Caden's Point of View
"Cade, I'm not okay. Xavier, he left, he just disappeared, he vanished without a word, just a stupid letter. I thought we meant something, I knew I shouldn't get attached to people, what's the point when they'll later leave, but he convinced me he wouldn't, he said he'll stay, he promised me forever, Always and Forever he said, but he lied. I can't talk, I should talk to the girls but I can't, I don't know why.""I love him, Cade, I do, despite everything, I still do. It's just sad, I can't do anything without seeing him, I can't even watch my favorite series, all I see is him. I'm tired, I'm so tired, Cade" She said, her eyes glistening with unshed tears.I closed the distance between us, holding her hands "Danielle, I don't know why Xavier left or why he did what he did, but it's life. You have to know it is not your fault that he left, It shouldn't reflect on you, It just shows how cruel he can be. Sadly, this is life.""We'll be fine. You will be fine. I'll tell you something no one knows. I had a sister, her name was Caramel, She died, it was tragic and sad, it ruined my childhood and it's still messing with me. You remind me of Mel, I couldn't save her but I'll try to save you, just like I know you want to save me. Hold on to me, and I will hold on to you. Be my anchor and I'll be yours.""You have your life to live, A failed relationship shouldn't end your dreams. Your family is a big one, don't think I didn't notice those men in black, you have your life to live, you have people who love you, your parents, your cute little brother, you have Vani -- Fiona and Violet, including that your bitchy sister, Cara. Danielle, you have me, I might seem difficult sometimes but you have me, To hell with Xavier" "Thank you, Cade. I'll try" Danielle said, nodding, and I see her resolve harden, I nod, kissing her hands.She was about to say something when we hear"Wow, Fucked up Cade is making sense, did my punch do that to you?"Cara, the bane of my existenceI snarled turning, only to see she's not alone"Were you fucking eavesdropping" I snapped at her, getting up."Oh no, we weren't, we were listening. You think I'll leave you with my sister after all you've done to my other sister, after all you've done and you're still doing to Fiona. She won't even leave this place because of you. You are toxic" She spat at me, but apparently she wasn't done."I don't like you, I don't think I ever will. I can't treat your fuck up right now if I want to, you'll be down in a matter of seconds, I'll rearrange your face within two seconds. Take this as a warning, this is from the sister of the the girl that's stupidly in love with you, if you hurt her again, if you hurt her beyond repair, I'll kill you, in a heartbeat, don't doubt me.""I'm Cara Jovanni, daughter to the one and only Sinister Jovanni, If I want you dead, you will be dead, don't try me" She concluded with a hard grip on my shoulder"We have an hour before our flight girls" and with that she walked out of the apartment, and I pray, out of my life. I'll be lying if I say I wasn't shaken by her words, I looked away from her retreating figure as I looked at Fiona who was bitting the hell out of her fingernails."Cara does know how to be dramatic sometimes" Violet said chuckling nervously"I'm sorry Cade, she didn't really mean all that" Danielle apologized"We have just an hour before our flight, we should get going. Thanks for the hospitality Cade, but I'll have to back Cara up a little, I'll gladly assist Cara in killing you if you break her again. Bye" with that Violet walked out, not before winking at me."They were just telling you not to fuck up again. Thanks for everything, I'll stay in touch and as expected, I'm with my sisters, don't hurt her again" Danielle said, holding her smile in, I closed the distance between us, hugging her tightly."Bye, Princess"She pulled away, moving out "Bye, Cade. Take your time, Fee." She said, leaving just Fiona and IIt was just us, alone in my apartment, I faced her"How's your jaw?""How's your head?"We said at the same time, and I chuckled nervously"I'm fine" She said bitting her lips. She shouldn't do that, she's testing my limits "I'll be fine, hurts like a bitch, but I'll be okay" She smiled"Good" I walked closer to her until we were breathing the same air"You don't want to leave New York, why?" I asked her, remembering what Cara saidShe looked down at her feet "I can't even if I want to. My education is here. I have friends here, there's Caroline and Kai, I can't just leave like that" I would be lying if I say it didn't hurt when she didn't mention my name"You had a sister" Vanilla said looking up"You were eavesdropping" I said, freezing."I couldn't help it, don't avoid my question" She said"Yes, I did. What does it matter?" I snapped, growing irritatedShe took a deep breath as she raised her hand, cupping my cheek, she looked