The Cruxtar

“I understand that you’re hurt.” Is all I say but how could I tell him that I was feeling hurt too? It was none of my business anyway. It was just plain simple and rotten jealousy. The way he got angry over him doubting her character, so much that he ended up almost beating Agares to death. He really loved her didn’t he? If she was still alive, whatever Shedim and I have, we would not have it. Not even close. He loves her still, I can tell.

Nobody forgets the first love of their life. I internally scoff. What about me? Did I ever have a first love or were they just simple crushes and infatuations? I don’t think I have ever been in love before.

I can’t get it out of my head. The way he got angry for her and she is not even alive. I get that this makes me a bad person but let’s be honest, at this point, I am a murderer, my character really is not in question anymore. It’s not a debate, I might not be bad but I am not a good person either and I have accepted it now for the betterment of