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Love is a battefield Part 1HazelI get home and go straight to the dungeon room to meet Jonathan. Carmen is someone who believes in love and has an optimism about it that I don't have. I've always preferred to trust my work more than men. The conversation with her gave me some encouragement, but in any case, I still feel shaken. As much as I've already realized what's happening to my feelings, expressing them and being able to hear the confession coming out of my own mouth, was like confirmation of everything I'm feeling. No illusions.My cell phone plays a song about love, "love is a lie" by Bloom. Is love a lie?"Love is nothing but goodbyes,Broken hearts and lonely nights,Love's the tear that never dries,Love is a lie"I enter the room with my headphones in my ears, lulled by those sad lyrics. I'm suffering. I don't feel like talking to Jonathan at the moment. I hope that my eyes are no longer so red
Love is a battefield Part 2HazelIt's my bad luck that I have to have dinner with them now. I understand that Jonathan wants to address me as an employee, and this should have been the case from the beginning, but things have changed. Beyond our control. I know she was in his plans before me, but it doesn't make me feel less uneasy. I have to stay focused and stop myself from saying more than I should. I head for the table and exchange a spontaneous smile with Nadia, who is already living the room. I sit down, thinking about the song I heard with Carmen, and avoid looking at Lolla. Love is a battlefield, Hazel. Learn to fight, girl!Jonathan says something that sounds like a presentation, more or less to explain our positions and functions. He asks if we want to say something. I want to, but I can't really speak my mind, so I'd better keep quiet. I thought Lolla would do the same, but shesurprises me. What does she want
A tough dayJonI wake up early. I'm in my room. The night was satisfying, but not as much as I wanted. I still fed the dominator that lives in my inner dungeon. It's a creature that lives in chains waiting to see the sunset. When it does, it takes hold of me in indescribable ways. The control I try so hard to exert over everything is satisfied for a few hours. But, as an engineering professor, a guru to me, used to say: Things are going to get out of hand at some point, it's just a question of whether you're prepared to deal with adversity. Obviously, he was talking about iron structures, cement, workers and building plans. I think it fits in faithfully with what I'm experiencing at the moment.In the evening things got a bit out of hand, as I hadn't planned, but what is a dominator if no one escapes his control? That's when I can demonstrate my ability to put them under my whip and order everything back to normal. It's true that I do a lot of this un
ReflectionsHazelIt's wonderful to be able to walk along the sand in peace, it's still late spring and today is not so hot. Walking is almost like therapy. It helps me think.I come back tired from my walk along the sands and the pool looks inviting, so I seize the opportunity to take a dip. My knee is much better with the doctor's advice, and I'm still taking the teas he recommended.I try to distract myself, but my thoughts are now focused on how I should behave with Lolla. Preferably without showing any kind of rivalry. I need to keep my emotions in check. It's not easy for me. I can't be angry with her. After all, she has nothing to do with this crazy situation I'm in. I've gotten myself into it, and I could never have imagined that I would be hooked by love like this. I thought I would be shielded from Cupid's arrows if I spent all my time working. And I was so happy that way, dedicating myself to my true love, the dance! Keeping an emotional distance from people helped me under
The darkest, deepest part of the soulJonIt's late at night, I think Hazel is asleep. I knock twice on Iolla's bedroom door. It doesn't take long for her to appear, but I've already left. I'm in the kitchen. When Iolla finds me, I'm looking in the fridge."Sir?" She rubs her eyes. I was asleep, after all, it's 1am.I'm idle and anxious about waiting for these days at home. That means I'm more prone to BDSM than I've ever been."Go into the living room."" Yes, sir."When I appear in the living room, I'm carrying a jar of peaches in syrup and dragging a rope. Actually, I should use the Dungeon room for all this, but to be quite honest with myself, fuck Hazel! If she sees anything, I don't care. She doesn't like any of this and would certainly be horrified by everything I intend to do with Iolla." Kneeling."Lolla kneels with her hands on her thighs, palms upwards, as they should be. I sit down on the sofa and slowly
The dance of seven veils Part 1 Hazel Dinner with them wasn't so bad. Lolla and I hardly spoke at all, I avoided looking at her too much. Jonathan comments on the two days he'll be at home, without much enthusiasm. There's no way to rest peacefully in the situation he's in. He doesn't seem very eager to eat, but at least he's set aside the glass of whisky. This time, upon finishing, I ask for leave, but not permission. Just out of politeness. Even though I've been lying down for quite some time, I can't sleep. I feel worried after seeing him drink. Before lying down, I had gone to the kitchen to get a glass of water and saw him alone in the living room again with a glass in his hand. Did he go to bed? I get up and look around the house. I hear some movement in the living room, and decide to see what is happening. I imagine that Jonathan is still drinking. Maybe his problems at work are worse than I thought. I walk barefoot, without making a sound, and stop at the end of the corrido
The dance of seven veils Part 2HazelAll the news are awesome. It is an incredible feeling to wake up this happy. It made my day. I'm so happy that I jump out of bed. I have to control myself not to jump around the house hugging everyone. Nadia sees me enter the kitchen and laughs at my excitement. I tell her what' has happened. She asks if the treatment is really good.“Every patient who received this treatment was cured.”"That’s good. I'm really happy for you and your family.""Thank you, Nadia."I inevitably give her a hug. I know she gets shy, but I can't help it, I'm so happy. I sigh and remember Jonathan and last night. I ask Nadia if he's up yet."No, ma'am."I see the empty wine bottle on the sink."I believe he may have overdone it with the drinks, didn't he, Nadia? Let's let him rest. Anyway, he is not going to work today."I don't see Lolla, nor do I ask for her.Excited as I am, I take advantage of this energy and go out onto the deck alone, rehearsing a few steps and fi
Love, sublime loveJonI get a call from Hamza Saad. I look at the display and his name is already making me more nauseous than the drinks I mixed the night before. Lolla is at my feet, with a cat tail plug and ears scratching my legs. I don't really like pet play, but she seems to love it. It doesn't cause any problems as long as I need to get to work."How are you, Hamza?”" You tell me, Turner, installing cameras on site!”He looks altered, that's not good."It's for the safety of the workers.”"And we don't decide everything together? Is this a construction cooperative or a solo project?”"My friend, I didn't think of that, let's take the opportunity to arrange a meeting about it, Burj Khalifa, 8am tomorrow.”" The raw materials arrive at the port tomorrow, I don't know how that happened, those engineers are incompetent!”Engineers, I know... He w