I stuck my head outside the window and put out my hand, waving it out. It felt good to feel the wind in my face, making my hair fly all over. The smell of the evening air was crisp and I needed it to do good for my senses. If possible, shock my heart back to pre Luka settings. Luka was content with the conversation fizzling out and as he focused on driving he increased the volume and we drove around in comfortable silence till he got to some apartment buildings. He parked and I looked around. The area was neat and well developed and it was in the heart of the town. The commute from school was a little longer but he had his own car, so that wasn't a factor. "It's a studio apartment," he offered. I nodded still trying to take the exterior in. It looked okay but it was going to be very expensive. "Can you afford this?" I asked worriedly. "Yes." "What if you get cut off?" "I have my own money." "Wow. Trust fund baby," I teased. He gave me a cocky smile, "I have my own money th
My eyes were burning.I had this ache between my eyes which could be because of how tired I was but I had no choice.After dinner, I went straight to study. I made notes in sticky papers from the document Luka made and tried to simplify things as much as I could before I placed it all over my dresser, where I constantly had to read or see them. Reading with his guide made things a little easier, it was just that I had a lot on my mind. Still I forced myself to stay there for three hours studying and wandering off then studying again. My phone was just on the dresser beside me. Luka always accused me of not treating my phone like a mobile device which could be carried, so I tried to make sure that it wasn't within arm's reach tonight. What did he want to call me about? What did we have to say? I wish we could go back sometime. To Master and Pet and the bullying. At least we didn't have to talk. I didn't have to see his scars, or sleep in the same bed with him. "Arghhhh!" I yelled
I don't want to open my eyes. If it was a dream I didn't want it to end. But all good things must come to an end and before I opened my eyes, I searched for him with my hands. If the lack of warmth didn't tell me anything the cold sheets did. He was gone again. I wasn't surprised this time but I knew this one was different from the last time and what happened last night wasn't a dream. I woke up feeling relaxed and light. All night I felt him cuddling up to me and I slept soundly. More than I've done in years honestly. I dragged myself up pushing my tangled hair away from my face and trying to get my bearings when I saw a written note on the bedside table.I'm sorry about last night. Let's pretend it never happened. - LukaWhatever high I was on came crashing down. He had probably touched me just because he felt I was horny not because he felt the same. If not why didn't he try to please himself too. This was Luka, he wasn't some virgin. He had been with others and it's not li
LUKA.She didn't want to go with me. I could see the internal battles as she thought about it, so when she made an excuse not to go I wasn't surprised.I could make her go with me and she would. I just didn't know if it was the right choice. So I forced a smile and made it seem like I was okay by her decision. She wanted to do the sensible thing of having space between us. I tried that route the whole of this week and I was committed to it before she came in bearing goodies with a shy smile in that dress.All week I've tortured myself with wanting to know more on how she tastes, how she will respond if I take things between us a notch higher and I couldn't help but stay away. When she finally left I sighed. This thing between us was becoming so confusing. I didn't do love and all that sappy shit but Bella deserved that. I watched her alot in class when she wasn't looking, and she was the reason why I was skipping the cafeteria often. Every time I saw her laugh at one of Jamie's stu
BELLA"Who is there mom?" I asked standing on the bottom of the stairs with my pencil behind my ears and my hands in the pocket of my shorts. My mom was still at the entrance of the door and I couldn't see who it was so I walked to the door and raised myself on my toes to see over her head but there was no one there. "Mom," I whispered again behind her and she jumped in fear. "Don't creep up on people! You know I have an issue with my blood pressure."I burst into laughter. You see my mom always used her supposed blood pressure to have us in line and behave. "What is it this time?"She cocked her head to the side, her brown hair which she cut into a Bob falling to the side before she said, "you know I could swear someone knocked this door, but when I came out to open it I saw someone running away in a very posh car speeding away. "Oh." "Do you think it's someone from Boston?" I asked, beginning to feel some of the tension. "No. It was a sports car." Sports car? That definitely
BELLASomething has changed. I don't need a soothsayer to tell me or Luka acknowledging it, but I know something has changed since that night. Luka has avoided me before but this was a discovery. It felt like I suddenly vanished off the face of the earth to him and his world moved on and I never existed in it. The next morning after I woke up, he was gone. I wasn't surprised that he was, but it was also the last time Luka and I were in the same space. It was like he made it his life mission to always be occupied with something or someone. He was almost never alone in school or had time to return any of my messages. Just like right now, he was smiling at something Maya said. He looked so caught up with her that for once I wanted to be that jealous bitch that told her that he was screwing with me all the while that he was with her. I burst into a hysterical laughter the moment the thought crystallised in my mind. Like she cares? Just because I was not okay with their arrangement
LUKA I wanted to leave as soon as I stepped in the club. The music was loud, and the roar of the people on the dance floor grated on my eardrums. The flashing red and blue lights made my eyes ache and the throng of people I had to squeeze through made my skin crawl. I haven't been to a club in a while and if not for Dylan I'll be leaving already. The moment we sat, I ordered a cold beer and nursed my head in my hand. A blonde woman came up to me in a short fuschia pink dress that exposed more than it covered. I stared at her getup, from the heavy lashes to her thick coated lips in shiny pink gloss and it turned me off. "I'm not interested." My answer must come off as being rude but I didn't give two shits right now. I need to drink, that's why I was here. I need a whole lot of booze to drown me in myself so that I don't have any space to think or reflect on what I did. I watched her face turn sour and she hissed before moving away. I didn't bother to spare her another glan
LUKA"Hi." I wanted to force a smile to make him more amenable to me but I frankly didn't have it in me. Jamie looked surprised that I was talking to him and that he didn't care about my tone or expression. That didn't stop him from being hostile though, "hi." "Isabella is not in school." I informed him, even though I was sure he was aware. It's been two days. Surely she can't skip school for ever and she would have to deal with me. "I know." He went back to his meal and I sat down in front of him waiting for more explanation. There were a ton of questions just under the tip of my tongue.Why didn't she come to school? Was she okay? Did she say anything about me? "What?" He snapped when he found out that I was not gone. "Why is she not in school?" I asked gently. "Is she not your friend?" I didn't care for the sarcasm in his tone. "No." "Well, sorry about that." With a smug smile. With that he picked up his tray and he was gone. I had this strong urge to punch his smug fa