"WHY DO YOU LOOK ANGRY?" I asked him when we had finished ordering our meals. Jeremy frowned at my question.
“Angry? What should I be angry about?” I raised an eyebrow at him. He didn’t meet my gaze and just focused his attention on his food, making me roll my eyes heavenwards. Okay, he likes to act clueless, then? "A while ago. You even left me there and went inside the cafeteria first. What the fuck made you angry?” I sipped on my soup and moaned in delight. The soup is still hot, which makes it even more delicious. "Yummy,” I mutted. Licking my lips, I threw my gaze at him. He gulped upon looking at me and when he noticed that I was staring at him, he immediately averted my gaze. My forehead knotted in confusion. Sometimes, I don’t really know what’s going on inside his mind. "Nothing. I wasn’t angry. Just hungry,” he playfully replied and shrugged. My eyebrow arched. Really? I didn’t bother to make a reply. Obviously, the fool is just lying. If he doesn't want to tell me the reason, then okay. I won't force him. If I do, maybe he will just get mad at me. Also, it’s not my thing to force people. Duh. “The soup tastes great, Jem. Try it.” I spooned some soup and blew on it then brought it to his mouth. Duh. It's not new to us to share the same spoon, straw, or whatsoever. We kissed directly a lot of times already. But, I’m the only one who know about that. He looked at my spoon and put it inside his mouth. He paused for a while as if tasting the soup and I was just staring at him, waiting for his reaction. Then, he nodded and looked at me with delight. I smiled.“Tastes great. But I might get sick because of you. Ew,” he playfully said which made my eyes go wide. The hell is he saying? “Woah, acting as if I have a TB, huh. If I do, I will really cough in front of you every day and you will be the first one to die,” I said in a threatening voice. Jeremy just chuckled as he spooned his chicken soup and brought the spoon to my mouth. I accepted it without hesitations.The taste exploded on my tongue. Salty, sour, and spicy all combined in one soup. Woah, this is one hell of a soup. I nodded to show my satisfaction. “Delicious.” The corner of his lips lift.“Yeah, it becomes even more tastier especially when I ate a pussy before I went to your clinic.” My eyes widened and my cheek swelled at what he said. What? He burst out laughing at my reaction. I feel like throwing up. Is this fool fooling me?"Just a joke." He still laughed out loud. I gave him a threatening look and raised my fist. This jerk is playing with me! He laughed even more and I rolled my eyes heavenwards before putting my fist down. I don’t know what to do with this fool anymore. Fuck. Why did I fall for him? “Don't make fun of me like that! You’re disgusting. How would you feel if I say I sucked a cock and didn’t even bother to wash my mouth?” He seemed taken aback by what I said and frowned. "You won't do that," he said while grinning. I raised an eyebrow at him. What does he mean?“What do you mean? Sucking cocks?” If he only knew! I’ve already sucked his cock. But I just don’t do it always because he’s too big for me. I’m still not used to his size. The first time I did it, my cheeks became swollen.“Yep,” he said, popping the ‘p’. I pursed my lips to keep myself from telling him the things we’ve been doing. "How sure you are?” I sipped the soup again. I could see his forehead furrowed as if he doesn’t like the idea of me, sucking dicks.“Why? You've been sucking dicks?” I almost choke on my soup. Damn. I don’t know if I find it funny or not. Jeremy’s really clueless. “What if I do?” I raised an eyebrow at him and looked at him with a streak of arrogance. “Do you really know how? You're a virgin, aren't you? Oh, maybe you bought a dildo and gave it some blowjobs.” I chuckled loudly. I don’t know which part I find funny. Jeremy thinking that I’m still a virgin, or him thinking that I bought a dildo and used it to practice. “Shut up, Jem. Our topic is getting weird,” I stated, chuckling and ate some meat. "Our topic is weird every day. Get used to it.”"Yep, it’s because you look weird.” Jeremy smiled, and as if to show me how handsome he was, the jerk winked at me and my heart leaped. Fuck. What is he doing? I tried to mask my emotions. “Ew.” He burst out laughing. Damn, the arrogance of this jerk. But on the serious side, Jeremy really looks good. With his thick eyebrows, pointed nose, red plump lips, and sharp jaw. Who wouldn’t be attracted to him? No wonder why a lot of women swoon over him. And, unfortunately, I’m one of them. Huge shit."I’m handsome, rigth?” he brags. I just rolled my eyes at him."Too arrogant.” I shook my head to show how done I was with him. We just talked about a lot of things while we were eating until we were finished. “I will pick you up by four. Let's go home together,” he said as we cleaned our table. I turned to look at him for a moment and frowned.