I fiddle with my new bracelet, trace the tiny letter beads with my name on it while waiting for my turn. Miss Jota takes note as Whitney performs. Much to my annoyance, Whitney’s red pointed heels connect hard to the wooden floor of the stage, producing ear-scratching sounds. I focus on Miss Jota’s face, trying to tell if she’s pleased with Whitney’s performance but she gives nothing away. Whitney finishes with a mock bow, her friends clap and she climbs down the stage. Miss Jota picks a sheet from the table, squinting at the list.
“Theresa Mower?” I raise a hand. “Your turn.” My heart thumps against my ribcage, I rumple the script and shuffle to the stage. Twice, I almost trip and the girls seated behind me giggle. I release my breath when I make it to the stage, turning to face the small crowd. “You are auditioning for the role of Juliet?”
“Yes,” I answer with a nod, very much aware Whitney also auditioned for that role. I must get it.
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Let: I’m sorry you get bullied. And I understand how you feel about your dad, I know that feeling all too well. Daddy used to be so busy but he tried to be there for us as much as he could. I miss him sometimes, we both do. Some days hurt more than others but we do our best to survive. The divorce hit him so bad he spiralled out of control, was always in and out of rehab. The few times he was sober, he was the best dad a kid could ever ask for. Daddy didn’t want the divorce but mom did, she wasn’t happy in the marriage anymore. We all knew, their fights became more frequent but we hoped she would change her mind.It’s funny how no one asks the kids what they want, they don’t care how the separation affects us. We didn’t even ask to be brought into this fucking world. It’s unfair of them and maybe selfish of me to wish she stayed with him a little longer until AJ and I were much older to handle the divorce but I wish she did. Maybe he
Music booms from the earbuds plugged into my ears, I slap a hand against my hip in rhythm to the song infiltrating my mind. My head bobs, I nudge the door to the drama room open with my foot and stop.Everyone is here.Well, not everyone but half of the school football team is present. I yank the earpiece out and shove my phone into my back pocket. My feet refuse to function, I lick my lips, praying for my brain to send signals to them but they remain glued to the floor. The room is packed with tall walls of bricks in the form of jocks, I can almost touch the testosterone in the air. Their heads snap to me in unison, my eyes find my sneakers.What are they doing here?“Tessa, nice of you to finally join us,” Miss Jota says. The cheeriness in her voice washes off some of the awkwardness, I smile and walk briskly to where she’s seated. I am only a few minutes late so I know she won’t reprimand me but the unwar
A hush falls over the hall, I start for the stage, nearly exploding with anxiety. My heart beats against my chest, I feel eyes on the back of my head and all I want to do is scream, instead, I hurry to join Miss Jota. She points to a line in her script. Scene two. “We can start from here today,” she says. Unable to talk, I nod. Her hand lowers, she frowns. “Where’s your script?” I swallow, my finger juts in the direction of my school bag and she lifts a tiny brow, probably wondering why I left it there. In my hurry, I forgot it. “Do you know the lines?” I don’t know how I manage to nod but I do and she walks off the stage. “Start.” Blondie puts two fingers in his mouth to let out a whistle of support, Miss Jota’s stern gaze lands on him. “Quiet.” He offers a sheepish apology and her eyes fall back to me. “Tessa, over to you. We are waiting.” Ben is alone on the first row with the others seated behind him. He frowns when I delay to start and I lose
It is stupid. I can be prosecuted for this but I still think of it. How Ben’s finger felt against my lips. Gosh, I’m so hopeless and foolish for thinking about kissing the guy who treats me like gum on his shoe. Last night, I had a dream where he asked me out. I press another finger to my lips, trace the Cupid bow like Ben did. Butterflies flutter in my belly at the thought of kissing him on stage, he has to play Romeo, I’ll be Juliet. My inner voice mocks my fairytale and a soft sigh escapes me. I am getting ahead of myself again. Maria nudges my shoulder, I snap out of my reverie, trying desperately to wipe the smug smile off my face but it sticks. “What?” I yell when she wiggles her eyebrows suggestively like she caught me with a hand in the cookie jar. “Maria. Speak now or forever hold your peace.” Her brows only shoot higher, she winks and I roll my eyes. She does this a lot, makes you so antsy you start confessing to unknown crimes. “Fine, don’t say
“Your shirt is hot,” Blondie tells me.My head lowers, I smoothen the front of the white shirt I borrowed from Maria. “Um, thanks.” He winks, my fake smile widens. After Olivia made a mess of my shirt, I had to get a new one and the only thing my best friend found was a skin-tight top highlighting the shape of my upper body. I don’t need to look hard enough to see the outline of my bra and I know that’s what drew Blondie’s eyes to me. I need to stop calling the poor boy by his hair colour. Shouldn’t he be with the set design group? “Where’s Miss Jota?”After giving instructions to the set design group, she left without a word. He shrugs. “Dunno.”Ben is not here. Has he seen that stupid video? How did he react? He must have laughed his heart out. Someone chuckles behind me, my neck twists to get a look of the culprit and Noah winks at me. I quickly avert my gaze, eyes
By 4 am on Friday, I am awake and mixing cake ingredients in the kitchen for a jackass who confuses the hell out of me. My movements are slow as I hop from one corner to another, getting the pan and other items ready. I might have won last night’s match but Pablo did a good one on me. The bastard managed a kick to my cheek before I knocked him out. I will need an extra layer of foundation to hide the marks.“Sweetheart, what are you doing?”If I wasn’t so sleepy, I might have jumped out of my skin in shock but my body delays my reaction to her presence. I blink sleepily at Mum, she saunters to the sink to fill her empty glass. “Baking, Mum.”“By this time?” She rubs the back of her hand against her eyes and leans on the fridge for support. Her gaze runs over me, I must look the sight with flour on my face and fingers buried in dough. “What time is it?”“Um, I don’t k
Maria is crazy. Like insane. Her only solution is much more crazy. I close my eyes once another student walks into the class. The person occupies the seat beside me, I stiffen. His cologne makes it easy to identify him but I don’t glance his way. He kissed her. I am only taking one of the two pieces of advice Maria offered—to stay away from the site until something bigger blows this over. Their kiss is everywhere on the site, they are trending as couple goals. Yuck. As for her other advice, no, never.On our bucket list, item number two is: Tessa will get a boyfriend. And today, Maria changed it to: Tessa will date Benjamin. I almost burst out laughing from thinking about it. I can’t even get a kiss. The guy will not look at me twice. It’s bad enough I have to complete most of the items on the list before the school year runs out, now, she wants me to date Ben. God forbid. Not after he has had his lips on that walking disease called Olivia.
It takes me five days to reply Let. While we are waiting for Miss Jota to show up, I find a comfy space at the back and start drafting my reply. It’s short. I don’t have much to say to him but I try to be supportive.Me: How did it feel? Was it good? Did sparks fly everywhere? Did it feel like the movies? Is she your girlfriend now? Will you two get married and have kids? Lol. Tell me, tell me everything, I want to know.The ache in my heart grows as I fold the note and tuck it in my bag. I’ll drop it off tomorrow. What was I thinking? A hot stranger will fall for me? The only reason he still talks to me is out of boredom. He said it himself, girls are easy for him to get. I hug myself, trying to hide in the shadow as Ben’s head turns in my direction.Maybe it’s all in my head but he has been avoiding me. Sure, we have a few classes together but he sat beside Abigail today. I am not bothered. Na. I can never be. I am ove