What's all this shit

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"I hide from you, you seek, I run, you find, When I smile, you caused it, I hate your aura, but it slowly drive me crazy every cursed day, I think am slowly losing it, but still I don't want to stop, Not one bit, not ever...

I tell my darn self I hate you, but I don't think it's true anymore.....

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I placed my confused face flat on my bed, as all my darn emotions slowly flush through me, ranking my poor weary head more and more...

I just really don't know whether I should cry or just vent out my anger and frustration on every darn thing, I just don't know.....

What's wrong with me, I tell myself, as I could feel anger flooding through me once again, cause we actually just failed to find out any little piece of information about my mother...

I thought angrily, as I kept on squeezing my pillow heartlessly, until the feathers begin to pop right out from it coverings....

And oh to top it up, that fool's words keeps ringing on my head over and over again, I mumbled angrily to myself, as I tore the pillow the more....

I just can't make it stop, my poor head is already so foggy from all this shit, I thought angrily as I quickly stood up to glance at my slender doll-like curvy appearance on the mirror....

Maybe is just that I am actually sick?, I questioned myself, as I slowly examine my body, as well as my face, but instead all I kept on doing was confusing myself the more and more...

Damn, this is why I work alone, I thought for a brief moment angrily with grit teeth, as I kept on rubbing my forehead with my weak palms over and over again...

I should really stay away from that fool, or else...

My head suddenly went blank, as I couldn't just think of any possible disaster that might happen if I actually stayed away from him, but still taking risk is not part of my hobby....

I really just can't run away from that dummy, cause whether I liked it or not, He was actually a big help, and completely this revenge scheme on my own, I just can't possibly do it...

My poor brain kept on racking the more and more, as I kept on hitting my palm frustratedly at the wall, with so much anger in my dark heart....

Oh Damn, to hell with everything, I yelled out angrily, before finally switching off the light as I quickly jumped back on the bed....

Oh shit, waking up aunt was the last thing I had plan on doing, I thought for a brief second, before my stomach suddenly rumbled painfully and it dawned on me that I actually didn't had a proper meal today....

I held my rumbling stomach painfully at this sudden realization, before cautiously stepping back up, minding my every step, till I finally reached the kitchen to grab anything eatable, before all the worries and problems clouded on my head, just eventually become the cause of my poor demise....

Not on my watch, I mumbled already mouthful as I kept on stuffing my face on a big pie...

Forget the diet, I gonna live if I actually wanted what I want, Revenge!....

I thought for a brief second, as a little wicked grin slowly creeped up on my face, as I kept on shoving my face right on the big bowl of pie....

I have to live no matter what happens, I mumbled silently, before my eyes slowly failed me and eventually everything became all blank again....

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Where am I?, My brain racked quickly, as I slowly opened my dull green eyes, only to quickly shut it back, as the morning sun shone bright through the windows of my room, before slowly getting my ass to sit back upright on the bed, still with my already spinning head....

How did I even get up here, I thought that I was with a pie, right?, I asked myself questions that I just couldn't answer, making me a whole lot pissed off, cause everything just seemed so blurry and really so confusing to me....

Damn, I really don't know what exactly happened, I mumbled under my breath with my already clenched fist...

Like seriously, I really just couldn't have passed out that way right?, or was it aunt that brought me back up here?, I thought carefully for a brief second, as I could already feel myself getting nervous again....

I getting nervous never really happens, unless it had to do with aunt and a situation like this, cause if it happened that she was actually the one that sadly brought me back to my room, then as much as I knew it, I was completely tossed...

Men!, I bet she's probably going to ask me a zillion questions, that I really just can't tell her the answers to, even though I wanted....

Oh shit, what the hell am I going to do now, I thought frustratedly, as I massage my forehead with my palms angrily....

Damn, I barely made it out of the first situation with her, but this one, I probably won't be able to survive it and it all because of that dummy Charlie, I pressed my lips together angrily....

Gosh, I shouldn't have listened and followed him to that damn Everlign High of his, I thought with so much frustration in my heart, cause I guess going there was just a waste of time, cause we actually found nothing.....

Damn, if only I had listened to myself, then now I obviously wouldn't be thinking of what I would say to aunt where she eventually ask me where and why I came so late last night...

I frowned my eyebrows together, before finally trying to bring myself out of my bed, only to stop still, at a sound that was kinda coming from the direction of my phone, I guess....

I swiftly turned around to where the sound was actually coming from, before quickly spotting my phone, as my eyes slowly glanced round the screen, making me press my lips together angrily.....

Oh no he don't, I mumbled angrily with grit teeth, as I frustratedly read the new message that was actually coming from that dummy....

Now am regretting, I really should have think this through, but no I just didn't, now look what am facing, I thought, pressing my lips together, still so frustrated....

I guess everyday, I would regret giving him my darn number, like seriously, what was I thinking, I could already feel my blood boiling over and over again, before tossing my phone back on the bed angrily....

That fool wants me to come and meet him again right?, I mumble still so pissed off, he actually wants me to get into trouble with aunt again, but no, not this time around...

I ain't gonna listen to anything he says, cause he's nothing but a big loser, I yelled out, before finally stumping out of the bed, marching still so pissed off to the bathroom to finally have a bath.....

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I slide myself through my black jumpers, as I kept on staring frustratedly on the mirror one last time, before finally styling my hair into a tight ponytail with bangs...

Obviously not because I wanted to, but because I was just too angry and confused to let my hair fall loose this time around....

Like men, I don't understand anything anybody, I stay at my poor reflection in the mirror before finally adding a pepper red lipstick on my lips confusedly...

I really want to ignore him and his pathetic messages, but still it might just obviously be about my mother and I want revenge, right?...

I raised my eyebrows confusedly, as my head kept on spinning over and over again...

No Ivy, you just have to do this, for mom's justice, I wouldn't just have to tolerate him and eventually get what I want, I whispered silently to myself, as I kept on staring at my stressful weary eyes through the mirror...

I live for vengeance and that's what I will also die for, I thought for a brief moment carefully, before finally breathing in a sign of calmness and determination...

As I slowly made my way down the stairs to finally figure out a way I would eventually get out of here, back to my quest for vengeance once again...

But this time, am sure that we are, No!, I am going to win this time around, I thought for a brief second, as I could feel a little small smile forming at the corner of my lips bitterly, as I slowly made my way down the stairs carefully....

Mission one: Get away from aunt first, then Oh!, whose knocking at the door, Sweet vengeance, Now this time the wicked grin was a whole lot wider, I swear I wouldn't rest until I eventually get what I want...

Call me a psycho, I really don't fucking care, I live for revenge and that's what I'll die for no matter what happens, No and I mean no one is going to stop this demon from craving rising again now....

No one!, I whispered bitterly to myself, as I finally made my way down the stairs, with my inner demon already ready for bloody thirsty revenge once again...