-----~[AMELIA]~-----~[THE SAME DAY]~I am just sitting in a particular position on the sofa in the living room staring into space thinking about absolutely nothing except my particular act of stupidity that I committed a few hours ago. Brandon has returned for work and it seems things weren't really stressful for him today because he returned quite earlier than I expected. I have already done him the honors of serving him dinner and he's currently in his study working out some homely business duties. His business never seems to end for him. Once he is done with the category at the office he always returns back home to continue another section in his study room. Sometimes I find myself wondering when and how his work will ever end. It never seems to. He is always busy 24/7 and only seems to have the time for me at midnight. Not like I am in dire need of his attention anyway. I don't really feel that particular ache that women are supposed to feel for their husband whenever he seems
-----~[AMELIA]~-----I puff my cheeks like a little kid as I welcome my present adorable distractions in with a joyous frenzy. The energy I feel on my face due to the extreme effort I am making to avoid looking like a guilty pig is excessive. I am putting so much effort into it I don't want them to notice anything suspicious about me. I don't want them to know about the issue at all. everything that happened was in the past and it has to end there. My experience with Nathan was the first and it will remain the last. It was all a mistake and I am not about to let my marriage go down because of that one silly decision I made. I am so sorry friends but you do not have to know about anything at all. So it is going to remain a secret just as I have planned. I take in a deep breath as their elated faces examine me for a little while. "What's up girl? You are looking damn elated today. " Isabella exclaims as she makes her way in with her arms wide apart set for an open friendly embrace. I
-----~[AMELIA]~-----"Yeah." Amanda replies sarcastically in a way that makes me want to giggle with excessive nervousness. "something you would have heard if you haven't gotten yourself lost in whatever blissful sweet trance you got yourself trapped into. " She says and I can't help but smile a little. Uugh. The situation is a little tougher than I thought it was going to be. I really need to manage and control how I get lost in my silly thoughts from now on. This is a delicate situation that requires maximum focus and attention. I cannot let anything slip past my grasp. One little mistake and another thing can lead to another and one thing can lead to this and that and before I know what is happening, my little forbidden secret is all over the place. I really need to be careful with whatever action and steps I take from now on. "I am sorry guys, please just ignore whatever situation you find me in. I just.....“ I pause for a while and think deeply. “I just remembered something.
-----~[AMELIA]~-----The confusion eroding my system right now at the moment is so excessive I find myself spilling rubbish. I don't even know what I am saying anymore. I am just a nervous wreck right now at the moment. I am practically conflicted and confused. It is going to be such a hard feat trying to keep this huge dangerous secret from these friends of mine. I don't want them to know about this, not one bit. but it seems everything I am saying right now is just leading them towards the issue and if this continues a little longer, I might probably end up speaking things I'm not supposed to speak. This is getting harder than I thought. When did it all get to this? Isabella and Amanda keep gazing at me questioningly. The intensity and their faces makes me know that my answer is not satisfactory enough to their hearing. They want more. They want more explanation. They need more clarification about whatever rubbish I am spilling before them. I take in a deep breath and chuckle. “I
-----~[AMELIA]~-----Eve. One of the three of my very good friends has finally found her heartthrob and she is having a very huge crush on him. He is my husband's brother and the demon that hasn't given me a moment of peace of mind ever since he stepped into the apartment. And just this morning he got what he wanted. He finally experienced the result of his relentless seduction. I uncontrollably fell for it. Why? Because he is just so good. so good and mesmerizing in ways I have never felt before in my entire life. The extreme delicious feelings I'm supposed to feel whenever Brandon and I get intimate, I feel them with his brother and I couldn't help it. Wow. Just wow. What sort of life is this? How did my entire life get so twisted and complicated to this extent? What sort of crap have I done? I chuckle nervously and brush my hair behind my ear.“ That is actually not a surprise to me.“ I say trying all the best I can to remain calm and neutral before them. I don't want to give up
-----~[AMELIA~]-----I have gotten myself into the hardest situation I can ever think of. My stupidity has gotten the better of me and right now I find myself trembling with nervousness as these inquizitive friends of mine keep staring at me waiting endlessly for my reply to the question just asked. I don't even know what prompted me in the first place to bring up this dreaded topic once again. I wanted it to end and I want them to forget I ever said something like that. I don't want them to keep being persistent about it till I am forced to spill out something I'm not supposed to say. It is definitely going to be a very great situation and I am not ready to encounter being tagged as a bad personality. Not right now at this moment.' Well aren't you?' My mind questions me and I blink. Just what the heck. 'You have already had sex once with your husband's brother. Isn't that enough a reason for you to be tagged as a very bad friend and housewife?' I resist the urge to clutch at my
—~[AMELIA]~—“Okay. If you say so." Isabella finally says easing the extremely high tension in the sitting room a little bit. “I am just really hoping that everything you're saying right now is the truth and you are not lying to us.“ She says and I bite my lip. " We really do want to believe you Amelia because I myself don't believe you are capable of committing such an atrocity so please just let whatever you are telling us be the truth. I totally don't like the idea of what I am thinking right now.“ She says and I grit my teeth.How the hell did I even end up in this situation in the first place? It is all because of that devil. That son of a….. I bite my lip and take in a deep breath nervously fiddling with my fingers. Just what the heck….. I almost slipped. Shit!!!! I almost fucking messed everything up!!!! Just a little inch and I would have been blown away. This is the worst situation I have ever been in in my entire life of existence. How did it all get to this extent? I sh
-----~[AMELIA]~-----I honestly really don't understand this fellow anymore. I don't just get him at all. He is just totally confusing and infuriating at this moment. What the hell does he want right now? Just what does he really want with me? Why the hell is he always in my way? Why is his presence always evident wherever I'm going? I don't mean to complain about this right now or but this feels like a perfectly good stalking experience. Just..... urgh. I hate this guy. He has long ago succeeded in getting whatever he wants from me. What does he want again? Why can't he just for f**king sake stop following my life? Urgh!!! I am really hoping deep down within me that he is not going to come back to me for more. I really wish he doesn't because from this moment henceforth I am totally and completely done with everything that has to do with him. Anything related to Nathan at the moment is completely off my bucket list. Whatever going on between us is completely over and I want to m