Finding Our Moment

Micheal

I was pretty upset to see Astrid run back to Lucas so fast after what happened between us. I told her I wouldn't tell because I knew if Lucas knew what had happened I would never get a moment with her again. I was right too, since she told him I haven't been able to be alone with her.

I knew I needed to put these feelings for Astrid aside for now. Last night I hesitated going to Lucas. Not because it was a risky move but because I knew that without him Astrid would be all mine. I shuddered at the memory of my mental betrayal. Lucas wasn't a bad guy, he just doesn't deserve Astrid in my mind. However, that didn't mean he deserved death.

I hated feeling this way. I always end up feeling agitated all day, because I don't want to hurt Lucas. I just also don't want him to have my Astrid.

I have been needing to fight a lot more here lately to release this agitation and anger. I have been hitting the simulation a lot these past couple days. Astrid and Lucas had actually gotten a b