I have just shot a friend, he is alive but I still shot him. What the fuck has become of me? I am reckless and I feel I am going crazy. Have I lost my damn mind? Yes I have. But I also have a family to protect. He crossed the line, well my line as I see it. Are my lines blurred? Of course they are. He was a problem, a problem that I had to fix. And Ava ~ walked in on me fixing it. How fucking stupid can I be.
I put my gun down on the counter and take her into the lounge.
Trayton ~“Baby girl are you okay?”
Ava ~“Why won't I be?”
Trayton ~“I did not want you to see that?”
Ava ~“I'd rather see that than you lie to me about that or were you going to lie to me about that?”
Trayton ~“I was not going to tell you about the shooting, I did not plan for it to happen.”<
There are times in your life that you wish that some things just did not happen. That if you close your eyes long enough that they might just go away. You ignorant if you think such things can happen, things do not go away, they stick and they stick damn hard. It has been a week since Ava and Emma confronted me with their idea. I have kept to myself and have not spoken about it. This is not a decision I can make, in fact I will not make it. I am scared for what have created. I slip out of bed early morning before Ava wakes and make my way downstairs. Mom is in the kitchen making a fresh pot of coffee. Mary ~“Can I get you a cup Trayton?” Trayton ~“Yes please mom.” Mary ~“Tell me what is going on?” Mary ~“You have been quiet the whole week.”
I drop to the floor. Everything goes black. .................................................. I wake up. My head is pounding, it feels like a freight train has made mush of my head. It is throbbing like shit. Did my drunk ass fall down? Before I can even think of opening my eyes, there is a blow to my head. Everything goes black. .................................................. At the club with Kenton… Kenton ~“Who is the last one that saw Trayton?” Dominic ~“The bouncer and Jacklyn.” Kenton ~“Get that bitch over here.” &nbs
In all my years, I always got the job done, I left no survivors and I never got seen. I was a ghost, I went in and out even before the body hit the floor. I am the best, I had no enemies that were seen as my rivals. Something must have changed.I have two faces staring back at me and I have no idea who they are. I can fully understand the man but I hardly ever take a woman. It is just something I will not do. The faces aren't even familiar as I run through targets that I can remember.Trayton ~“You will have to enlighten me but I don't know who you damn assholes are.”Man ~“Don't tell me your fucking sick ass cannot make some sort of resemblance.”Woman ~“I don't care if he remembers, I want the sack of shit dead.”Man ~“I told you we are not making it so easy for him.”Woman ~“And I told you we should just waste his ass.”Man ~“It was my fucking idea to catch the asshole.”Woman ~“And I am the one that found him.”Man ~“Should I take five minutes to applaud you? You were too damn stup
They say that you get served what you deserve, that the stone you throw today might be the one you trip over tomorrow. I have just stumbled over my rock. If I thought that my lifestyle would never come and slap me in the face, I was a complete fool. Here I am tied up to a chair with four people staring at me, each wanting to get their revenge in their own way.Mystery woman ~“I have been waiting for this day ever since that day you threw me out your club.”
I have come to realize that there is no such thing as perfect. Or maybe I just attract more bad than good. Perhaps for everything that goes well there is something that has to go wrong too. My baby got shot, I was waiting to see what this is going to do to her, but she is doing well. In fact so well that she is about to shove an ice block down my pants. Trayton ~
The worst thing a man can see is when the person he loves is crying. Sometimes there is absolutely nothing you can do but give a solid shoulder to cry on. I have never been one that knew how to comfort. I always use to shy away from showing any affection. Somewhat cold and somewhat insensitive.But meeting Ava ~ has all changed that. I have learned how to comfort her and to take her tears away. Even though it scares me shitless, I have stayed next to her and help her seethe way through. She is crying again, she is mumbling through a bunch of sobs and I don't understand a word.&nb
My life is about to change, again, some of it good and some of it bad, depending which side you standing from. How can a man like me give a life when I am the one taking lives. The sad thing is taking lives is a lot less scary than giving one. Nothing in life happens as it is planned, when things change you fall in with the new and you take it from there.I have been an asshole towards Ava. I think asshole is putting it lightly, very lightly. I have had a week to digest everything that has happened. I am going to be a father and I embrace it, I have stopped thinking like a selfish jerk and even though the excitement has not fully set in, I know it definitely wi
In an instant it is all away.Everything is taken away.My life is defined in only two moments. The first night I met her and the last night I saw her. Once I was running towards her and the past week I was only running away from her. Never once did I think I would loose her. At times we have had our fights but we always would get back together. I honestly thought this would be one of those times and not one of those defining moments.Trayton ~”Where the fuck is she? Do any one of you know where she is? WHERE IS SHE?”Mary ~”Trayton I was with her the whole day and she said nothing to me.”I dial her number.It rings.And rings.And rings some more.