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85. The Dance
I remain astounded the whole time. I thought I was no more tied into that marriage, but now I just discovered that I was living in a misunderstanding. All those years I was in the same confused marriage situation with him. And what about those divorce documents? Why Ashar didn't sign on them?
He was so impatient for the divorce. I gave him what he wanted, but he didn't accept it and I'm not sure about his reasons behind his refusal. God, my mind will explode soon.
It's the weekend and I have decided to attend the Benicio's wedding anniversary party. I have planned to stay there only for an hour because of Zoya. I asked Carol to look after her and I will pick her up after the event.
I thought it would be rude not to respond to Benicio's invitation. I reach to the address of party's venue after dropping Zoya at Carol's home. I look down to my knee-length, sea green, lace dress and straighten it. I bought this short-sleeved dress during summer sales. The fabric and
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