Chapter 20 : Apology is overrated

Chrisanna

I don't move from the bed for a whole hour and spend the whole time petting Zoey without replying to Samuel. What does he think? He can make me do anything at any time. And I'll follow him after getting humiliated? I waited for three fucking hours. My chest is heavy right now. And I hate that I feel the need for him to be around me.

I hate that I want to live this moment with him when he's truly being nice and soft to me. I hate my fear of missing out a lot.

I won't go.

I won't go.

I don't care.

I close my eyes tight and try to fall asleep. When another hour goes by, my eyelids start to hurt. Samuel hasn't returned to the room as he said in his last message, "You can make me wait. I'll keep waiting for you"

What does he want to prove?

That he's making it equal?

It can't be equal. Nothing can be equal to the pain and humiliation he has caused to my emotions over the years. Again and again.

It's 3 AM.

Zoey is dozing off. And all of a sudden, I'm restless. Concern causes my