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Chapter 11
Alexis
Trauma has a way of coming back to haunt you when you're unaware. Post traumatic stress may be the cause; but getting over something that altered how you live,doesn't happen overnight.
No amount amount of pills, alcohol, distractions or episodes of anger outbursts can be enough. The fruit of my trauma is; my inability to stay stable, trust anyone, go into shell shock, and above all the most viable evidence of my audeal is the post traumatic stress and scars .
Any banging sound , scenes of violence, unexpected surprise greetings , sudden shocks, knocks you off kilter.
For someone who doesn't understand ; they may think you are troubled , have issues , or my favorite term she's weird.
Fact is that I am not weird. I have visible and invisible scars that are trying to heal. The most noticeable ones are the laceration stitches that are on my tummy . The scars se
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