at me with so much love that I almost broke down"It's fine Caden. You don't have to hide from me, you can hide from them, but not from me. Never hide from me, please" She whisperedI stared at her for what seem like hours but was just few seconds "Her name was Caramel" I finally saidShe smiled at me as she said "One step at a time" I couldn't help but smile back at her"Yeah, do you wanna sit?" I said putting a little distance between us"Sure" She said moving to the couchI sat beside her, taking a deep breath"You don't have to, Caden" She said intertwining our fingersI looked at our joined hands as I smiled at her "I want to""Okay.""Her name was Caramel. She had white hair, it was whiter than snow. She was beautiful, the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. She was the only thing holding my family together, I discovered that too late. My father loved her, he adored her. Sometimes I got jealous with the love he showered on her. She was an angel, she had Vinc -- Dad's white hair, she was the only one who had his hair color, maybe that's why he loved her so much. My family was beautiful.""Caramel favorite food was Garlic Bread, her best colour was white, she loved wearing white, her room was painted white. She was fucking pure till the end, she smiled till the end, her hugs were the best. Her death changed everything. She died and my family was never the same" I stopped, unable to continue.I couldn't tell her how Caramel died. I couldn't tell her the nightmare my life turned to after her demise. I didn't say a lot of things, I'm not ready or I'm just afraid she'll run and never look back again, and I definitely couldn't tell her I killed my elder sister."She seem perfect. She lived a good life. I'm sure she's smiling wherever she is now" Fiona smiled at me, and all I could think was how scared I was at the possibility that Fiona loved me.Fiona's Point of ViewIt's been weeks since my sister's visit, ever since Caden opened up a little to me. Our little interaction justified all my theories of Caden being unbelievably damaged, something is broken in him, something more than his elder sister's death. Caden and I have gotten close, though not as close as we were before, but it's a step, one step at a time."Are you even listening to me?" Caroline snapped, diverting my attention back to her.Caroline's and I relationship has also improved overtime, we've come to the realization, actually, I have come to the realization that I can trust her, since Cara and the girls are not here, I should have someone who will be there for me. I filled her in on Caden, not all but bits. I looked at her, feeling guilty "No, I wasn't."I expected her to snap at me but she just looked at me for a while before seating beside me on the floor, don't ask why I'm seated on the floor, because I don't know."What's wrong?" She questioned, staring a
FIONA Point of ViewShe was silent for a while before saying "If you are going to work here, you need to be open and as a Psychologist, you need to be true to yourself if you want others to be true to you, I'm sure you are aware of that" She said professionally.I stayed silent not saying anything, not being able to. I'm quite sure I've lost the job"Wait, you are Kai's sister?" Caroline spoke through the silence."I made that clear already.""Oh my God!. You are that idiot's sister! You're nothing like him" Carol exclaimed"If that's a compliment, thank you, and if you're to work here, you'll refrain from saying curse words" Lizzie said firmly"So, Can you work here" She asked again"I can. I can work here" Carol smiledLizzie shifted get gaze to me, with her eyebrow raised, meeting her eyes, I said "I can't""What!" Caroline frownedLizzie was silent for a while before saying "As a psychologist, you should be optimistic, the word I can't shouldn't be in your dictionary. I don't care
Caden's Point of ViewGrinning victoriously, I stand up from her"That wasn't so hard, was it?" Victor say grinning at us"Oh shut up. Vic, Caden I'm not sorry!" with that she runs, I watch her running as her white hair sparkle"Get her!" Victor say laughingI race after her "I'm coming for you Mel""Can't catch me" She say running, looking over her shoulderI wish she didn't, I wish I didn't chase her, I wish I didn't listen to Victor, I wish I didn't read that text, I wish she didn't die.°"Fuck" I groaned opening my eyes, blinking furiously to get accustomed to the blinding light. I blink my eye, only to behold a white ceiling"Fucking Hell. Life's a fucking joke" I said sitting upright"Ha, I see you're awake" I heard the annoying voice of Lizabeth, Kai's sister. I hate her, I hate her so fucking much, including her stupid white hair. I hate her so much, She's always acting like my elder sister, I don't know how many times I'll tell her that my elder sister is dead, She shouldn't
