The rest of the week consisted of me just seeing a glamps of Tee going to see Abigail and then I wouldn't see her at all. At some point I was even tempted to text her but I stopped myself. If she didn't want to talk to me coz I was fucking someone else then so be it.
I decided to take my phone one evening and call Olivia. Her phone rang twice and then went to voicemail. I was a bit sad that I couldn't get ahold of her but I shook it off.From then, Lucy, Thalia and I concentrated on our project and also Zaynab was concentrating on their task.My phone vibrated during lunch..**Zay: Hey beautiful you.. I kinda miss you. 3 days without seeing you is torture... Worse knowing that you're here and not as far from me.**I smiled a bit. I actually missed her too... But I have been ignoring her because I felt a bit weird. And now I was feeling shitty for ignoring the girl.I quickly typed back.**Me: Hey hot you.. I miss you more. Tell you what. Friday we can totally be together. This project kinda kept us busy and you know we don't wanna mess up with the boss here..❤️**"look at you talking to Zaynab and smiling like an idiot."I rolled my eyes at Thalia and Lucy laughed, "you guys are cute together.""thank you Lucy.." I said blushing and got up, "let me go to the kitchen and make something to eat."My phone vibrated and I smiled when I saw the name flash on my screen.**Bestie👯♀️😍: Video call later. You need to tell me how you are and for fucksake Amora why didn't you tell me Tawny was actually there. I'm seeing it on the news.. You're lucky I love you.**I laughed and jumped when someone said, "hey.." behind me.It was Zaynab. I looked behind her to see if someone was following her."hey.. You scared me.""who has you smiling like that on the phone?"I laughed and shook my head, "my idiotic best friend. She was demanding that we video call later.. How are you.."She pulled me into a hug and held on tight. I was tense at first then I finally relaxed. She kissed my neck, "I Miss you. That's how I am..".I laughed, "Friday is tomorrow.. You can come to my place.. Or I can come to yours."She smiled and kissed my cheek, "I'll see you Friday. I just came to give you a hug.."I rolled my eyes, "fine.. make me miss you more than I already do..""fine.. be cute and ignore my presence..." Thalia said walking in and I flicked her a middle finger.Zaynab laughed and left us.I smiled and got myself a can of soda then went back to the office.Later on after taking a bath and getting comfortable in bed I called my best friend.'were you even going to do this If I didn't remind you?'I sighed, "my mind was all over the place Luh please don't hate me. It still is even now.."Concern was written on her face within seconds of hearing that, 'what? what do you mean? Is everything okay?'I shook my head, "I don't know.. I've just been feeling some typa way since Tee got here.. I've also been trying to call Olivia nanad she's not available.."'Olivia... You guys still being weirdly flirty with each other?'"remind me again why I'm best friends with you?"'what? You can't replace me bitch..so spill. What happened? What did Tawny say to you?'I sighed, "she said I'm fucking Zaynab. It was a question statement.. Like she wasn't really asking and she wasn't also telling me.. Fuck.. I've been feeling a little bit guilty since then. I know this is stupid, but I felt like I cheated on her or did her wrong or something. "My best friend ached her brow, 'you were definitely right when you said it is stupid.. Like dude.. You're not with her anymore..'I rolled my eyes, "duh I know that.. But I can't help but feel this way?"'okay.. Let me refresh your memory a bit. Remember how you used to cry on my shoulder and also on the phone because Tawny said you needed to go separate ways and grow as a person.. Remember how much you said you wish you didn't love her and you wished to find someone who will make you smile.. Remember how she said it wasn't the time for you two, you should move on and find someone else who will be good for you. This is the fucken time...and you shouldn't feel guilty about it. She gave you permission. Not that you needed it, but she did tell you to be your own person and find someone who'll be good to you since she couldn't be. So for fuck sake take your Kristen Stewart and fuck her again without feeling any guilt.. 'I laughed. And I definitely remembered all that.Suddenly I felt this weight off my shoulders. I felt less guilty. God yes. She told me I could do all that... And also she didn't seem mad when she said I was fucking Zaynab . I was just fucking myself.I sighed in relief, "okay this is why I can't replace you.."Luna laughed, 'bitch.. Good to know. So how are things between Zaynab and you.'I shrugged, "okay.. I'm seeing her tomorrow."She winked, 'please shave.. And throw your guilt away there's nothing wrong with what you are doing. You have every right to be happy again..'"I love you Luna.."'never forget that..' she said before waving me off and disappearing.I smiled and suddenly couldn't wait for tomorrow..I got to work on Friday wearing one specific sexy dress that Zaynab loved on me so much. I saw her when we entered the building and she bit he lower lip and winked at me."Zaynab can eye fuck you from a distance. Whatever the fuck you gave her I want it so I can give it to my crush too.." Thalia said walking in behind