“Duh. Don’t tell me I’ll seat at the back again because you will be bringing a whore.” I experienced that a lot of times. Me, on the back seat and his whore on the passenger seat. At first, it hurts. And until now, it still hurts. I’m still not used to it, especially when the motherfuckers flirt in front of me. But then, I’m used to pretending that I’m fine. I’m an expert when it comes to masking all my emotions. "Nah. Just you and me, I promise. You know? Diet.” I almost burst out laughing. Diet? What the fuck?"I don’t believe you. Are you sure?" I put the tissue I used on the plate and sprayed alcohol on my hand. After I used the alcohol, he immediately took it from my grasp. "Of course," he said proudly. I didn’t bother to make a reply. I don’t know if I’ll believe that. Jeremy? No women? Hah! What a miracle! "I'd like a drink tonight,” he said out of the blue which made me stun. I could feel a hollow pit at the bottom of my stomach as my chest tightened. Alcohol again. I smiled bitterly. “Diet? Tell that to my ass. Surely, you will fuck someone after you drink.” I averted my gaze and pretended I’m busy with my cellphone. I don’t want to meet Jeremy’s eyes. I’m scared he might find out about what I currently feel once I do. “You will probably come with me, won't you? Watch over me.” I swallowed one after another as the pain in my heart intensified. He returned my alcohol to me. "Please?" he said in a soft voice as if tempting me to come with him. I close my eyes tightly. I really hate it when he acts like this.I could do nothing but nod at him as I opened my eyes. I saw the smile on his lips as if he just brought home the bacon. Fuck. Why am I so weak when it comes to him? “ARE YOU sure you want to drink? Remember, we’re going to Sumilon tomorrow and you will be the one to drive. You might get a hangover!” I buckled my seatbelt on. Jeremy chuckled. "I’ll just drink lightly, then,” he said as if he was sure of that. My eyebrows rose in disbelief. “And then another thing, you know I can easily recover from a hangover. Oh, shit. That rhymed!” He whistled, making me roll my eyes. Yes. It's really easy for Jeremy to recover from a hangover. One milk, and the jerk’s already fine like he didn’t have a hangover. Fortunately, he can't remember the things he did in his drunken state which is a good thing, actually. I can’t seem to stand if he knows what’s going on between us when he’s drunk.That thought made me think. What if Jeremy found out about it? What will happen to our friendship? Will he distance himself?My heart pounded in pain at that thought. I don't want out friendship to fall apart. I would choose to be hurt rather than to break our friendship. I don’t want that. "Oh, what happened to your face?" I looked at Jeremy. He was still staring at the road. My forehead furrowed. What does he mean?"What's with my face?" I looked in the mirror. I don't have any dirt on my face. What is this idiot saying?“Nothing. It's ugly. ” He even burst out laughing. I made a face. Seriously?"Wow! The arrogance of this jerk! What do you think of yourself? You’re not even handsome! Watch up once I let my hair down and apply some make-up on.” I took my curler and curled my eyelashes. I saw him look at me for a moment."All right," he challenged. I did my other eyelash before replying to him,"Nevermind. I changed my mind. You might fall in love with me.That would be horrible.” I even acted like I was disgusted. The thought of Jeremy falling for me is. . . I don't know. I can’t pinpoint what I feel. Maybe, because I've long accepted that he will never like me?I let out a sad smile and sighed. Jeremy falling for me is too impossible to happen. During the time we were together ever since we were still kids, he always treated me like a friend. I know he doesn’t see me as more than that. "Me? Fall in love? With you? Hell no! Maybe, you’re the one who’s already falling for me,” he stated with a streak of arrogance. I pursed my lips. I tried to mask my emotions by acting disgusted. Despite that, I know what he said were all true. Of the two of us, I was the only one who loved. Only when he's drunk I take the courage to confess. I’m confident he will just forget about my confession. "You think so highly of yourself, you idiot!" He laughed loudly. I snorted. This jerk is really full of himself. Why did we become friends, anyway? I clicked my tongue. If he hadn't caught the ball then