Jax’s POV
It was so painful having to up and leave her every time we had the opportunity to be together. It was both emotionally and physically damaging. She was such a sensitive soul and every time I left her she would cry. It defeated me having to just stand there watching her beautiful, captivating amber eyes tear up because of our situation and know that there was simply not much I could actually do about it right now. My heart forever yearned for hers, ever since that day we first found out we were mates. I haven’t been attracted to anyone else ever since.
I would love nothing more than to be able to openly embrace her and carelessly love her in front of any one and every one but life just isn’t always that easy. We risk so much with this bond. A vampire and werewolf bond is just unthinkable and both of our families would no doubt kill us.
Her family is the highest ranked werewolf pack in our world, and Isabella was next in line to be Alpha. Well with her being the next of kin, she will be handed the responsibility to reign the pack but firstly she must find a mate whom she would make alpha and she would theoretically take the title of his luna. They would continue ruling the pack for years to come just like her mother and father had.
I was already aware that her father had been making attempts at arranging a marriage between Isabella and other wolfs from different packs. I despised the idea of it but I already knew Isabella wasn’t having any of it anyway. I loved her stubbornness.
It was slowly breaking me though knowing that I couldn’t give her what she needed, what was expected of her. Her father wanted her to
meet her mate and then expected her to go on and reproduce, making little wolf cubs to join the pack. This was physically impossible for us to do. Vampires and werewolves, not that it had ever been attempted, couldn’t reproduce together.
I was beginning to simply hate our bond, I could never hate Isabella but why would the moon goddess do this to us?
It was making me become more and more possessive knowing that soon she could be out of my reach. I knew her father, Alpha Leon, was getting impatient with Isabella, he was running out of time and set to retire in the next couple years. He wanted her to marry her mate as soon as possible, and I dreaded the idea of Isabella having to pretend that some stray wolf was her mate just to please her father.
My clan wouldn’t be entirely ecstatic about our relationship either, they would no doubt go as far as banishing me for it if they found out. A vampire/werewolf relationship was not common in our worlds and would indefinitely jeopardise our status. You see, my father is one of three great elders, the elders are the leaders of the entire vampire population and they are the strongest most powerful vampires there are, due to them being the oldest.
The run home was fairly peaceful but agonising at the same time as I could feel my heart some what shattering as I got further and further away from her embrace. I was in a rush as the sun was rising and I was getting paranoid thinking a human would see me. Due to my dad being one of the elders, our family was classed as the originals and so we didn’t necessarily need daylight rings as we wouldn’t be destroyed by the sun, however we could still burn. I had left mine at my apartment so I needed to be quick as I simply couldn’t risk exposing my true identity to a human if they saw my burning flesh before it began to start healing itself.
My family lived on the opposite side of town, where most of the other vampires resided too. It was far out so that we never had the risk of bumping in to the wolves who lived north, deep into the woods where they’d built their houses. It was like a small village deep inside the woods. This was to keep their privacy and so they could shape shift with out making it known to any hunters or any humans. My family owned a large modern build house but I moved into my own apartment not too far from them a few years ago for some privacy, my brother Samuel decided to follow suit and now lives next door to mine.
I walked in to my apartment complex and took the elevator to my floor. I took out my keys and as I was just about to unlock my apartment door Samuel suddenly appeared out of no where.
‘Where have you been all night?’ He pondered, raising an eyebrow. I told Isabella he was beginning to catch on, he definitely knew something was up. I had to reply quick so that he wouldn’t try trick me out.
‘I’ve been out with some friends brother, we were out clubbing’ I quickly replied, I really needed this conversation to end short and sweet so I could quickly go in and wash off her scent.
‘Oh really? Well I’ve just come back from the clubs myself, I didn’t see you there at all?.’ Oh shit, I forgot he too had been out tonight, he’d asked me to meet him before I went and met Isabella instead.
‘You wouldn’t of seen me because we were out of town this time brother, you already know our clubs here in Haling Cove are immensely boring. We have been partying in this shit town for years, it’s just the same old same old, so I wanted a change of scenery for once.’ I lied.
‘Since when have you ever had a problem with the clubs in this town brother.’ He raised his brows at me. ‘You have never once complained to me. The girls in this town are still insane though, right?’ He asked me, giving me a smirk.
Isabella was the only insane girl in this town I wanted to tell him but instead I quickly nodded, going along with what he had to say.
Samuel was always going on about the girls in our town, he had some kind of addiction to partying and sleeping with humans. And I guess at one point in my life I did too but that is all in the past now. That was all before Isabella of course and before I had any idea about our bond. I’d not touched another woman since.
‘Anyways, I need a shower now Samuel. I stink.’ I attempt to abruptly end this conversation now so he can stop prying and end up causing me to say something to make my story not add up.
I unlock my door just as he says ‘Woah brother. You weren’t lying when you said you stink. I can smell wet dog!’ He says mockingly whilst laughing at me. I for sure thought my cover was blown so I quickly shut the door and locked it so he couldn’t say anymore. I immediately stripped off and headed to my shower.
Once I’d showered I went straight to my room, pressed the button on my remote that pulled down my black out blinds and collapsed in to my bed.
My mind immediately ran to Isabella, there wasn’t many moments of the day when I didn’t think of her, bond or not she was forever embedded in to my brain. Was she thinking of me right now too? Did she miss me as much as I missed her? I hoped she’d managed to clean up in time and rid herself of my vampire scent. Oh how I wished our lives were much simpler so she could be here, in my bed with me right now. It felt so empty without her in it.
I tossed and turned most of the day, dreaming of my sweet amber eyed girl, but no amount of sleep could possibly prepare me for the events that were yet to take place…
