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GRAY
They say if you love something, you should let it go. So I did. I set her free, and I don’t think she’s coming back.
I still have no regrets.
Those weeks I spent with Fallon were the first time I’ve felt alive- really alive- in a long time. For the past five years, I’ve been numb, frozen in my grief, pushing forward blindly and refusing to let anyone or anything in, refusing to really feel anything. Throwing myself into my duties as alpha and to the security squad to avoid any semblance of an actual personal life. Then Fallon came along and started chipping away at the dam, breaking it down and causing a flood.
Even if she doesn’t come back, at least I had that glimpse at happiness for a moment. I now know for certain that there can be real joy in life on the other side of the pain I’ve been suffering since my family was ripped away from me. She’s both
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FALLON āI always knew it was you,ā Gray murmurs in my ear as he carries me through the packhouse, up the stairs and down the hall. Warmth spreads in my chest as I plant a shower of kisses on his cheeks, his nose, his eyelashes, his forehead. Iām so in awe of him, of how it feels to be his, for him to be mine. My parents were right; thereās no way to put the mate bond into words. Itās complete and utter euphoria. Everything Iāve ever felt for Gray is multiplied tenfold; the emotions are so overpowering I donāt know whether I want to laugh or cry or scream or pass out. Scratch that- I know what I want. I want him to take me to his bed and fuck me senseless. Gray kicks the door of his bedroom closed behind us, carrying me over to the bed and tossing me down onto it. My body bounces with the springy softness of the mattress, then his body covers mine, his lips crushing down in another bruising kiss. He pushes himse
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GRAY I wake the next morning from the best nightās sleep of my life. I spent hours alternating between fucking and making love to Fallon, coaxing moans from her pouty lips and watching her pant and writhe in pleasure. Iām still completely in awe of her, still in disbelief that sheās finally mine, forever. Weāve sealed the mate bond; nothing can separate us. I was so wrapped up in Fallon last night that I totally forgot about the full moon run, or the fact that my pack was probably wondering where the hell I went after it ended. My bedroomās far enough away from the main area of the packhouse that I doubt anyone couldāve heard us- but then again, with the way Fallon was screaming, itās anyoneās guess. Thereās no concealing my contentedness when I enter the kitchen of the packhouse the next day. Dekeās cooking something in a pan on the stove and I stop in the doorway, leaning idly against it and clearing my throat to ann
Alpha GrayĀ Ā Ā 54
GRAY āTheyāre ready for you, Alpha,ā Deke says, peering in the doorway of my bedroom at the packhouse expectantly, a grin spreading across his face. Heās looking forward to this almost as much as I am- the moment I finally get to tell my pack that Iāve found my mate. While Deke and I have done our best to hold our fractured pack together since I was forced to prematurely step up as their alpha, having a luna completes our pack in some sense, makes us more whole. The future of our pack is brighter than ever. Iām so fucking proud to introduce Fallon to the pack as my mate. Sheās a perfect luna- so strong and brave, a force to be reckoned with. I couldnāt have designed a better she-wolf to lead the pack with me if Iād tried; sheās so much more than I couldāve ever imagined. I can tell sheās nervous- sheās changed her clothes twice since we returned to the packhouse, and sheās been fiddling with her hair in the mir
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