and just let it hit me, I would have a boyfriend now and I would never like him. I think that ball has a curse."Facts only, honey." There he goes with his endearment again! I felt butterflies swarm inside my stomach and I immediately shrugged it off. He sometimes calls me ‘honey’ and even though I know it’s just a joke, I can’t help my butterflies to fly. Fuck him. Who wouldn’t like to be called that way by the man you love? “Honey, my ass. You really are a flirt, aren’t you?” He smiled widely. His eyes were still focused on the road."Well, that’s my talent, honey." I could see him turn to me for a moment before speaking again, “Why? Are you affected?” I gasped loudly ande looked at him. He was biting his lower lip as if preventing himself to laugh so hard. I could see his shoulders shaking. What the fuck? “What are you talking about, Jeremy? Aren't you terrified? Yuck.” His laughter grew louder. Damn, he really likes to annoy me. I just breath out a harsh sigh before turning the radio on. I looked out the window. Jeremy's words are still ringing in my ears. I close my eyes tightly. When he tries to flirt with me, I always try to mask my emotions. Gladly, I didn't fail. According to him, I am the only woman who didn’t fall for his charms.A sigh escaped from my lips. If he only knew. I'm just really good at hiding. When he's drunk, that's when I can fully express what I really feel. I always tell him how much I love him whenever we. . . fuck.I bit my lower lip when I felt the pain in my heart. How long can I hide how I really feel?I JUST stared at Jeremy who was drinking heavily. He already drank a lot and he has been telling me to drink with him a lot of times but I always refuse. I don't know the reason why he's drinking. There is a part of me that feels sad because I know, after this, something will happen between us again. Jannah the bedwarmer. "Shot, Jan." He handed me his shot glass which contains a hard drink. I shook a him to show my refusal and gently lowered his hand. I sighed and looked at the clock. It's already eight in the evening. "Jeremy, I need to go," I said without looking at him. I stood up to pick up my bag but I was so shocked when he pulled me to sit on his lap. I cursed on my mind and closed my eyes tightly. Shit. This is what I’m saying. "No. Let’s have fun first,” he said huskily and lowered the shot glass on the table. He wrapped his arms around my waist and nuzzled his face on my neck. I swallowed hard when I felt his breath on my earlobe. It sent shivers down my spine
Chapter 6 AFTER JEREMY and I did it, he immediately fell asleep while I was left lying there, staring at the ceiling, dumbfounded because of what I heard. I quickly dressed Jeremy and myself up, not even minding my sore body, and went straight to my apartment. My mind couldn’t think of anything else but his words. He muttered my name, not Jella’s. I think I’m going crazy because of the situation I am in. Fuck this. Sleeping with your best friend is really not okay, especially if you aren’t a couple. Damn, does he know? I mean, he was drunk, right? I couldn’t sleep last night even though my body feels tired already! I was sleepy but my mind was awake for 20-fucking-4 hours! Letting out a frustrated sigh, I messed with my hair and gripped it in frustration. I looked myself in the mirror. My clothes are already packed because we are going to Sumilon Island today and my eyes. . . fuck. My eyebags are hella huge! It was so freaking obvious that I lack of sleep! I jumped
Chapter 7 SO, JEREMY and I. . . we will be sharing the same bed. Damn, I’m used to sleeping with him, but he’s always drunk whenever we do it, okay? And now, he’s in his right state of mind. What will happen to us? Oh, god. I hope it won’t be awkward. “Okay.” I looked at Jeremy, wide-eyed. Did he just say that so casually as if nothing’s wrong if we sleep together? My god, what’s happening to the goddamn world? He looked at me and upon seeing my reaction, his other eyebrow arched. “What? We used to sleep together when we were kids!” he stated in a high-pitched voice. Woah, does that even count? “We were just kids!” I argued and spanked his arm but he quickly dodged it and chuckled. I looked at our friends and they were looking at us playfully, making me roll my eyes. I can’t with them! “Just relax, Jann. Don’t put malice on the situation,” Jeremy said, chuckling. His words made me blink and made me think about it. Oh. . . right. I guess I’m the only on
