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What Makes You Happy
Going to the club when you are pregnant is absolutely no fun. You can't drink, the music aggravates you and the baby, and people stare at you. I hate when people stare at me. I feel as if they are judging me and guess what they are. Now I know being with Seth causes lots of stares and unwanted attention, but being with Seth pregnant in a club brings so much more.
Do you think the extra attention bothers him? Do you think he even notices? That answer is a giant no, not until you point it out cause you are uncomfortable and he acts like it's just everyday life, and I guess for him it is.So here I sit at a table beside Seth who is clearly on another level contemplating ways to make him take me back to the hotel. The whole atmosphere just wasn't what I was feeling. I had tried to stay home but Seth put on his sad face and I found myself agreeing like an idiot. Why couldn't he have taken me out to eat, these boneless BBQ wings were good but not what the baby was craving. I h
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