Chapter 128

GABRIEL

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Doesn’t it make sense now? That’s why you felt like you didn’t deserve it. Because you didn’t.

The voices in my head were taunting me. They were making fun of me, telling me they told me so. I should have been more suspicious of the fact that the people I had hurt were helping me, no questions asked.

Of course, they were getting their revenge. Had they laughed with each other after our meetings, marveling at just how stupid I was? Had they wondered how desperate someone had to be to accept help from someone who had hurt them?

I was too stunned to even cry. I had no tears. I couldn’t place a finger on how I really felt. I couldn’t feel angry, because didn’t I deserve it? Hadn’t I wronged them? Weren’t they just doing the right thing by getting their revenge? I couldn’t feel betrayed either because I had it coming.

Could I feel sad? That was what I felt. I couldn’t deny it. I had gotten my hopes up even if it was a little and I had been disappointed. I had opened my heart up