Chapter 26

Meredith

I couldn't think straight anymore.

I held onto the file that the FBI put together. I went through the file over and over, looking for clues that this might not be true. I wanted to swim in the pool of denial,just as I have been these past few months. Mom held on to the truth about Nolan, but I knew why she didn't talk about it. It was depressing to find out what your son was into for years, and we didn't suspect a thing. He was loving and always around when we needed him; it made all of it shocking to me.

I saw the pictures and the slides, holding onto the image on the picture. Maybe digging this out was a bad choice. Maybe I should have let sleeping dogs lie and not entered to dig up the past. There was no tangible evidence that Fabian might be involved. From the way he knew a lot of things about me, it was certain that he had had connections with me in the past or that his guys were just good at digging up people's lives.

I couldn't sleep because the rough images came to li