Tyler has just left me a note saying that he loves me, but he cannot be with me. Is that supposed to make me feel better? What does that even mean? I do not know how one can say he loves you, but yet he cannot be with you. Is there something he is hiding? Or does he just not feel the same way about me?
Regardless of what it is, it still stings; it still hurts. Tyler might think that he is the only one walking with a bruised heart. Well, I do too. It does not mean that if I left Brendan that I do not hurt. I do; he really has no idea what I have been through.
I really feel that I need to talk to somebody, so I get dress and make my way back to phone Sandra. With much luck, she will be available today. So it is with eager fingers that I swipe up and final her number.
"Hi, Sandra, can we do lunch today?"
"Sounds like a great idea; meet you at the diner in an hour."
Little under an hour, I drive out of the property. As I leave, I see Tyler come in. I l
This past week has been challenging. Tyler and I are trying to move back to before me, telling him I am in love with him, and he telling me that he loves me.I can't keep wondering whom we are really fooling, ourselves or each other. It seems that this moving backward comes easier to him. There are days that I really get angry at Clara; she is the reason he has become this way.I have been here for three months now, I have settled very well, and I have made a few close friends. I believe I have found my new home, but on days like these, though, the days that I miss Tyler, I can't help think that maybe I should just move back home. I don't think there will be a future between Tyler and me, not the future I really want.Standing in the shower, I can hear Tyler burst through the front door. With rather an urgency, he calls after me, "Jenna.""Yes?""Where are you?""In the shower.""Can I come to scrub your back?""You can come to
…Tyler POV…I know that Jenna can’t do this, and perhaps it was selfish of me to ask her to come when I know how terrified she is. And the thing is, that I love her too damn much to let her go through any pain, but if this is something that she cannot do, then I will not let her. So I have no problem turning the car around and take her home. And that is exactly what I am going to do.“Tyler, what are you doing.”“I am taking you home.”“Please don’t, I can do this, just as long as I have you by my side then I can do this.”“Jenna, are you sure? I don’t want you to torture yourself through something that is going to give you a great deal of pain.”“Yes, I am sure. So what are we doing first?”Now I know that she is going to hate me, for I did perhaps only told her that we are only going to the wedding, where in fact there is a bit more to this. So
…Tyler POV…Never has one woman consumed me in total ecstasy as much as Jenna does. In the tormented passages of my mind, I can feel her delicate fingers running down my sculpted chest as she lays spread over my body. In nothing but red lace, she fills the empty spaces that are only meant for her. Even though my hands have the desire, I will leave her untouched. I want to take my time with her; I want to feel her presence and let her linger until she begs.Somehow I think that it is me that is going to do the begging. I will count the seconds as I patiently wait to explore her body and soul. I want her to not only be with me; I want us to become as one. She shall be the one that will be Tyler Moore's undoing, in fact, she has, but I have been too scared to admit it to her yet.So with what could only be described as endless hours, I have been counting the seconds as they crawled in anticipation. I have been waiting for this moment, this moment until
...Tyler POV... As we step into the room, we come to a stop at the foot of the bed. As I turn to her, those deep blue eyes tell me so many stories, but what they tell the most is that she wants me just as much as I need her. As she starts to speak, I softly press my finger against her soft velvety lips. "Ssshhh, Jenna." But then I add... "Unless if you want me to stop." She answers by loosening the buttons of my shirt slowly one by one; I watch as her hands are slightly trembling. I take her hand to stop it from shaking and let my lips seek hers instead; it is all she needs to take that edge off her nervousness. In no time, she has me bare in front of her; she runs her fingers over the lines of my muscled chest. It sends ripples of pleasure to every corner of my body. Then she slowly pulls my shirt off over my shoulders. I scrunch her dress together; it finds its way over her head and into a pile next to my shirt. With
It is the day after a weekend spent with Tyler in absolute bliss. The wedding was breathtaking and so were the moments of intimacy that I spent in his arms. The way he held me and the way he made me feel was once a reminder of the feelings that we both share but are yet too afraid to mention. Yes, every minute of the weekend that we shared together was against all our rules, though we did not seem to care at all for we broke them over and over again without any fail. What else is breaking them without fail, is waking up this morning with his glorious sight next to me.He is lying next to me with his body completely exposed; he is still sleeping. He looks so innocent; under that facade is a hungry man. A man wanting love just as bad as I do. His body screams perfection. Behind those closed lids are the most beautiful brown eyes that can see straight into your soul. A perfect chiseled jaw, a tantalizing bronze skin, a chest so hot it can melt butter, his rippled abs beg to be t
I am going back to the city; I am done with this town. I am done with Tyler; I am tired of waiting for him. I am tired of waiting for Tyler to tell me how he really feels. He cannot tell me that he loves me, he is too damn scared to get the words out of his mouth. The fact is, he will never tell me what he really feels for me. He is so hung up on what Clara did to him that he cannot see what is right in front of his eyes. I have been here waiting and waiting and I will wait forever. I am done with Tyler Moore. I am not waiting for him any longer. It is time I go back to where my real home is. So as I get home, and I start packing, then I hear Tyler bursting through the front door. I guess he has discovered what I have done with Clara. Well, does it truly look like I care? “Jenna!” His voice comes rumbling as he starts racing up the stairs. I only but turn away from him and carry on packing, “Tyler just leave me alone.” He steps
It's been a month since I left that town, which name I still cannot say. Living in this horribly overpriced hotel room is completely my own fault. There have been so many house showings that I have gone to, but I still do not want to buy into one and settle down. I hate everything about this city. Of all the places in this world, this is one of the last places I want to be in.The only good thing in my life that has happened so far is my new job. I decided to get a job to help me pass the time and make me not fall apart. I am the new sex columnist for the magazine where Tyler and I got some of our ideas from. I figured that if I can not have mind-blowing sex every day, at least I can write about it.This morning I came up with a better solution for my living arrangements. It's bold and definitely crazy, I might even regret it, but I don't care; I don't want to be in this city.So I pick up my phone and dial his number.“Luke.”
It is my first day in my new home. This is the first thing that I have ever had that I can call my own. The home that I lived in with Brendan belonged to my parents. Living with Tyler was short, and it was in his home too. This is my own“Fuck. I did not think about furniture.”I need help, but asking anyone for help is taking a risk. My only friends are back in Tyler's town, only other person I know is Luke, but I really don't know him that well“What the fuck was that?”I felt a sensation shoot over my body at the mention of Luke's name, a sensation I know all about, a sensation I write about it every day.“No way in hell, Jenna!”I am just imagining it, I am lonely, and I need a friend. Seeing Tyler has just opened up a bunch of raw feelings. It has awakened my insatiable sex drive again.I find Luke back at his office.“Luke.”