POV Millie Saturday morning. Tonight is my date with Nick that I completely regret initiating. It’s just one date, if it goes south he’ll be leaving in two days anyway. I’m so not ready for any of this, I haven’t gone on a real date with someone in a while and it’s nerve-wracking. I sit at the table in the suite drinking my morning coffee, not black, but with plenty of French vanilla creamer when Steph comes strolling out of the room like a hot mess with her hair everywhere and yesterday's makeup in all the wrong places. She wasn’t home when I got home yesterday but I heard her stroll in late last night. “Tonight’s the night huh?” She asks in a sleepy voice. “Yeah…do you think you can call me in sick for it?” I ask humorously. “No baby girl, you did this to yourself, now you gotta follow through, no saving you tonight.” She says through a yawn and tapping the top of my head. “So where were you all last night?” I ask her. She grins widely. “At my new place..” she says with a
POVMillie I step outside of the hotel and right in front is what I’m assuming is Nick's gray car. He rolls down the window, “hey em,” he says with a smile and my nerves are in overdrive. I get in and we lightly converse about our days as we drive for what seems to be only about five minutes when we pull into a restaurant, Blue Lagoon the sign on the building reads. We step out of the car and I’m thankful when we walk in and the atmosphere seems casual. There are sharks and other sea life creatures hanging on the walls. A hostess greets us and then guides us to a table alongside a window that has a view of the ocean. The sun is starting to set giving the sky an orangey hue. The scene brings me back to all of the nights spent with X and the deep conversation we’ve had that made us fall in love in the first place. Sitting here with Nick is feeling off-kilter but I need to make new memories even if it hurts in the process. A waitress walks over to our table introducing herself as As
POVMillie I’m briskly walking around the parking lot trying to locate Penelope’s car, pressing the panic button, I’m not sure what is panicking more, me or the red Ford Fusion a few rows away. This girl and red I swear..Never mind that, I need to get to X. It takes me way too long to get there, a place I never wanted to return to ever again in my existence can’t come into view soon enough. I have no nerves, I just need answers and I need them now. I pull up onto Sunset Avenue and drive a hundred feet until the house comes into view. I type in the gate’s passcode as fast as my fingers can manage and it takes an eternity for the tall black wrought iron to open, once it finally does, I speed to any parking spot available. I run out of the car as fast as I can and run into the front door, getting looks from some of the nearly naked girls sitting around with drinks in hand. It’s Saturday night so he could be at the club, god I hope he’s not there and with some girl on top of him.
POVXDamn, this woman is fucking abusive lately. The faster we have our little pointless talk on the beach the faster she’ll leave. I can’t even look at her, she looks fucking beautiful right now, but it’s not for me it’s for whoever she transferred feelings for. I keep my head down following her out of the bedroom where I let all my frustrations out the other night. We walk through the living room where Steph is crying and Julian is consoling her, I hate them right now. They’re moving in together and here I am alone as always and always will be. Millie ignores the couple on the couch, as do I as I follow her out of the penthouse. We take the stairs rather than the elevator and If I just play by the rules it’ll all be over fast enough. We make it outside and I can smell the smoke from my balcony from out here. Luckily I didn’t lose my joint, after I stood up from my comfortable spot on my chair, I placed the joint behind my ear. I’m gonna need this shit before, during and afte
POVMillie I don’t know why I do it but I push his hug away and straddle him. He’s clearly surprised by my shift in behavior. He looks up at me, and although it’s dark out now, the reflection of the moon and polluted Los Angeles sky glistens on his green eyes. He’s searching my face trying to figure out what’s going on in my mind, I spare him the thoughts and take both of my hands on either side of his face and bring my lips to his. He accepts them with ease, our kiss starts off with closed lips and continues on with our tongues entangled, making up for lost time. This is the happiest I’ve felt all week and even though I can’t actually read his mind, I know the same is true for him. He pulls me in closer wrapping an arm around my waist and the other still behind him supporting us. He breaks from the kiss only for a second, “fuck baby, I miss these lips,” he says so seductively. “I’ve missed yours,” I say bringing my lips back to his full soft ones. He sits us forward, taking b
POV XThis was not how I was expecting this night to go in any way. Wasn’t expecting to see Millie, wasn’t expecting to have a heart to heart and sure as fuck wasn’t expecting her to kiss me. Fuck that kiss was hot. Of course I had to be a dumbass and take it too far but I just couldn’t help myself at the time. I haven’t had any sexual encounters in a week which is a long ass time for me, unfortunately my last sexual experience was with the wrong person or I guess people…I walk back into the house, making my way up to my place and smiling to myself like a little girl but I don’t care how stupid I look, she wants to see me tomorrow, she used my words I used on her when we first met. Man, I love this girl. I can tell she’s trying to forgive me, she’s fighting within herself for me but she’s losing the battle and I couldn’t be an happier. We have a long way to go until we can go back to where we once were but I’m okay with that, I’m okay with taking baby steps even if it takes the
POV Millie I’m driving back to the hotel in Penelope’s car with thoughts of X taking over my mind in every way until they whither away with other thoughts from the night. Tonight was unexpected, I feel slightly guilty for blowing off Nick in the middle of our date but he was no saint at the same time. And Penelope? She works as a bartender now? That’s all due to the shit that went down a week ago. I’m stunned she apologized for her actions towards me but it’s Penelope..I pull into the parking lot having no idea how I’ll get this car back to Penelope, but right now I don’t care either. As I’m walking into the hotel lobby, I see Nick sitting on a couch, what is he doing here? “Nick?” I ask out to him. “Em,” he says standing up off of the couch. “What are you doing here?” I ask confused. “I came here to see why you left, what happened?” He asks curiously. “A lot?” I more or less say than ask. “Care to share?” He asks while looking me dead in the eye. I scratch the back of my
POV XI texted Millie but she must be sleeping by now. I want to make tomorrow special, we’ve never been on a real date before so I want to make the beach into a date setting. My mind is filling with ideas of what to do for her, how can I make this special for her? I’ve never actually been on a real date so I have no idea what I’m doing. I know a few things that I want to do to make things as personal as they can be, but when it comes to the setup, I’m lost.Who better to ask than her best friend?I get out of bed and put some sweatpants on. I leave the penthouse and go down to the third floor walking to Julian’s place. I’m briskly walking down the hallway when..Oh great…I keep my head down not wanting to make eye contact. “So I just don’t even exist anymore?” Adria asks. “Told you not to talk to me,” I say coldly keeping my head down. “Heard Emily is having quite a night with some guy.” She says snakily. “Shut the fuck up, Adria,” I say and walk past her not wanting to hear