Orson

Orson

It's driving me insane, I don't know how much more of this I can take. It's like I'm weakening each and every moment without Addi, and the more Iris and I try and keep ourselves preoccupied the worse it gets.

I haven't marked Iris as yet, and we haven't exactly gone through with anything else either. Because each time that we start getting intimate, it's like Addi creeps into both our minds, and the moment is lost.

Last night Iris tried to distract me, or maybe she was trying to distract herself more than anything else.

I was sitting up on my bed with my laptop open, sorting out pack stuff regarding training schedules for this week.

It's been a long and daunting few weeks since we started training camp, I keep sneaking glimpses of Addi every now and then when we all stop for lunch. I've wanted to pull her aside and talk to her, just find out how she is but she's always with fucking Thomas, it's like they're attached at the hip.<