. I have no desire to meet my siblings 8. I was afraid to get close to you because this business is brutal, love can be used as leverage. 9. The day you moved into the penthouse, was when I really knew I never wanted to see a day without you 10. I knew my dad was cheating on my mom for the longest time but never told her11. The day my dad left everything to me was the day I lost myself 12. My first tattoo was
POV XIt’s early in the evening, Friday. I haven’t spoken to Millie since Wednesday after the harsh encounter we last had. Today is the day she gets to move into her apartment. Although I’m not necessarily happy about the other night, I’m happy for her. She gets the new beginning that she’s been longing for. I think back to Wednesday night, seeing Millie with Nico, I didn’t know my heart could break any further than it already had. They were going to the hotel room, what were they going to do? I can’t even go there with that fucking thought, it kills me. When I left, she probably nursed Nico back to health and he probably used it to his advantage. That night, I came home to a clean house, not a drop of evidence to be left behind from Adria. I laid in bed with the sound of that crack playing in my mind, I knew it’d haunt me. I’ve never killed anyone that way before but my options were limited that night. I couldn’t have large amounts of blood in my house so I did it in a way that wou
It’s Friday morning.The last day in my San Diego apartment that I’ve spent the last year in. Let me rephrase that, the last shit show of a year. I spent the last year putting my life and career on hold to stay close to my parent's house taking care of my father. In the last three years, he pissed away all of his and my mom’s savings on booze and drugs and ended up foreclosing on the house.I don’t even know why I bothered, he hated the sight of me and after all my efforts he just ended up killing himself to heroin. It wasn’t always this way though. I was once “daddy’s little girl” and he adored me, he was an amazing father and husband up until three years ago when all that changed.My phone buzzing in the back pocket of my jeans breaks me of my thoughts. The phone screen reads Steph. My best friend of fifteen years. I answer by the second ring.“Hey, Steph! I’m just packing up a couple more things and I’ll be on my way.” I may have lied a little.I have a lot more than a couple of th