I’m furious with him. How could he be so selfish? All this time he spoke with Jack, and he’s been keeping it a secret, ugh. “Waaaaaaa.”I pick up Leland from the crib and hold him in my arms.I pat his back softly and he slowly stops crying. “Shhh my precious. Mommy’s here now.” I say to him. He’s such a good baby, he’s so calm, smart, and most importantly he listens to me. I rock Leland in my arms, and he begins to fall asleep again. RING, RING! I can hear my cell phone ringing from my dresser. I gently place Leland into his crib and walk over to my dresser and pick up my phone. Oh my god. I throw my phone on my bed. It’s Gabriel. What should I say? Shit, maybe he’s calling me for another date. Should I answer? Okay Carol just stay calm you got this. I walk over to my bed and just before I answer, my phone stops ringing. Well, everything happens for a reason right. Maybe it’s good I didn’t answer, maybe he’ll just forget about me. My hands are so sweaty holding my phone. Gos
Lights flashing, loud music blasting, and people laughing, talking so loudly to one another. It’s like I cannot even hear the sound of my own voice. Gabriel and I make our way into the club and have a seat. He gets us both drinks and comes back to meet me by the table. I know I should be having fun but being with him makes me feel I cannot act like myself; I feel if I do something dumb then he’ll probably laugh or think I’m clumsy. Well, I am, it’s just I want to make a good impression, I never had this problem before with Jack. He accepted me for the way I was. “This is really good!” I say, screaming at him. “Glad you like it.” He says.The club is so loud I’m practically screaming while talking to Gabriel. “Like it, woah it’s like I’m on an island, I love it. Haha, get me another!” I say.As I continue drinking, I just start to feel so wacky in my head. “Carol, you’re so funny when you're drunk.” He says.“I’m not drunk, I just feel hot, do you feel it’s hot in here!” Gabriel
“Carolina, Carol, answer me! Hello, hello!” I say screaming into the phone.She’s drunk, wasted, is she out of her mind? Why would she go to a club? Carol never goes to clubs. I’m so confused. Where could she be?Tanner, I should call Tanner!I pick up my phone and start scrolling through my contacts for Tanner then call him. The phone begins to ring. “Hello.” Tanner says.“Tanner, hi, it’s me Jack.”“Hi Jack.” “I need to know where Carol is, she called me and she’s completely wasted.” “She is? Maybe she’s on a date.”“I know she’s on a date, I’m not so stupid!” I say screaming at him.“I think she’s some guy.” Tanner says.“Gabriel, I know okay. Now tell me, where is she, Tanner.” “How do you know Gabriel?” “That’s not the stupid question. Oh my god, can you just tell me where she is?” “Alright, alright, I think she’s at The Reserve in downtown LA.” Tanner says.“Oh, thank you, thank you so much Tanner.” I say, then hang up the phone. I get out into my car and start driving s
As I dance with Gabriel, I can’t help but think I feel that I’m dancing with Jack, is it the alcohol that’s messing with my mind or is it the loud music and lights. I’m sweating so much, it’s so hot in the club or maybe it’s just me! “I think we better leave beautiful.” Gabriel says to me. “I agree with you.” I say smiling at him.“It’s a bit hot in here, let’s go out for some air.” He says.“Yes, I completely agree. Oh it’s really hot in here!” “I can see that.” He says, looking at me.We make our way out of the club and start walking around for a bit. It’s so nice just walking around with him. He has his hand over my shoulder as we walk down the street together. It’s like 2:00 a.m. it’s so dark around here to be honest. I don’t really know what I’m doing now. I feel completely delusional.“Your dress is really cute on you.” He says, looking at me.“Thanks.” I say. He looks at me and I think he wants to kiss me. I know I’m drunk, but I just can’t get Jack out of my mind. Gabr
“GABRIEL!” I say screaming at him. I ran straight up to him ready to beat him up. He ends up falling on the floor and I just feel so much heat driving all through my veins to continue punching him.“Jack, stop it! Seriously get offhim.” Carol says.Her nails are so dangerous, they scratch my skin, and she tries to stop the fight. “I get up and stop punching Gabriel.”She slaps me.“I’m sorry Carol, I just don’t want you to be with him, he's going to hurt you.” I say.“Yea, who are you to even be talking that way? Did you forget all the shit you did?” She says.“Carol, please I’m so sorry.” I say. “You cannot tell me how to live my life or tell me who to date! Just stop it. Leave me alone, you wanted this in the first place. So just be happy.” She says yelling at me.“Carol.”“Just shut up already. Gabriel, are you okay? Let’s just go, I’m so sorry about this jerk.” Carol says. They both walk away and leave me standing there. She really doesn’t care about me anymore. “Shit! Why Ca
Gabriel and I are in his car driving to his house. I cannot believe what Jack did; how did he even find me? “I’m so sorry again for everything.” I say to Gabriel. “It’s completely okay! Now I understand why you avoided the question before when I asked you about Jack.”“Yea. It’s quite a long story.”“I know I could tell you both have lots of history from what happened.” He says.“Well, I’m a firm believer in it all, I think everything happens for a reason.” I said. “Wise lady.” He says with a laugh.“I listen to the labels, listen to the man, try to keep a sense of knowing who I am, try to be an angel but I don’t think I can. Maybe I just need to breathe. Ohhhh!” I sing in the car. “Oh, so you sing too. Is there anything else I don’t know about you!” “I do it just for fun, my brother is the artist in my family, he’s so talented.” I say.“Ahhhh, I listen to labels, and listen to the man, but I just want Carol to be my angel, yeaaa then I’ll figure out who I am!” He sings in such a
I need to win her back. I love Carol too much; I need to fix it all. I know I can do it and no matter what anyone says I’m not giving up on her and my son Leland. Oh Leland, he must be so precious. I hope he looks like Carol; I wish I could see my son. I wish, come on, I need to pull myself together. This LA place isn’t working out for me anymore. It’s the holiday season too, my Christmas wish is just to have my family back.Carol loves snow, she loves this time of year. I know, I need to buy a house in Pennsylvania, after all that’s where we met right? I should buy the house and then design it all festive with Christmas decorations all over. She will love it, okay now I have a plan. Let’s aim high! I pick up my phone ready to call my dad. “Hello son.” Richard says.“Hi dad, I’m moving back to Pennsylvania. I need to buy my own house so Carol and Leland will be happy.” I say.“That’s wonderful to hear. I’m so happy you’re coming back here to Pennsylvania! How is Carol? Have you spo
This is my favorite time of year. It sucks that it doesn’t snow here, I know Hannah tried her best making it her style for the holidays but it’s not the same without snow. Leland needs to experience his first holiday with white snow. I’m so lucky to have him with me but something inside me just feels completely empty. “Guys I need a vacation.” I say. “You’re leaving, great I’ll help you pack!” Tanner says. “Seriously Tanner, stop it.” Chelsea says. “Carol, why are you leaving?” Hannah asks.“I need Leland to experience the holidays with snow, I think I’ll just go stay at the old ranch house in Pennsylvania for some time.” I say looking at everyone. I don’t see anything but sad faces in the room. “Are you sure you want to go?” Chelsea asks.“Yes, I’m positive.” I say.“I’ll go with you.” Hannah says to me.“No sis, you have all done so much for me already. I just need to go by myself with Leland.” I say. Everyone gets up to give me a hug. We all form a group hug together. I can