Ryo is not better than me.I am the ioriginal IT Girl. She's just a shy forgatable nobody.She is not pretier than meI am the girl who's style other girls copy. I am the one with over 10 000 followers on Instagram. I'm the girl everyone is excited to see show up at the school formal.And she is definetely not smarter than me."I mean she has better grades than me but she doesn't have street smarts." I say to the silence in my car as I drive home. The realization that hit me in the bathroom stall ealier fueling my soul.I am the one boys lust after.I am going to make that meek little girl break up with Oliver. She's not going to know what hit her when I'm done with her. I am going to make her life such a living hell she's going to beg me to take him back."I just have to play my cards right." I say smilling, I finally feel like myself again. I
The next morningThe moment I open my eyes and Oliver pops into my mind. I feel energized. I have to believe that my plan is going to work. The love I have for him has to pull us through here.I reach out for my phone and open Oliver and I's text threads. I scroll through and see all of our conversations. There was so much love between us, we used to text everyday all day.He used to love updating me on his day every second. We had a stoy book love, we took care of each other. We were giddy and in love.It went bad in the end but it was beautiful in the beginning. The more I think about it, the more my heart breaks. I don't know how we let this go so bad. I know I contributed to the relationship ending but I feel like we quit too quickly.I sit up on the bed and start my text to Oliver. I am taking a leap of faith here. This has to work.Hey
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I say looking at Jameson staring at me. When I asked him to hang out I wasn't thinking of this. We haven't hung out just the two of us in a long time. I was thinking we would meet up, play a few games and have a relaxed drama free morning. I didn't want to talk about my ex. But that's all he's done since he got here. We haven't even played one board game. He just had to tell me about how freaked out he is. Marlene is making him miss sleep again. Well it's not like that but it is. I stare at him for a second wishing we were not havng this conversation. Our life is consumed by relationships and girlfriend drama lately. It's like my relationship with Ryo and everything that comes with it has taken over our entire existence. "I don't think you're hearing me." He says and I sigh. "I have a bad feeling about Marlene. You need to watch out for her." He says looking at me intently. "I feel like we've had this exact conversation before or I cou
"You look like you're deep in thought" Marlene says behind me. I look up and see a few people looking at us. We're in the library and she's talking pretty loudly. I convince myself that th's why they are staring at ud right now. I don't want to give the other thought any space right now.I turn around to look at her and she's smiling. I respond with half a smile and she winks at me. I raise my brows in surprise and she waves her hand at me."Are you okay?" She asks whispering, she sits in the chair next to me. I look around us again and people are still staring at us."I'm alright." I say pushing my chair .ack. I create space between us. She's leaning into my face and I don't feel comfortable ."Is that all I'm gonna get from you. two word sentences? Or three letters." She says looking at me for a second and then she looks away."I...uhm" I start to say and she sighs."Nevermind you don't have to exp
The sun is bright in the sky. The blue sky is spread to as far as the eye can seen. I set a up blanket for us in my parent's backyard. I was supposed to plan some grand date and go all out but I thought this would be so much more Ryo's speed.The plum tree is in full bloom, the pink flowers are so bright. Their beauty is breathtaking and I knew she would love it. I love it too. I've seen these flowers so many times and they never inspired this type of emotions in me before. Suddenly I appreciate everything a little bit more. And I can attribute this new found appreciation to the beautiful being next to me. It's like she transferred her love for nature to me.Ryo has become the light and color in my life. Her influence is beautiful.She's lying on her side serene as ever. It always boggles my mind how she can be so gorgeous doing absolutely nothing. She chose to wear a yellow floral flowy dress today. She looks like she stepped out of thos
A week ago I was afraid of heightsI was afraid to show my feelingsI was afraid to be alone.Today here I amI'm going round and round on a Ferris wheel and I'm not afraid. I can see the whole city from up here.I decided to share my feelings with Oliver and leave everything on the table. I'm hoping he will see this as me being brave and he'll fall in love with me again.With the being alone part, I'm still afraid. I don't know how to move in this time of singleness. I'm terribly afraid of what this means for me. I came here alone, and my friends don't want to hang out with me anymore, I could look through my phone and find a guy who's willing to be my rebound but I can't.I had a conversation with my mother the other day and she challenged me to stay single."Marlene baby, sometimes after a very bad breakup. She started. I knew by the first breath she took that
My mother loves carnivals. She loves getting on all of the rides. So when the carnival came to town I had to take her out. We deserve a mother-daughter date. I've been spending so much time with Oliver, I wanted to make time for her. I'm glad we came, it's a great night to get on the Ferris wheel and watch the city light up at night. And she's excited too. I'm waiting for her to come back from the bathroom so we can get on our next ride. We are going to get our money's worth tonight. We are not leaving here until we get on every ride. "Hi," Someone says behind me. My first thought is to not turn around, I'm so used to being ignored that I always think no one ever wants to talk to me. Especially in a public place like this. That said I turn around anyway. I'm curious to find out who the person is talking to. "Oh shit," I say when my eyes collide with Marlene. She's the last person I thought would be behind me right now.
How was the carnival?Patient OFive minutes later there's no reply. That's very unlike Ry. She normally replies to my texts immediately. I stare at my phone screen wondering what's going on. I open the text thread and I can see that she saw my message but she hadn't replied.I guess you're tired from all of the activityWe'll talk tomorrowI love youPatient O