AMBROSE
Thinking that my life would change and become a little bit better and a little less boring right after confessing my true feelings towards August was too much to imagine. Yes, my life became a little less boring completely because of the fact that we have to hide from the public eye just to spend our time together. But a little bit better was an ambiguous phrase and I’m still waiting for that shit to happen.
My daily routine never changed except now, there was the thrill of excitement clinging on to me like a leech. I get up in the morning and go to school, typical high school stuff. But with the addition of wanting to see August everyday made my days a lot more interesting than it was before. I’m sure we are both well aware of the reality that we kept on stealing glances right at each other and it’s making us both conscious of our every move. It is a known fact that I, Ambrose Haylock
AMBROSE“Why are you sitting there at my spot?” Starting to sound annoying, Phil looked me with such tension that I’ve never seen of him in the last few years of our friendship. It was the same tension that had carried on from what happened between us earlier this morning. Phil was sitting at the spot where I used to sit and I want that exact spot because it’s the spot that’s letting me get a clear shot view of August.“My bad.” Phil uttered in absolute defeat. He quickly moved to the opposite part of the table and I can clearly tell he’s trying to keep his cool down to a sensible level.I put down my tray of food and sat down subconsciously moving my sight towards the direction of August’s table. Lunch break was always the hardest for me and it’s been quite few days that I’ve been the one on the outer side of the picture. I looked at Rach
AMBROSEThe graceful pang of disappointment got me chained in its crippling prison for the rest of the night. I had to ride my way home thinking that I’m going to be alone and messed up once again. It was even more asphyxiating to think that August will be having fun with his girlfriend and I’m the one being left and forgotten behind. It’s quite funny that my mind brought that up when I’m always the one left and forgotten behind. I’ve always that one kid who everyone knew but no one cared about. I’ve always been that one person who was always goes home alone because no one wants to do fun things with him. I’ve always been that, and I thought with the arrival of August into my life would tweak things to a better place, I thought wrong. Maybe Phil was right all along. I’ve softened up and for what?The power that I just felt earlier was suddenly watered down in just
AMBROSEDriving out of town was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I guess that’s because I’ve been wanting to go on a ride to the next town and back with the person that I like. I have tried riding out of town before and although it’s quite an adventure, it still felt lonely when you’re on your own. Getting out of town doesn’t sound much of a romantic date that I could offer, unlike Rachel and all her power, but the feeling of having someone you like just grabbing ahold of your waist as you cover tracks was one of the best feeling ever. That feeling when combined with the few beautiful stops that we might stumble through would be considered as romantic to me. I’m sure August would feel that same feeling too once we get out of this town.“That sounds exciting,” August chirped but I noticed the short pause following his remark. “But I don’t thin
AMBROSE The day ended very much early and it had left me with nowhere else to go. I probably have a good five or six hours of spare time before going to that house party that August had mentioned last night. I don’t quite know how would I spend that much of free time when there’s basically nothing to do here in this suburban town. There’s nothing much except for the presence of breathtaking nature. I thought of going out to my secret spot at river and go swimming alone like I used to. I walked out of the room and the hallway was flooded with buzzing people. Everyone appeared to be hyperactive and the noise was just thunderous enough that it could crash the building. Most of them are excited for the weekend, that’s the only reason as to why the upstream energy. If this was on a Tuesday or a Wednesday, everyone’s still probably wearing their saggy faces. However, the lingering knowledge that it’s Friday makes their expression a lo
AMBROSE“Shaun! Shaun! Shaun!”Some of the spectators began cheering this name and I immediately knew Shaun’s the name of Irvin’s opponent. The fight began the moment the referee stepped out of the middle and I can clearly see the advantage that Shaun had over Irvin. The fact that he’s taller and buffer was already enough for me to put my coins on his head. I was just looking at both of them and I instantly know Irvin would lose this. They were both on their fighting stance with Irvin imitating a boxers’ stance while Shaun on the other hand was just standing in his place waiting for Irvin to strike first. Irvin might be brave and I have to commend him for that. Screaming like a kid, Irvin lunges towards Shaun hoping to tackle him but Shaun managed to stop him with both of his hands.The loud cheering continued as I stood with both of my hands crossed over my chest. Sha
AUGUSTI have not been the greatest throughout the succeeding days of my life and to be quite honest, I have never expected all of this things to happen, not in a million light-years or whatever time means. I wanted to cut myself a bit of a slack but it doesn’t seem to be fitting. It’s quite difficult to balance all of the things that are going around me and I’m utterly stunned that I’m still breathing and kicking and basically just sailing through all of them. I feel like I’m just a one-man troop that’s battling a whole battalion of predicament and I’m clearly being owned by all of them. I know for a fact that there soon will be a time, perhaps not today, maybe in the next few months, that everything would inevitably explode and I’m going to be that one pig caught in between.It’s definitely hard to live my life as a student who needs to keep his grades abo
AUGUSTOur last period had finally reeled to an end and I’m left in this surging wave of dilemma between going on a movie date with Rachel and just riding through town with Ambrose. I am cruelly torn in between who to choose from the two and the feeling wasn’t that great at all. I’m still sitting at my desk holding my phone with my mind trying to fight things off. Meanwhile, everyone’s already packing their stuff. Most of the people who have already packed their things in a snap have already bounced out of the room leaving the few sluggish people behind.“My mama told me when I was young,” I stared at my phone for a while and I suddenly heard Jessie began singing in a random display of his flamboyance. He trudged his way towards the center front of the room and looking right at him, he was seemingly living a certain fantasy. He was now standing right in front of the room prep
AUGUSTI’m really fucking this up. I’m given the choice between just being my gay self and be gay with Ambrose or continuing to play this straight dude and perhaps be straight with Rachel.I didn’t have much time to think about my decisions that I ended up choosing the movie date with Rachel without actually choosing it. I wanted to be with Ambrose today, I won’t even deny that. There are a lot of things that I need to reassure about him. We haven’t gone out this week and I’m sure he’s been dying in jealousy to hold me throughout the days. I’m not trying to be the delusional person here and just assume that Ambrose’s getting jealous but If I was standing in his shoes I’d be squirming in envy. I feel like I can’t even limit my flirting with Rachel whenever he’s just around the room. Rachel’s just aggressive to me and I can’t even