TemperanceA month has passed since I was forced to leave Riverblossom high school.Since my departure, I haven't seen any of my friends. It's been a month since I've spoken to anyone aside from Chris and Kenli.I have no friends in this place. I'm alone like I did a 180. My luck has to be rotten. How can I be back to how I was before I met Alec? It's as if I went back in time.Sometimes I contemplate if my meeting with Alec was real or not. Were the happiest months of my life an illusion?Even if it was, my want for freedom is strong. I cant make anymore friends in a place I won't stay at forever. Even if everyone I had met a few months ago was an illusion, I can still have my false memories to lean on.When I first got to this school several people tried to talk to me. I would give dry responses to their attempts at befriending me. When they gave up I returned to solitude. I guess it's my fault that I'm alone now.The only thing I can be thankful for is the fact that there isn't Sab
TemperanceI sit at my usual desk at school, in the back. And wait for the teacher. I adjust in my seat as the teacher walks in with a stack of papers.With a sigh I lay my head down on my desk, closing my tired eyes."Alright, class. So some exciting news. The school will be taking a weekend-long field trip. Partnering with two other school districts." I listen to Mrs. Trevors go on about a trip I probably won't go on.I lift my head back up like a sheet of paper lands on my desk.The info for the field trip and the signatures.Fairview high school is proud to announce that we will be hosting a field trip with our two partnering school districts, Riverblossom high school, and Westring high school.My heart drops as the form mentions my old high school, Riverblossom.Where all my friends are. Where Alec is.I will have to avoid him. I can't get caught up with him again. I can't get caught up with ANY of them.My heart wrenches thinking of them. Thinking of not talking to them. Having
Alec7:15 am FridayI load my things and the guy's things into the trunk of my car. All the main guys would be going with me.Zander, Damien, Ethan, and Connor. The rest of the men had to stay here to guard.Once I get everyone's bags into the trunk of my car, I slam it shut.Then to my surprise, two cars pull up in my driveway. We aren't expecting anyone. The cars stop. I can't see inside.Then I feel my heart drop.It is my parents. Picture perfect parents.No, not just them.I watch as my parents got out of the first car. My mom has a big smile plastered on her face walking over to me while my father goes back to get their luggage."What are you guys doing here? You weren't supposed to get back from Hawaii yet." I ask my mom as she engulfs me in a bear hug."We just missed you too much. Not to mention your father was worried." She let me go with a sigh. My father is like that. Never trust me with MY gang for too long. It was once his until he handed it down to me. He doesn't have t
Temperance Once we got to the resort, everyone put on their coats, scarves, beanies, or whatever they had. The teachers push us all off the bus and into the freezing snow. We are forced to stay in place as our teachers conduct a head count. I shiver and put my gloved hands on my nose to keep my face partially warm. I look around. Everything is covered in snow. Great. I hate the cold. I stand in front of the resort, taken aback by how big it looks. It looks WARM. Then without warning, the teachers usher us into the building we will be staying in. I look around. It is beautiful. It is fancy. It is so warm. But it isn't just my school. No. There are two other schools already here. My eyes widen in fear that everyone I once knew could be here, watching me. I make my way to Chris and Kenli, who happen to be standing together. Many people push around me to get to various places.I look at my cousins frantically. They look at each other, then back at me in confusion. Chris grabs my hand
Temperance"WE GET BREAKFAST!" Kenli screams into my ear.My tired eyes immediately flick open, the bright light of the room blinding me. I rub my eyes, trying to get used to the light. I don't know what time it is. But right away, I can tell it is early."Stop bouncing around!" I yell at her, irritated. She screamed at me to wake up so early when I could be sleeping right now.*********************************I brush through my tangled morning hair, and I cover the bruises on my neck and face with concealer and foundation Chris bought me. Although the abuse isn't near as bad as it was with my father, I still find myself angry that I have to deal with it."Perfect," I whisper to myself, proud of the fact that I can cover everything so easily. I put on a long sleeve shirt and leggings. Kenli walks into the bathroom with a baggy shirt on and sweatpants.Brush my teeth and put chapstick on. As soon as I put the chapstick back down, Kenli grabs my hand and leads me out the door.As soon
TemperanceI am deep in the forest. Deep enough not to know my way back. Trees and snow surround me.As I stupidly walk along the edge of the iced-over pond. I hum a song my mother once sang to me whenever I was younger. I don't know the song's name. Or words. I remember the rhythm.Then I stop and turn towards the pond. I took a deep breath and stepped into the ice. I balance myself on the slippery ice below me.I start walking out towards the middle of the pond. Then to my horror, I hear cracks from under my feet. I hold my breath and stand perfectly still.Then the ice cracks more. I try to shuffle away. Then the ice gives out under me. I plunge below the ice into the freezing water. The water feels like knives stabbing me.Under the ice, it is dark. I swim back up to the surface and struggle to catch my breath. I grab onto the ice that is still holding up.I weakly pull half of my body out of the ice water, leaving my legs in for a second. I take a deep breath of the freezing air
TemperanceI lay under the mounts of covers on top of me. All I remember is closing my eyes after I fell into the river. But here I am... in a bed.I shoot up as Kenli steps out of the bathroom. "Oh! You're awake! I'm so glad!" She walks over to me and sits on the edge of my bed."Who brought me here?" I ask her. I look down and notice I am in different clothes. My heart speeds up. Someone saw my cuts."Alec and his guys did. And so did Chris and I. Alec carried you here..." She explains, her eyes not leaving me once.Oh shit. This isn't good. Austin is gonna find out. Fuck. Maybe if he just beats me to death he will be satisfied? I only hope that it will be quick."Who changed me??" I ask frantically. "I did." Sadness laces her eyes. She saw. "Who did you tell?" I ask, grabbing her arm roughly. She winces, "No one!"I stare at her, thinning out my lips as she looks at her feet. I let go of her arm, apologizing to her. I watch her open her mouth to speak, but I hold my hand up to sile
TemperanceI open the door to be filled with shock. Alec stands in front of me with Connor and Zander behind him. I feel my heart drop as I make eye contact with the man I had just broke. "W-what are you d-doing here?" My hands shake with anxiety coursing through my body. I watch Alec carefully, flinching as his arms embrace me. I stay still for a second, assessing the situation that I have been thrown into. His arms wrap around me tighter, my head starting to feel light. Do I tell him that he's making me light headed or do I let him continue?I thin my lips, agreeing with my heart to let him have this moment. "I am so so so sorry for the things I said. I didn't mean them." He whispers into my hair. Tears pull in my eyes at his words, my hands gripping his shirt. God, I missed the smell of him. My mind spins in circles on what I should do. I know I can't see him. I know Austin will never let me be with him. Is it fair to hold him back? Is it fair to hold myself back?FUCK I