Caden's Point of ViewGrinning victoriously, I stand up from her"That wasn't so hard, was it?" Victor say grinning at us"Oh shut up. Vic, Caden I'm not sorry!" with that she runs, I watch her running as her white hair sparkle"Get her!" Victor say laughingI race after her "I'm coming for you Mel""Can't catch me" She say running, looking over her shoulderI wish she didn't, I wish I didn't chase her, I wish I didn't listen to Victor, I wish I didn't read that text, I wish she didn't die.°"Fuck" I groaned opening my eyes, blinking furiously to get accustomed to the blinding light. I blink my eye, only to behold a white ceiling"Fucking Hell. Life's a fucking joke" I said sitting upright"Ha, I see you're awake" I heard the annoying voice of Lizabeth, Kai's sister. I hate her, I hate her so fucking much, including her stupid white hair. I hate her so much, She's always acting like my elder sister, I don't know how many times I'll tell her that my elder sister is dead, She shouldn't
Caden's Point of ViewMy demons come in many forms, it comes in many ways and it definitely comes in many names. I sat and watch as they all name my demons, study it, I watch as they prescribe drugs and treatment to make it go away, but that's just the sad aspect, the demons that hunts me will never stop, they will continue to hunt me till I die, no treatment and therapy can drive away my demons.The length in which I've fought my demons made me one of them. I've fought my demons so hard and so long that I've become one. I look in the mirror and all I see is them, I don't see me anymore, I don't see Caden Manchester, I see who I was told to be before I even knew who I was, I see the person the world made me, not the person I was meant to be. I don't think I can be who I was made to be, I feel like it's too late to start over, I feel like no matter what, the past will always catch up.It catches up to me in different forms, in nightmares, in flashbacks to Vincent, Victor and even Vanil
Fiona Point of ViewThe thing about emotions is that you can rarely handle it, it's like a fire, it could burn out of place any minute, you have to keep it checked and sometimes, you try, but you fail, just like I failed. There are certain moments, looking back, you wish you didn't do what you did, you wish you can reverse time and erase it, just like I want to, but you can't, I can't. It's been a day since Caden lashed out on me, I still can't believe it, I find it so hard to believe what I did when he shouted on me. As much as I hate myself for breaking down, I can't really blame myself, I was tired, hungry, weak, vulnerable, when Caden released those words, it was my breaking point, tears I kept in broke out like an over filled dam. I cried for hours, before falling asleep, waking up in one of the rooms.I went back to my hostel, with swollen eyes and a broken heart. I'll stay away from Caden, far away from him, it might seem impossible because we are in the same school, and we w
Fiona Point of View"Hungrry" Caroline groaned in a way that reminded me of Hope.I rinsed my hand walking out of the restroom"Aren't we going home now?" I asked "How was your day?" I added as walked back to the session room to get our bags"It was fine. I talked to girl. She's twenty four, so not a teenager, She adds oh in all her sentence. Her name is Rebekah, but she insists I call her Becs" Caroline said, grimacing.I smiled as I told her about Hope and Landon "You should see Landon, I'm definitely sure he'll do magic to your bird's nest" I said poking her hair"Hey, don't touch my hair" She said feigning annoyanceWe took our bags as I said "Take care of i -- " I was cut short by a melodious laughter. I looked in the direction and I saw Caden and a girl, standing by the entrance, talking and laughing, felt like something died in my stomachI cleared my throat as I said "Let's go" with them at the entrance passing would be a little awkward. I groaned as I brought my nails to
Caden Point of ViewWe are all a little broken, Caden. A little bit damaged, a little bit ruined, there is something Inside us that's broken, but not beyond be repair, we just have to find the right person, who is the right fit for us, someone whose broken pieces fit our broken pieces, just like a puzzle, and we'll be made whole. You, Caden Manchester, you make me whole and I really like you, perhaps my feelings for you will be Always and Forever, the possibility of that happening scares and excites me"Slowly, I opened my eyes, I put off the music that was still playing. I don't know if this was a dream or a nightmare. She was right to be scared, I was her undoing, the image of her lying on the floor, crying in pain is forever stamped to my memory. She was in pain, and I was responsible. I was her undoing, and now she hates me. It's all for the best, I wasn't her other half, I'm not Fiona Fucking Kings Always and Forever, and if she knows it now, she better stick it to her head----fo