Alexis✔
This morning I woke up early like every morning. I woke up next to Abro .I kissed his forehead before I went to take a shower and get cleaned up . After brushing my teeth and getting into a pair of dark blue jeans , Aarons grey sweater and white leather boot sneakers . I kissed Aaron on the lips before I left he smiled and whispered; don't go stay. He drifted back to sleep after he said the last word... so I left him a voice message .
I managed to make him and Caleb breakfast before I left, and called Caleb who was on his way too. I told him to be kind to him. The last thing he needs is doubting the people around him.
The storm wasn't severer ; when I drove to the bakery , but going back home the rain started pouring in buckets . Aaron's car was built for every condition it was safe , however I wasn't feeling okay . The thunder storm scared me so I pulled over on the shoulder of the highway and deci
Song – Dermot Kennedy – power over meAaron✔For the longest of times I have always worked hard to achieve stability in everything I do. The thing about stability is that you have to work hard to get it; once you have it you don’t want to lose it , and the fear of losing something you have already worked hard for always plagues your mind in the worst of times.When I had to make sure my sister was well taken care of , I worked like my life depended on it. I didn’t want her to miss out on any school trips or important sports events . When she grew up and managed to get into college ; I started focusing on building my company , I hadn’t anticipated that what I did on the side would come back to bite me in the worst way. Part of me feels like I can make a greater come back from this set back. Gavin didn’t even sound like himself. He sounded nonchalant which mea
AlexisLetting go hurts; but it's necessary. I have something I call the quad-factor . Balance has always been important to me and with my moon rising being a cardinal sign with scales; fairness in all things is mandatory. Even though I feel my way through life because my sun sign is also a cardinal water sign there is a point where you have to let go, no matter how hard it hurts you will feel better once you let go completely.The quad-factor is what I call; body, mind , heart, and soul balance. Your body has a way of releasing what it doesn't need , so does your heart, mind and soul. I remember falling Ill one day after work ; because I didn't take time to rest , I was constantly in stress mode, and I couldn't switch off. When I arrived home out of the blue I started running a fever . Simon Nathan had prepared dinner for us and he was concerned . I could've blamed the weather but it was winter. The house had under floor heati
Aaron✔When I entered the room where Lexi was kept; my heart did a triple if not quadruple somersault. I was happy she was awake. I was still in the dark about our baby ,and the good news was that I was taking Davand Mary home ... I just hope I can take Lexi home too. I sat next to Lexi and gave her a kiss on the forehead and she smiled at me . I gave her a gentle hug, and she hugged me back and kissed my neck . I held her close and she cried on my shoulder . Why was she crying ; what was wrong ?"Oh honey, please tell me what's wrong ?"" I'm sorry. I should have stayed when you told me not to go.""Babe you wanted to do a good thing . I love you .""We love you ; Mary, and Dave."" so our baby is okay ?""Hmm.""Thank God. What's wrong my baby love?"Lexi pulled back and I placed h
Alexis✔There is something comforting about surety … Knowing that someone will come through for you no matter what; having a friend who always has your back , having a shoulder or shoulders to cry on , Knowing that if you’re in trouble there is nothing that the person you trust wouldn’t do for you , and the surety of knowing no matter how many times you fight the person you love … They will always come back because your know deep down in your heart that , home is wherever they are.I had a fight with Aaron . It wasn’t because he found out he was a Massa , but he was pissed off that I hadn’t told him about Carl, and his face showed it . I surprisingly had a call from my favorite person yesterday. He looked so happy and he was worried. He called me mom which made me smile .I went to sleep and woke up a bit better the next morning. I was still hurt. I didn’t even fe
AaronI need help. I admit that I need help. I messed up so badly and Alexis did not deserve to be at the bottom end of my rant. She didn’t tell Caleb or else I would be at the bottom end of another one of his infamous tongue lashings. He can be brutal ; I’ve seen it first hand and I was surprised that he kept his cool when he saw Nathan Simon. I woke up early this morning to decorate the dining room; bake and make breakfast for Mary and David. By the time I was done it was well after twelve in the afternoon. I had to go fetch Ali and both Mary and Dave were not up so I left a note and ran out. I had to settle the medical aid bill when I arrived at the hospital for Dave and Mary. When I wanted to pay for Alexis’s too the kind lady shook her head and said; it was settled this morning by Brent. When I entered her room Brent was; sitting on the Bed ,on the phone , asking questions . When I looked at him his eyes went wide and he cut
#Song : Black Coffee ft Msaki -wish you were hereAlexis✔As a kid; I was always taught to question the very thing that is the norm. There is a method to how things are done , however for every act there is a counteract. Rules are put in place for a reason; to maintain order , to instill some sort of decorum , and to make sure things run according to plan . Sometimes things don’t go according to plan.As you grow up ; you come to the realization that, rules can be flexible to a certain extent until they have to be broken. What usually follows a counter act is either regret or in some cases an awakening of some sort. When you have an exception to every rule that you’ve ever made ; it can sometimes leave you vulnerable, broken and to an extent in jeopardy of losing yourself. This morning I woke up; I was thankful that I was alive and that I made it through the night. When I saw my reflection in th
AaronNo one is perfect... No one can ever be perfect, but the world expects us to be. When people give their opinion on something it is usually given from their own point of view and how they view the world. If you don't have a strong sense of self or an anchor of truth; you will constantly live in assumption and expectation . When people assume something , they expect you to live up to their expectations. The world says perform because life is an act, however the ones you love and hold dear say ; live ... You need to stop , stop for a moment and just breathe . Living happens when you stop playing roles that don't serve you to your highest good . When the final curtain call comes and when all is said and done what's left?" The sobering fact that you are lonely and you have no one ,absolutely no one to share your success with. I found that out the hard way... Even when I had someone they were not fully there.For
AlexisMan downIt happened so fast. It happened so fast that; I didn’t have time to recognize that I was caught in a cross fire between the guys that Carlo and Aaron were shooting at. All I saw was smoke and Carl swearing. It wasn’t until I heard a loud thud on the floor that my heart stopped. Security had come through and a couple of other guys who had the same ring as Carlo . As soon as the smoke cleared Carl bent down to pick me up and give me a hug.“ Hey honey are you okay?”I nodded and looked for Aaron.“Aaron Carl where is Aaron?”I pulled back and looked at the kitchen island . I couldn’t see him .“Aaron!”Carl let go of me and ran to where Aaron was. My heart was already beating fast but it broke when I saw Aaron lying on the floor with a