TAWNYFive days in and I was somehow still enjoying the view. The helicopter ride right above The Victoria Falls made my mind feel at ease. I felt light when I was there and seeing that water was just soothing and refreshing. After what I walked in on I took a flight straight to Zambia planning on clearing my mind, and oh God it was a great idea, because not only did I manage to clear my mind but I also managed to reflect back on the last 8 to 9 months. Being there made me realize how amazing my life was when it came to my career but how chaotic it was when it was about my love life. This right at this moment was a bit fuzzy and I was beating myself for what I did and didn't do. I reflected on my friendship that turned to relationship that turned back to friendship which now turned to nothing with Amora. I hated how I didn't give the girl a chance to figure herself out without rushing her. I felt like I was selfish to her for just expecting her to come to terms with us regardless o
And I hung up. I threw myself on the couch and stared at my phone. I had no idea what to do. I just went to my camera and started scrolling down and I reached pictures of Amora and I.. back when our relationship/friendship was so strong. When we were laying on the floor at my place as she told me she misses her parents. When she was cosy next to the fireplace in Pretoria after we got rained on to get her ice cream. And the selfie she took with her tongue out. My heart warmed at the sight. I smiled a bit and brushed my thumb on her cheek on my screen.. I feel tears run down my cheeks. This girl... This girl...A knock on my door startled me. I wiped my tears and got up. Fuck I shouldn't have ordered food and look at these pictures, now I felt like a wreck. I opened the door and smiled at the girl in front of me, "hey.." "Oh my God.. hey.." she said and I moved from in front of her making a way for her to drive the table with my food inside. She walked in, "here's your food.." "Than
TAWNYSomeone cleared their throat behind me and I got up then slowly turned around getting ready to see Amora.. but I was surprised to see .... "Luna?" She looked behind her and then pulled the door closing it a bit, "Tawny...? What are you doing here?" "Hi.. I umh..how are you Luna?" I asked since she seemed to be a bit tense. She shrugged, "as you can see I'm fine.. Tawny what can I do for you..?"I was so shocked and confused at the attitude she threw at me, but I responded either way, "Is Amora home..? I was hoping to see her... I.. I need to talk to her." She sighed before shrugging, "No..." I furrowed my brows at her. She looked a bit edgy or irritated...and she was at Amora's place... inside, refusing that I speak to her? I decided not to read too much into this new attitude and asked, "No..?" She looked behind her and then shrugged again, "nope.. when I woke up she wasn't here, so I don't know where she is..." I signed, "Luna I really..." "I get it..." she cut me of
Wedding day.. you know Olivia was on my case and staff.. my other friends were actually looking after my family and making sure they'll get to the wedding in time. My black and white tuxedo was all ironed and beautiful in my bed. I looked in the mirror and smiled at the new haircut I had. "Tawny what the fuck... you haven't dresssed?" "Babe relax.. I'm having a moment here." She laughed and hugged me from behind, "you're getting married asshole. Shit... fuck.. this is happening.."I took my phone and opened Paris's numbers.. I texted her. ME: Hey.. guess who's getting married today? Then I waited as she quickly typed back. PARIS: Miss King.. I can't wait to see you in a Tux... I bet you look hot😍😘..I showed Olivia the text and she smiled, "Paris loves how hot you are.. maybe she loves you after all." I laughed a bit getting an image of Paris in between her intern's thighs. I sighed, "yeah Love... maybe she does.. let's get dressed before I arrive late at my wedding."..The
AMORAI arrived back in my place and got inside. My heart was beating around my neck I could feel it. I felt sick to my stomach. I tried to lock the door but it was a bit difficult with how blurry my vision was due to the tears that were threatening to escape. I took in a slow deep breath and wiped my tears before I actually managed to lock it. I turned on my heels and headed straight to my bedroom. I had no idea how to describe I how felt at the moment. I mean seeing her there.. seeing them there and what my sister said, she was happy.. she looked happy... it broke my heart coz everything that has happened from the moment my eyes landed on Tawny made sense. I loved her from then and never stopped, even now as she was probably saying yes to my sister I still loved her. I felt sick for feeling like that. I felt like I needed to hate her.. she picked Paris over me.. not that I did anything to stop her, but she picked her over me. My mind took me back to the stupid career day at scho
I mean she was pestering me to talk to Tawny yet she didn't even tell me that Tawny was here. I felt fucken betrayed. I felt like crying because that was my only chance....and now that was all gone because Tawny was married to my... My phone cut my thoughts off and I went to it. To my surprise it was Paris. I looked at the phone and wondered if I should answer it.. did she call to gloat or to tell me what to do while she went away to her honeymoon. It stopped ringing but started as soon as possible. I sighed and took a deep breath before answering, "hello.." 'really Amora... after all the promising you went ahead and opened your stupid mouth..' Now I was confused, "what the fuck did I do now Paris.." 'stop playing dumb you know exactly that you went and ran your mouth to Tawny about the intern. Like don't you want me to be happy for once.' What on earth was she on about, "Paris... what the fuck... I never told Tawny anything... and why would I even tell her?" 'well guess what?
Slowly she started walking towards me, she looked like she was not sure if she heard me right. I didn't know what the big deal was, I mean it's not like this was the first time telling her. She knew it before...but then again, maybe me saying it out loud over and over again threw her back a bit.She looked shocked and flashed a bit, I stupidly wanted to go to her and hug the disbelief out of her but I didn't. I let her take another step towards me. She looked at me and asked, "what did you just say?"I shrugged my shoulders and said it again, "I said I love you Tawny...I honestly love you and I did from the first day I saw you."She then took a seat on the nearest chair next to me, she breathed out loud while putting her hands on her face to cover it. "You know Amora..this is what I wanted to hear months back....this is what I wanted to hear 3/4 days ago when I was at your crib to talk to you....but now with everything that has just happened..." she shook her head a little and my hea
Monday I was at work not feeling okay at all but I had to be here, I mean I had to pay the darn bills at the end of the month. Or else I'll be homeless.When I got off the uber I was met by journalists at the entrance. "Amora.. Amora.. that's Paris's little sister.. Amora we have a question for you..." this other lady said trying to wedge her way in between these people so she could talk to me. I opened the door and she held my shoulder to stop me, "what happened between Paris and Tawny...?" "Let go of me I have to be at work.." "I understand.. I am just doing my job.. so what happened.. the wedding? We didn't see you.. where were you.." "I don't mind you doing your job ma'am... but don't do it during hers too.. like she said. She's here to work.. please let go of her.." Hearing Tyra say that was like hearing music to my ears. The lady frowned and turned back. Tyra put her hand on my shoulder and ushered me inside. "God.. thanks.. I don't know what I'd have done without you.. m