86 - Happy

It hurts me to see her like this. Siya ang naging lakas ko noong mga panahong sobrang nadurog ako sa lahat ng mga nangyari sa buhay ko, but right now, seeing her like this, begging to see her father and begging to have a complete family makes me want to cry.

“I already told you, right? I left the Philippines while he didn't know that I was pregnant with you. He doesn't know about your existence, Anak. I'm sorry, but I don't know how to tell him about you,” I said full of apologies, which made her cry more.

“Mommy, please,” she cried more, as if that was the only thing she wanted right now and she didn't care about anything else.

I already told her that her father doesn't know about her existence. Sinabi ko iyon kasabay ng pagsasabi ko kung sino ang ama niya. Just like what I said, I don't want to lie or feed her a lie that eventually can hurt her. Hindi ko lang sigurado kung nakuha ba niya nang maayos ang ibig sabihin noon.

It's hard for me to say that to her because I know that it c