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61: I love it
“Who was your first crush?” I ask Ben.
We are nearly done with our meal. Well, I am. Ben has done nothing but watch me. The place is a bit more quiet. I nibble on my lips as his eyes grow intense. He smoothens the front of his tux with a wink.
“Answer me,” I say with a smile. Why do I feel like it’s someone I know? Possibly Olivia.
“You first,” he mutters. He starts on his meal before I get another word out, I shake my head.
The lights in the restaurant grow dim, waiters move about the place silently and soft music plays in the background. I sneak a peek at my phone which lights up. We have been here for over an hour. I place the phone face down to avoid any distractions. It is a few hours until Christmas and our anniversary.
Does he remember?
Poking my cheeks with my fingers, I stick my tongue out. “My first crush was Brian.”
Ben sets his fork down, then the knife. His brows furrow, he leans
maramarthaHey, Sorry for the late update. There will be no updates until next week. I do need a break. But I have a surprise in the upcoming chapters, you will get to see it next week. Thank you for reading!
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