1. Wanna-be Luna

AURELIA

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“Look at me.” He grunted out an order, sending shivers down my spine as he slammed into me like a beast. 

“Look into my eyes, mate!” Another order came and this time, I obeyed him even though it was hard to fight against the need to let my eyes roll to the back of my skull while he tore me apart with every thrust. 

I looked into the mesmerizing gray pair of eyes that I had come to love. I felt every part of him sinking into me roughly and pleasure and pain accompanied each thrust. For some minutes, the pleasure outweighed the pain but my body still recognized the pain my mate… the man I loved with every bone in my body was causing me while he chased after his pleasure. 

Despite the dull discomfort between my legs, I still found myself moaning when my mate drove himself into me the minute our gazes locked, “Alpha.” I itched to cry out his name. I wished I could give in to my desire, let my fingers sink into his dirty blond hair, and guide his head downwards until our lips lock in sync as well. 

Oh, how I wished. 

Yet, I dare not. 

In fact, I couldn’t, not when my hands were pinned above my head and definitely not when my mate jerked above me, releasing his seeds into me as he came down from his high. 

“Mmh mm…” I winced not because of the rough sex that seemed to have ended but because once again, I had been denied the pleasure of experiencing an orgasm by the one man I would do anything to please. 

He was my Alpha. My mate. My husband. 

He was my everything. He was Raiden. My Raiden. 

I kept my eyes on Alpha Raiden, hoping that he would return to me and push me over the edge of pleasure but he detached completely, left the bed, got dressed, and exited the room without sparing me another look.

He was done and gone. 

Like a rag doll that had just been used, I lay in the one bed I was allowed to be in with Alpha Raiden. Like an emotionless sex toy, I stared at the white ceiling of the only room in the entire world that I was allowed to share with Alpha Raiden. It was a room I had named three years ago and I call it, “Sex Room”

“Always be in this room when I need you.” Alpha Raiden had gritted to me three years ago after our wedding ceremony. “I don’t need you anywhere else but here. Do I make myself clear?” 

“Yes, Raiden. I won’t be–” I had begun to respond with excitement and desire. 

But he snarled ferociously, “Never!” 

I recalled staggering backward towards the bed as I watched the man I had loved for years stare down at me with nothing but disgust. The kind that I had never seen in his eyes before.

“Never say my name, mate! I’m Alpha to you and don’t go about acting like we are madly in love, woman!” He had said with a tone of finality. 

Yes, my heart broke that day three years ago but Alpha Raiden wasn’t always like that. He was a good man and I couldn't give up on the beautiful mate bond that the moon goddess had blessed me with. Alpha Raiden was the only person that I could boldly call my person. 

He was mine. 

I had no one else so I thought he would one day understand that he was all I had. 

I had hope and I’m still hoping that he would one day look at me with love in those gray eyes. I was hoping that I would be able to prove that I was worthy to be his Luna and goddess knew that I had tried. I was doing my best to support him and love him even though he still wouldn’t kiss me. 

Huh!

Three years of answering to his sexual call whenever he needs me as his mate yet it’s been three years of no kiss and three years of little to no emotional connection between my mate and I.

“He hates you. He will always hate you.” A tiny voice inside my head chimed. 

No. 

Alpha Raiden didn't hate me. He was just angry about the fact that he had to mate with the lowest wolf in the pack. He was stuck with an orphan and to top it all, this orphan couldn’t shift or access her wolf yet he had to mate with me. Even if he wanted to form a stronger bond with me, I wouldn’t sense it because I was wolfless and weak. 

I knew that much and I hated myself more than anyone in the pack… And there were so many who hated me. Countless to be honest. 

After several minutes of self-pity, I pushed myself off the bed even though my body resisted. Sex with Alpha Raiden always leaves me tired and bruised and today wasn’t any different. I could see the red marks on my body as I made my way to the bathroom to clean up. 

I soon made my way to the kitchen of the Alpha Mansion which has been my home for the past three years, to make breakfast for myself because no one would. I was the Luna of the Dark Moon Pack yet no one served me. It wasn’t new and I was used to doing everything myself.

After all, I used to be one of the Alpha servants before Alpha Riaden married me.

Just as I started whisking the eggs I had broken into a bowl, I heard the front door opening. Of course, that couldn't be Alpha Raiden. He is usually out of the mansion during the day so I suspected that whoever was in the house with me was a servant. 

What I didn’t expect was to see two female servants and two armed warriors walk into the kitchen, approaching me. 

My brows furrowed and I blurted, asking the familiar female servant a question, “What now, Nina? Are you here to speak down on me again?”

Nina was the head of every servant that worked for the Alpha. She used to be my mean boss and let’s just say she didn’t like the fact that I was now her superior. 

I assumed Nina would say something mean to me but she stunned me as her frown deepened and she faced the warriors, hissing, “Drag the wanna-be Luna out!” 

And to me, Nina smirked, “This is your end, Aurelia. I have waited three years to witness this.”