me.I laughed, "be yourself.. That's the best thing you can give someone..""did you hear that Tawny left?"I furrowed my brows at her, "Tawny what? When?""in the wee hours of the morning... around midnight actually.. She left Thailand to go back to S.A.. Left in a hurry.. Must have been in a rush for something.""what? Where the fuck do you get all these news dude?"She laughed and went to sit on her chair.I shook my head a bit and followed her to my table though.Wow...Tawny really fucken knew what she was doing. She left without even a goodbye. And I was so glad that I didn't feel mad at her at all....We brainstormed what we should shoot about when it comes to the advertisement we were making.. Then before I knew it Zaynab was next to my desk holding my bag.I laughed at her, "so.. You weren't here all week doing this."She laughed, "I didn't want Tawny to fire me. I can't go back home.."I got up and switched off all the computers and took Zaynab's hand.When we got inside the taxi she looked at me, "you've been distant a bit. Is everything okay..?"Fuck she noticed."one would swear you were ignoring me a bit."I now felt shittier, "I'm sorry babe.. Just things at home... They kinda go complicated a bit and I wanted to fix them.."She blushed, "you called me babe"I rolled my eyes, "woow Zaynab that's all you heard..?"The car came to a stop and we both got out then went to her place."what happened.. At home... You do know that you can talk to me right..?"I nodded my head and decided not to say anything... I couldn't lie more than I already did.My phone started ringing saving me. My heart skipped a bit when I saw the name flashing on the screen.I cleared my throat and took it," hey..."I heard fidgeting on the other side before a little 'fuck..' and a sigh.."hello.. Did you call me by mistake?"She sighed again, 'no no... I'm sorry.. Look can you talk in 20 minutes?'Suddenly I was concerned because she even sounded serious, "yeah of course. What's going on? Is everything okay?"'I don't know... Just.. Can we talk.. I'm driving right now so I'll call you when I get home..'"alright... Okay cool.. Do that when you get home, I'll be here."I turned to Zaynep not knowing what to say. Do I cancel us? God we were looking forward to this... But then again I wanted to talk to Olivia so bad, it's been long and I was missing her and now worried."is everything okay?"I shrugged, "I don't know. I don't think so.. Do you mind if we cancel? An important call is going to come."She looked at me for a bit before shaking her head no, "of course not.. Please call me when you get home okay.."I pulled her head and kissed her, thankful that she didn't ask any questions because I had no answers, "thank you."I needed to talk to Olivia and find out what was wrong. I headed home for the call waiting for me.I got back to my flat and started pacing back and forth. God why did I do this? I could have told her I was busy... But then again she sounded worried.. She didn't sound like her usual bubbly self.. So I was worried. But here I was now nervous as hell waiting for her to call me.I looked at the time and mentally calculated, she was going to call in 15 minutes. God it took me 5 minutes to come here?I sighed and quickly took off my clothes and jumped in the shower. Maybe getting me cleaned up would keep my mind busy and I wouldn't be so nervous or worried about the girl.Why was I even nervous in the first place I've talked to Olivia a number of times and I've never been like this. God I was going to lose it.I quickly got out and just then my phone immediately started ringing."fuck!!" I said before wrapping a towel around my body and quickly running for my phone. Without even looking I took it and put it on my ear, "heeyy..""your ear looks pretty good from inside you know..""ewwwww
My weekend was just so confusing. Olivia made it even worse with that text she sent me and then I had to actually dig deeper on my side and think about what I was doing with Zaynab. I mean I liked her.. I think I liked her... Wait no. I liked the attention she was giving and the sex. It made me forget about everything and live a little.. But mostly it stupidly made me think about Olivia a lot...which was the confusing and weird part. I didn't call Zaynab, which made me feel like an ass even more but I was confused and trying to figure out what was happening. I mean the way Olivia looked when she was talking about Zaynab didn't sit well with me, it quickly made me want to cut off Zaynab from my life and whatever we were doing. I didn't want to see the facial expression I saw on Olivia again. I didn't want to make her sad or something. That just didn't sit well with me.On Sunday I spent the day away from my phone and just thinking about tomorrow and what I was going to say to Zaynab
Who was Olivia indeed?This weird air that was between she and I, I couldn't explain it. I had no idea what was going on but I didn't want to lead my mind there or even think about it."I asked you a question.""Thalia I love you. With all my heart and I think if you weren't here I'd be miserable at my place, not knowing what to do and possibly digging myself into a deeper hole... I just..""... A movie it is." she said suddenly cutting my sentence short and I furrowed my brows at her confused, didn't she want to know who Olivia was?She ignored my stunned self and turned on the TV, took the ice cream bucket and handed it to me then joined me in bed," you might want to change. I'm only giving you a new shirt tomorrow.. Not my pants. You'll mess it up with your big ass."I giggled at her but took off my pants like she said.From then we watched whatever movie was playing. I'd zone in and out and turn to the girl next to me only to find her glued on the screen on the wall. It was weird
