Chapter 42 Chapter Forty Two

MARK'S POV

Recently, I have been very troubled, my mind kept skipping a beat each time it wandered and I remembered that kick I felt on Bella's tummy. Most times, it was almost always as if I could feel how it had felt in my palm again, as if I was reliving that moment. It was like a daily reminder that I was going to be a father soon. I was going to father a child I had no idea if I wanted. A woman I have started to have conflicting feelings about was carrying my child and I had no idea how to deal with that. I felt stuck.

I had thought I loved Bella and I was ready to do anything to be with her. Finally, I got to be with her but I wasn't so sure if I loved her anymore. My heart didn't skip a beat at the sight of her or her smile anymore. I didn't feel at home whenever she was around me anymore, instead I felt…suffocated and suddenly want nothing but to be away from her.

The only good time between us was whenever we had sex. Those few minutes where I get to satisfy the itch were the