When I woke up at the insistence of the alarm I still felt tired, but I didn't protest getting up, I needed to go back to the studio to finish that artwork, which in the case would be to start since I hadn't even given the first hand of paint, I went first to the closet and got a pair of black jeans ripped on the thigh and a sweatshirt that had a social collar it was in black and the sleeve and the collar were white, I took everything I needed to the bathroom and took a shower to wake up my tired body, as soon as I finished showering, dried and dressed myself, took a good look at my hair that was in a mess, combed it with all the hate for the day and night of yesterday and put it in a loose bun with some strands falling on my face, I put on some light makeup to hide how tired and pale I was and left the bathroom, went to the kitchen and made some coffee, without caring much for the mess that was still there, I grabbed some cookies from the cabinet and as soon as the coffee was ready I
My heart was beating so fast I was afraid Draven might hear it, I could feel his breath on my face, and only at that moment I could clearly see our size difference, the man was not muscular, but he was tall and had a great physique, his perfume invaded my nostrils, the closer he came, the more I felt the butterflies in my stomach and a knot in my head. - Why don't we go on a date? - His smile seemed mischievous, and he seemed to enjoy playing with me. - A-a date? - I asked, confused. - Why was that going on in your head! - His tone of voice turned mischievous, which made me die of embarrassment right then and there. - Ha! Ha! Ha! Okay, okay, you found it! - I smiled nervously, not sure what to answer. "What were you thinking, Ayanne?! Draven must surely think you're crazy now! My mind hammered me and I literally bit myself on the inside, nervous at the chance." - Yes, let's go on a date. - He reinforced the request, but before I could think much I heard the door being opened, mak
When I started painting, I put every feeling that had that black, it was even funny when you take something pure like white and dirty it with black, white represents so many happy feelings, like peace, the will to live, purity, when a bride puts white on her wedding day she is showing how pure she is for her husband, not that this is something bad, to give yourself body and soul to a single person must be the most wonderful thing in the world, and this is what white represents, but black, the darkest tone, the color that prevents you from seeing further, the color of sadness, of death, the color that makes you sad, even if the color has not existed for this is still how it will be transmitted because the human being created it this way, marked it this way, was not on purpose after all who does not like to look at that dark sky painted with small bright points. Tell me how many people prefer to live in the black? Not being able to see beyond that color, not being able to smile because
After lunch, which in this case was a snack, we went back to the studio, in the cafeteria we just chatted away, nothing very important really happened, not that it was a banal moment or anything like that, we have to accept that life will not always bring us unforgettable moments like a simple trip to a restaurant, and you end up meeting your soul mate, life does bring us many surprises, of course, but I have to accept that even things as monotonous as a simple conversation in a cafeteria are something to feel happy and grateful for, after all, already being alive is something to celebrate, maybe it seems like I'm a fool to think so, but when you are someone who has experienced the dark side of life and managed to get out of this you already have reason to thank, when we returned to the studio the paint had dried in most of what was needed, I chose the various shades of brown to start with the outline of the body, perhaps it is not a rule you just start from where you want, there are t
- You may think so, but I don't think the others will like to hear that. - I continued supporting my argument. - All right, then I'll propose something to you, and it's up to you to decide whether or not you accept. - He began. - And that would be? - I asked when I saw him pause to speak. - Why not do a test without too much commitment? If it works out you can consider my initial proposal, after all you can never be sure unless you try. - At that moment, my stomach made room for a hall of dancing butterflies. Draven was really convinced that it was indeed a good idea to start with that, and I didn't know how I really felt about it, I didn't know if I would be grateful that for the first time someone liked me, after all this never happened before, I never dated, never went on dates, never really held a man's hand other than to be thrown into some corner of the dark room, I never had a good relationship with people even if I did I still distrusted them deeply, I wasted a lot of time
After leaving Ayanne's house the night the bear had come in, I didn't dare to talk to her, when I saw her being left at home by that guy, I realized that there was no point in approaching, in the end people will choose those who look better, who are more pleasant to look at, it was the normal, I can't judge her after all I don't like myself either, I don't like my appearance, but what could I do? I was marked in my childhood, I live in this stitched and marked skin, the flesh has already healed, but the soul will continue bleeding, that's life, that's how you live, I can only bear this alone, after all who will I blame? When I opened my eyes in the morning I saw the sun rising timidly trying to get through the closed curtains, I breathed deeply when I needed to get up, my muscles creaked when I stretched when I sat on the edge of the bed, I stood up and walked to the bathroom on the other side of the room, as soon as I stood in front of the mirror I saw the image that I had lived with
- Good morning, boy! - I greeted him after bending down and stroking his head, he received me with licks and wagging his tail frantically, I smiled with his gesture and got up, walking to the kitchen, I had bought a few things for him the next day I brought him home, I had bought his food, a bed bigger than his size, but it would be used even when he grew up and a guide, so I could go out with him, I didn't want an animal that would give me trouble on the street, so I decided to educate him correctly, I didn't buy a pot since he was small, and I wouldn't buy several times as he grows up, so I'm just using the plate I got the first time, I bent down in front of the cupboard and got the bag of feed, pouring it on the plate, he started to make a big party, jumping on my leg trying to reach the plate, it was cute, but I know that if I leave him with that kind of behavior I will have problems in the future. - Wait, you will only eat when you calm down. - I put some water in the kettle and
- What happened to her? - I asked apprehensively, already looking at her house, waiting for the woman to take the lead. - I don't know, she's had a fever for a few days, and it hasn't improved, at the hospital they said it was just a cold and that with medication it would soon get better, I don't know, but what to do. - Flora explained desperately while she took me to her house, I could see from afar how apprehensive the woman was, after all she no longer had a husband, and now with her sick daughter, it was double the work. - Stay calm, I'll see what's wrong. - I said as we strolled through the garden and onto the veranda. Flora opened the door and took me from the living room upstairs to the little girl's room, and as soon as I saw her lying on her bed I knew something was very wrong, the child's skin was so pale it looked like she was dead. - Call a cab or an ambulance, whichever comes first. - I said as I let go of Akira's collar on the floor who began to stir awkwardly sniffing