AMBROSE
“Whatever, I don’t want to talk about them right now. I’m a having a blast tonight. This was probably the best night that I ever had.” August shook his head probably trying to shrug all of the negative energy to a distant land. He was just letting me know that we shouldn’t talk about Rachel and Phil. “For now, let’s just have another toast.” He gave me an inviting smile as he raised his already empty glass.
“Oh you’re out of whiskey.” I spat eventually grabbing the bottle of whiskey and pouring some on his glass. There’s still some ice left on his glass so there’s no need for a refill.
“Cheers!” August said once I finished pouring.
“Cheers!” I replied putting all my attention to him and we both drank in unison.
I know there’s a lot of things going on inside August’s mind
AUGUSTThe sound of my ringtone was roaring like a thunder that it forced me to wake up from my deep slumber. Opening my eyes felt extremely difficult and even just twitching my eyeballs was making my head pop off. I’m sure this was what they call hangover and now I feel like shit. My eyes had a difficult time on adjusting from the bright morning light that’s rushing from the windows. I tried to let the phone call pass by hoping it would end soon but whoever’s calling must really be that persistent. I moved my muscles around eventually noticing that I was cooped inside Ambrose’s arms. We both fell asleep on the couch and I don’t even know how we ended up spooning each other.Even though I’m starting to reap the feeling of regret, I had a real blast last night. My head was pulsating in agony and some parts are throbbing but I had to take all of the pain in just to reach for my
AUGUST“How’d you like the painting?” I almost jumped out in complete shock when I heard Ambrose speak from behind.I turned my head to have a better view of him and he was looking rather fresh and comfortable that I’m starting to get jealous. I feel utterly disgusted by the stickiness and the smell of my body while Ambrose just got out of the shower and he’s all feeling refreshed. He’s wearing nothing but a towel on the bottom half of his body while the top was all for my eyes to scrutinize. I never thought I would see this Grecian body once again but here it is all for me to gaze upon at. There were grains of water still forming on his toned muscles, some of them are cascading down making him look even hotter than he already was. The little gay August hiding inside of me was already melting like cheddar cheese as the air around me turned a little bit humid. If I could just
AUGUSTAll good things must come to an end. I remembered someone had said that or wrote that and now, the good thing between Ambrose and me just ended on a very positive note. He just left after taking me home and now I’m left indescribably hangover by him. I’m still having the hangover from last night’s full on blast, I still feel dehydrated and my muscles are aching, but that’s not even relevant because the hangover that I’m having about what happened between me and Ambrose was more powerful.I walked tardily inside our house and my mind was still occupied by the thoughts of the one Ambrose Haylock. I’ve never thought of him being gay, or even liking another guy in the slightest, not even when pigs fly but surprising things in life are meant to surprise you in the most unanticipated moment.After I having a shower, Ambrose and I ended up cooking some ra
AUGUSTDid I just forgot that I still have a girlfriend?The question seemed to drill a massive hole inside my head leading me towards this deep and unnerving sink hole that’s called panic. I’m so much caught up with Ambrose’s intriguing attention that I literally forgot about Rachel’s existence. I still have a girlfriend to check upon and that woman’s crazily obsessed with me. I forgot that I’m still playing the straight dude, for Pete’s sake.I only went to the dining table with my parents for about half an hour, not even close to that, and I already missed this much calls. I stared at the twelve calls that I missed and just by looking at the red text, it appeared like it’s going to swallow me alive. Those twelve missed calls could even mean a ton of things. It could mean that Rachel’s probably upset with me and now I’m starting
AUGUSTI’m not so sure as to why Ambrose had to write a note in a piece of paper when he could’ve easily sent me a text message. It’s the most digital and the easiest way rather than risking things just to drop that note under the bush. I don’t know what’s going on inside that head of his but I guess passing notes in secrecy felt even more romantic than just plainly sending a text message.The day rolled out pretty casual with me still playing the royal role of being Rachel’s picture perfect boyfriend. I don’t even know why I’m still doing this wild theatrical act when I don’t even need the protection anymore. Ambrose doesn’t have this hatred and anger for me anymore. He’s no longer yearning to beat the shit out of me. Perhaps it’s the popularity that I’m still gunning for and Rachel’s not failing at letting the light shining on
AUGUST“Why did you take me to this place just now?” I asked as walked carefully towards the spot where Ambrose had settled down. He was already pulling out the chips that we bought downtown out of the plastic bag.“I don’t know. It’s probably because we weren’t this close before.” He replied almost casually as I sat down right beside him.The breeze was blowing just cool enough that’s it’s almost refreshing. I sniffed the fresh air like I’ve been longing for it and it did not disappoint but rather fulfilled my expectations. I suddenly remembered the lack of fresh air back in Highmont and just by thinking about it makes me feel suffocated.I reached for the bottle of mountain dew and popped it open before eventually pouring some of it down to my throat.“Oh yeah, because we were fighting like we ar
AMBROSEThinking that my life would change and become a little bit better and a little less boring right after confessing my true feelings towards August was too much to imagine. Yes, my life became a little less boring completely because of the fact that we have to hide from the public eye just to spend our time together. But a little bit better was an ambiguous phrase and I’m still waiting for that shit to happen.My daily routine never changed except now, there was the thrill of excitement clinging on to me like a leech. I get up in the morning and go to school, typical high school stuff. But with the addition of wanting to see August everyday made my days a lot more interesting than it was before. I’m sure we are both well aware of the reality that we kept on stealing glances right at each other and it’s making us both conscious of our every move. It is a known fact that I, Ambrose Haylock
AMBROSE“Why are you sitting there at my spot?” Starting to sound annoying, Phil looked me with such tension that I’ve never seen of him in the last few years of our friendship. It was the same tension that had carried on from what happened between us earlier this morning. Phil was sitting at the spot where I used to sit and I want that exact spot because it’s the spot that’s letting me get a clear shot view of August.“My bad.” Phil uttered in absolute defeat. He quickly moved to the opposite part of the table and I can clearly tell he’s trying to keep his cool down to a sensible level.I put down my tray of food and sat down subconsciously moving my sight towards the direction of August’s table. Lunch break was always the hardest for me and it’s been quite few days that I’ve been the one on the outer side of the picture. I looked at Rach