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25: Relationship advice
My legs feels like lead. Each step weighs a ton. My heart feels like it has been crushed by a dumb-bell. And all I can do is clump my way upstairs, hoping to get into my room without being seen, slump on my bed and cry my eyes out.
When I reach my door, I begin to search for my key, but the damn thing stays hidden.
Exasperated, I turn my bag upside down, allowing all of its content to rain to the floor. My books hit the ground and I don't realize my mistake until my phone falls too, smashing itself to the floor.
I throw my bag aside, bending immediately to pick up my phone.
“Oooh, God!” I grumble when I see the crack my stupid actions has caused me.
This makes me snap, lose every ounce of strength I have and collapse to the floor as I begin to cry into my hands.
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