Chapter 8 “WOAH, WE were all waiting for you. What took you so long to come down?” Jessile said the moment we went to the buffet area. They were all sitting and were looking at us with scrutinizing eyes. I snorted. I know what’s on their mind. One look at their faces, and I know they are thinking that Jeremy and I had an afternoon sex. What the hell. “Well, we argued for a moment, okay?” I said and let out a sigh. Heziah’s eyes roamed around my neck and I almost rolled my eyes. Heck, this bitch is probably checking for any sign of hickeys. The others are still looking at us with no expression on their faces, probably not believing what I just said. That made me feel frustrated. What? Do they think I am that crazy to have sex with Jeremy, knowing that he’s sane as fuck? “Seriously, stop giving us those kinds of stares. We just woke up late and argued about the alarm clock. That’s all,” Jeremy said with conviction which made me breathe out a sigh of relief. Good thing th
Chapter 9 “WHAT. . . WHAT do you mean?” I gulped hard. I could hear Jeremy’s heavy breathing and when his hands touched my back, the coldness of lotion made me blink. But I could still feel how hot his palms are. He scattered the lotion all over my back, slowly and sensually, and my heart pounded. I could hear it ringing in my ears, pounding against my ribcage, like I was running endlessly in a middle of nowhere with no plan to stop. I swallowed hard when he scattered it on the sides of my waist, gently caressing my curves. Shit. What the fuck is he doing? “J-Jem.” I held his hand to stop him and luckily, he did. I breathe out a sigh of relief and tried to feel him behind me. His breathing is still heavy and unsteady. “Y-You told me y-you will never fuck me.” I licked my lips when I felt my throat ran dry. I heard him hold his breath as if my statement surprised the hell out of him. He went silent for a moment and I don’t know what I should feel, especially whe
Chapter 10 MY MOUTH hang open in awe when we got inside the Yamashita’s Cave. The cave was small and was very narrow, clearly bad for claustrophobic people. The stalactites are low and it is hanging directly above our head but its length are enough for us to walk around. We saw a second opening. There was an opening on the wall where the light passes through, making the cave glow golden as if there’s a lot of golden treasures in there. I gasped. “Woah, shit,” I heard Heziah muttered and took some pictures. Flashes of camera filled the cave and they echoed. I took a picture of the opening, too. No wonder why it’s called Yamashita’s Cave. I turned to Jeremy. “Take a picture of me.” I gave him my camera and he immediately took it. We went inside the second opening while the others are still busy taking a pictures at the first. I went in front of the opening on the wall and took a step backwards. I looked at Jeremy. “The lighting looks good here.” He stood beside the o
Chapter 11 MY EYES are wide open. I kept on looking at my phone, silently hoping that Jeremy would send me a message but it didn’t happen. He didn’t send me a message, not even one. And why would he? I see no reason for him to do so, and that’s why I so hate myself for waiting for his message even though I know it won’t happen! I mean, he’s fucking someone, duh? He can’t be having sex while still on phone. “Fuck!” I gripped the bun of my hair real tight and looked at the clock. It’s already 1:34 A.M. It’s time to sleep. Jeremy’s probably sleeping in the room of the whore he fucked. He’s sleeping, and here I am, wide awake. Damn, bitch. Don’t expect him to sleep beside you because he won’t. And it would be very disgusting if he sleeps with you after fucking someone. That thought was meant to calm my senses, but it heightened them even more! Fuck! I look like a martyr wife, waiting for her cheating husband to come. And I don’t like this shit. Why am I w
Chapter 12 “I’M JUST kidding,” he told me after a moment of silence and chuckled. I slowly let out the breath I was holding and made a face. Damn him! “Oh, shut up, Jeremy. Were you trying to give me a heart attack?” I raised an eyebrow at him and dramatically put my hand on my chest. “Why? Did I make your heart beat fast?” My eyes widened as my brows furrowed. His voice was so serious and it’s kind of making me feel. . . anxious, afraid he finally noticed what I felt for him. I acted disgusted and acted like I was vomitting. I rolled my eyes at him. “Dream on! You made my heart beat fast but not in a romantic way! I can’t imagine being in a relationship with you!” Jeremy just chuckled and pinched the tip of my nose but I immediately shoved his hand away and showed him my fist. He finally stopped teasing me when we saw Ayden and Frostine finally emerged from the elevator. Beside me, I heard Heziah let out a sigh of relief. “Finally. I’m so fucking hungr