MichealI was pretty upset to see Astrid run back to Lucas so fast after what happened between us. I told her I wouldn't tell because I knew if Lucas knew what had happened I would never get a moment with her again. I was right too, since she told him I haven't been able to be alone with her. I knew I needed to put these feelings for Astrid aside for now. Last night I hesitated going to Lucas. Not because it was a risky move but because I knew that without him Astrid would be all mine. I shuddered at the memory of my mental betrayal. Lucas wasn't a bad guy, he just doesn't deserve Astrid in my mind. However, that didn't mean he deserved death. I hated feeling this way. I always end up feeling agitated all day, because I don't want to hurt Lucas. I just also don't want him to have my Astrid. I have been needing to fight a lot more here lately to release this agitation and anger. I have been hitting the simulation a lot these past couple days. Astrid and Lucas had actually gotten a b
I must have fallen asleep as a knock at my door awoke me to a dark room. I got up, and made my way to the door as I rubbed my eyes awake. I cracked my door not really wanting anyone to come in. It was Astrid, she was staring up at me curiously. I looked around and saw that she was alone. She was alone, at my door, at night. Something snapped in me then and I grabbed her wrist and quickly pulled her into my room. Before she could say anything or deny me I pressed my lips against hers. I wanted her desperately and I continued the kiss, parting her lips with my tongue. She didn't pull away, she didn't resist. She placed her hands on the back of my head pushing me into her more. She grabbed fistfuls of my hair as we continued to kiss. She pressed her chest against mine and I lifted one of her legs around my waist as I held onto her thigh. She sucked on my lower lip making me let out a soft moan. Our desires were feeding into each other. I slipped my hand up her shirt, gently squeezing
AstridI opened the door to Micheal's room to find Lucas right against it. He had been picking at his fingers with anxiety. I felt bad for having been in a locked room with Micheal for so long. What was really eating at me was that those visions were my fault in a way. "What happened?" Lucas asked as he got up. I walked him towards our room before answering. Hoping Micheal wouldn't hear me. "He had another vision" before I could finish telling Lucas everything, he had turned around running towards Micheals room. My heart almost raced out of my chest as I ran after him. I knew what was about to happen and I wanted desperately to stop it. I knew Micheal was in no state of mind to fight Lucas or to hear any cruel words. I also knew Lucas was in no state to hear the things that Micheal might share with him. I understood why Lucas was mad but I also understood why Micheal was so sad. I was finding it harder and harder to pick a side and stay with it. I could empathize with both my husba
After a few hours my eyes couldn't shed any more tears. I reached out to Lana instead. "Did Lucas make his way to you?" I asked her. "Yeah he's here. He arrived late last night. He's been pretty depressed. What happened?" Her tone was full of concern but also some curiosity. "He asked me to pick between him and Micheal and for some reason my body refused to" I knew I could be honest with Lana. She was the closest thing to a sister to me. I also knew she wouldn't judge me. "I am sorry Astrid" She sounded sad for me. "I am here for you and him. Want me to drive him crazy so he just races home to you?" She joked. "Wouldn't that be nice" I smirked slightly, a pain in my chest resurfacing. "Just keep an eye on him for me please?" "Of course, don't worry. I've got him covered over here. Oh one more piece of news. Liz and Jason have started a little relationship. It's very cute. I'll try to keep Lucas away from it. I am sure he doesn't need a budding romance in front of him while he's
It took everything in me not to go back to Astrid right away. Not to take the words I said back. I know I'm being selfish but she was being selfish too. This can't keep happening. I'm not a jealous man, but it's different with Michael. I don't understand why she can't send him away. Why is she choosing to keep him around and make our problems worse? Lana made room for me in her house with Jason. They looked surprised to see. I let Lana know what was happening, but I didn't wanna share with Jason. I know he's a good kid but I don't know him that well to tell him all my marital problems. Lana seemed to understand and she tried not to pry too much. I liked living with Lana these past few years. She was kind and understanding and very caring. She and I got closer these past 5 years, so it felt easy to just be back with her. Sleep never came to me last night. I had stayed up full of worry, wondering why Astrid still hadn't come to get me. Had she chosen Micheal? The worry only ate at m
I sat there a while, just letting the guilt crash in. I couldn't believe what I had just done. I was the one that initiated it and yet I didn't understand why I did it. It was like something came over me and just wanted Lana right then and there. No second thoughts. I cursed myself for being so stupid. For just letting that odd emotion take me over. I laid back in the bed staring at the ceiling again. I hoped that Astrid could forgive me, but I doubted she would after the fit I threw. I wanted to just beat myself senseless but knew that would do no good. There was a knock on my door then. "Come in," I yelled. It was Lana again. I sat up, my heart started to race again. I had always thought Lana was beautiful, but I thought it more so now. She seemed really down, her eyes wouldn't meet mine as she hung her head. "Lucas" she started "it's her birthday"My heart sank. How could I forget what day it was? I threw a fit and left her the night before and then kissed her best friend on he
AstridI watched Lana leave with Lucas and take a piece of my heart with them. I knew what I was doing was right, but it was killing me. I hadn't flipped the switch yet. I wanted to mourn my relationship for one night before I did. I couldn't believe this was how it ended. We weren't meant to be all this time, but that doesn't mean that we didn't fall madly in love. I know that if we keep our marriage going that it would only continue to hurt us. I knew the moment I saw that string tie around my pinky and connect me to Micheal that I would just keep hurting Lucas and Micheal. I couldn't keep doing that. I had to say goodbye to the wonderful, caring man that I called my husband. My heart was breaking and I let it all out the moment Lucas and Lana stepped out of the front door. I dropped to the floor sobbing, holding my chest in pain. Micheal came out of my room and picked me up. "I am sorry" I told him, not just for having to see me cry over Lucas, but also because he had been right
I headed outside to start training soldiers. It had been a few days since I trained anyone and I wanted to see how much everyone has improved. I sparred with a few people and was impressed with how much they had grown in ability. Shawn and Micheal had been training them well. I was going to add Alfie to our mission. He was great at fighting physically and with his ability. He had also done really well on our last mission.Once the sun started to set I stopped sparring and headed back to take a shower again. When I entered our place, I saw Micheal sitting down looking at his phone. He was playing with his lip piercing again, something was making him worry. He looked up at me, he seemed a bit sad when he saw me. He sighed, getting up from the couch and coming towards me. "I let you down. Ben hasn't answered me at all. I am actually a bit worried about him." He admitted. "You didn't let me down" I comforted him. "How about we go together and pay him a visit? We'll ask in person. Libby