Not Ready For Beginning

this is the story of me when I was young and I am just 20 years old. my college is over and I was creating my own company 

I was average in academics. a student who got 60-80% marks. yes I am one of them my life is normal

but one day my friend. she is just a friend. going out with me to enjoy an amusement park 

when we enjoying the view. while eating snacks and we were sitting on a park chair. she asks me something. that I never expected 

yes, a marriage proposal. I don't understand when she talks I feel like my heartbeat is racing and the wind catches its speed like it calling me to wake up 

my friend name is amelia she is the perfect girl. she Caring, full of energy, her cooking is unmatchable, she is loving, cute and beautiful. she is the girl you can't resist and want to get married 

amelia:- hi I want to ask something 

me:- why you are looking so serious tell me did something bothering you

amelia:- my father is rich and stubborn as you know that right. and he searching man for me.

me:- that nice so what happens, don't you think it is too soon to get married.

amelia:- you don't understand me. I was thinking that I want to marry you. I know you don't have a girlfriend. can you ask for my hand from my father?

me:- OK I will ask for your hand don't worry 

if I tell the truth I am not ready for marriage but I say yes and I was struggling to raise my business and marriage is so much for me but at that time I can't see her in trouble 

I reached to meet her father and I know he was CEO of a big company and his net worth was 6 billion dollars 

I know I don't have a coincidence but for my friend sake, I am ready to give my hand in the lion mouth. yes, I give. and it was painful 

me:- I am here to ask for your daughter's hand 

amelia:- father I want to marry him.

father:- I rise my daughter with love and care I can't give my daughter a hand to anyone and I am searching for a man who can take care of my daughter and her every need. tell me why you want to marry my daughter does it for money.

 

me:- she was my very good girlfriend and I want to marry her because I love her and understand her.

father:- love is not the reason to get married if you don't have 100 million dollars then I reject you.

amelia:- how I can marry someone who is a stranger.

father:- tell me how can you marry someone who is that useless, bigger, greedy, worthless and piece of shit. I reject him already and I am your father don't talk back. I didn't give you this kind of sacrum. and now you get out from my office

then amelia and I go out for fresh air in the park

Amelia:- I am sorry. I became trouble for you.

me:- no. please don't say sorry,  at least we try our best

amelia:- let's run away. no, I can't do that, so I am powerless now

:- don't be sad I think. you going to marry a better man than me and he will love you and take care of you. don't get depressed and I love your smile so just keep a smile.

amelia:- you make it hard to accept my fate. I want to marry you. let's just forget and move on with life

that day she was about to cry. I feel so stupid and I regret I didn't understand her feelings before. maybe she is the one I shouldn't give up on

I feel like I lost a very luxurious gift from God. that day I also feel pain. I hope I try harder to get her hand from her father. or run far away with her

that also true her father is a monster if I stay there just a little longer he will eat me and his word cut my heart into pieces 

then I was sitting there alone. and thinking now what should I do now. if I tell the truth I am only interested in making money, growing my business. marriage never excited me. family, childcare is too much for me

after that. I spend my life or I can say devote my life to my business and because of my luck and hard work it turns me into a billionaire 

I am rich and my net worth was 5 billion dollars and I was all alone in my big house. always busy in work and never feel loneliness maybe because I like my work and I am 25 years old rich single adult 

but one-day things change I get the phone and they told me my college friend and her husband die in a car accident 

it was an invitation to a funeral and that makes me depressed. I was thinking if I never let her go that day, run away with her or maybe beg for her hand then she can live happily and with a cute smile 

the thought of that I no longer see her face. shrink my heard. my heartbeat racing again. I lose my mind. tears flowing like water from eyes. time stop for me and a few minutes later I get back to my senses 

I take my key and run towards my car. and try to reach there as soon as possible 

when I reach there I saw what I never wanted to witness

her father was late for her daughter funeral. just because he was busy with work

that pisses me off. I start screaming at him and the matter got more worst 

me:- how can you are so blind to money. you can't even see your daughter death. how can you be so cold-hearted 

father:- who gives you the right to say such a thing to me. do you how many important meetings I have to attend. you don't have to care about my daughter.  it's none of your business 

me:- if that day I run away somewhere so far from you. maybe she was alive right now. but you treat her as your money-making doll. have you ever seen this world. maybe you don't have time to waste 

father. I listen enough from you get out from my house. I am older than you. I am more mature than you 

me:- you are a piece of shit. you are just blind in money. greedy dog

after that, they throw me out of their house.  I was angry that time and I ride my car at full speed 

then I get in an incident with a truck driver, he was drunk and I was blind in anger, our vehicles crash and we all die.

soon when I walk up  I saw a beautiful place with different colours of cherry blossom on her dress and a woman drinking tea .she invited me to join her tea party

goddess:- hi I am the goddess of death don't just stand there come and join me 

me:- what is that place and where I am and I was in an accident. let's forget that who are you

goddess:- wait don't ask so many questions. let me answer you first. yes, you are dead. tell me why you haven't lived your life properly. you are a boring person. this is the last level of heaven. I know it is beautiful. but you are here because according to our law. you get two options 1. spend your time here then be reborn again and this cycle will go on or 2. your dead friend tells me that she going to wait for you in the second world.  she was trapped in the devil castle. if you protect her and reborn in that world. your memories will be washed away and you will only remember your goal to protect her. but she remembers everything 

me:- okay I will protect her and please let me be reborn. I will protect her this time no matter what. I can't take this regret anymore

:goddess:- OK I give you secrets permission to be reborn