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Back in LA
Stepping out of the plane into the LA night I took a deep breath. The plane ride hadn't been that bad, in all actuality it had been kinda nice. Seth and I had talked about everything under the sun. We discussed possible baby names, we talked about Neal coming down to visit since he hadn't been able to make it the last time, hell we even talked about the fact his mom was wanting to be here for the delivery.
I could never quite put my finger on it but things always felt slightly off with us. I had always wondered how we ever ended up together, reality sometimes would hit me full force when I would think of exactly who he was. I had gone from being a nobody to one that couldn't even have a social media account that wasn't private because people would write ugly things to me.
My last conversation with my mother was her telling me I was a stupid idiot for quitting my job and moving in with him. Erin had already told me how she had flipped when the word was announced about the
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