From then my friendship with Thalia was tight. It was like us opening up to each other was us unlocking the last gate we had to keep everyone out. It felt good to have her here so I can literally consult about anything.She was on my side from then, she was still mad that Zaynab and I didn't work but she was happy that I stopped it the moment I realized that it wasn't going to take us anywhere.As for Zaynab, she was not talking to me, which I didn't blame her. But I still needed to talk to her and apologize.She was now hanging up with Aiden and deep down I was hoping they had something going on, but then again, she said she doesn't date masculine lesbians."should I lock you two in one room so that you'll be forced to talk to each other and work out whatever happened." Thalia whispered to me when she noticed who I was looking at as I waited for her at the main door. "I don't want her locked in some place with me. What if she kills me or something?" I said not putting my thought int
One think I hated about me when I was sick was I got really sick. So sick to a point where I couldn't take care of myself.On Friday I asked for a sick day when I noticed that I wasn't feeling well. I went out to get myself some herbs and then came back to cook. Maybe I needed some proper food instead of take aways all the time.Later on I got worse. I took my last tea and got in my blanket..In the afternoon I couldn't get up and that had me sleeping on an empty stomach.Saturday I was worse and I knew that I was all alone. I forgot where my phone was and the fact that it was on silent didn't help much. Sunday morning I woke up coz I was way too hungry. I slowly walked to the kitchen and tried to make whatever food was there and easy to make. Which was noodles.After eating I went to take a bath and went back to bed. I didn't bother looking for my phone. Thalia was going to come check on me tomorrow if I wasn't answering my phone still. God I hoped she was paying attention to the fac
"your place is so cosy and nice..." she said looking around and I coughed a bit, "umh... This is not nice."She pushed her laggage in and came to me, "oh man listen to your voice. Amy you should have called me. I would have came sooner.""dudeee.." I said and she cut me off by taking my head and making me face her, she looked at my eyes and then pulled me into a hug, "okay... I need to really make you healthy food. You are weak."I sighed, "geeze Olivia thanks."She laughed, "it's not what I mean... Let me kick you back to life." and she left me there and went to the kitchen. I was too tired to get up or argue with her. So I just laid there and closed my eyes a bit. I hated how I hardly could breathe...I was woken up by a slight shove. I was shocked to see Olivia there. What? I thought I was dreaming. "you're really here.. I wasn't dreaming...?""yeah. I'm really here. I'm sorry for waking you up, but get up. I need you to eat. You need some protein to regain your strength." "I'm
That week was slow but I was getting better each day and we'd play some card games that Olivia came with.It was amazing and I felt so weird. That I was over here insanely happy that Olivia came to check up on me. Flew. She flew to check if I was okay.We didn't actually talk about the big elephant in the room. The reason I ignored her call last week. We didn't talk about Tawny and her new girlfriend. It was like no one existed outside us and I really liked that. Coz I was genuinely happy and recovering very well. On Thursday I opened my phone for the first time since last week Thursday. It wouldn't stop ringing the second it was on. It was message after message after message.When it finally kept quiet Olivia looked at me amused, "someone is very famous."I laughed and sat next to her, debating whether or not to open all those messages.Immediately my phone started ringing. She took a pick on it and her face changed, "it's Tawny."My heart skipped a bit and I looked at her, "why the
Physically I was so much better by Friday, the only thing that was left was my voice. I still whispered like someone who was creepy. I didn't like it but it seemed to amuse Olivia and my best friend."so... Ready to go out there and show me Thailand?" Olivia whispered creepely behind me making me to jump, "Liv what the fuck! What is wrong with you?" I couldn't even yell as loud as I hoped to because of my stupid voice.She laughed and continued to mimick me, "you sound so cute I swear." I pretended to be mad, "fine then.. Go.. Go alone.""are toy turning into a big baby?"I made a face again and looked away from her.I felt her hands snuck around my waist and I breathed in. She hugged me from behind and rested her chin on my shoulder, "are you being the cutest biggest baby Amy?"My body responded to her and her saying my name like that took my mind to a different place. A place I was scared of thinking off. I mean I could sense how things were but I still didn't want to acknowledge