The next morning when I woke up I tried to convince myself that I should just give in so I got to gain their trust. But a part of me didn't like that idea. I was afraid I'd like it too much or that the two men would be more around me because I showed them I liked them. What they do is against the law and I shouldn't just give in this situation.
But I saw yesterday that fighting them was impossible for me and very tiring. Wasting my energy was also not a great idea. I needed that energy for my escape. Why is this so difficult? Because you like their affection and comfort and therefore you're afraid you will like them, that's why, said a voice in my head. I didn't want to believe that it's true but it is. The main reason why I find this so difficult is because of my fear of liking them.
So, what I'm going to do?
Still, the theory of giving in and gaining their trust is one I haven't failed at until now and my other theory has. Gaining their trust
With each piece of clothing they took from my body, it felt like a petal was ripped apart from its stem. Where each petal represented a piece of me, a piece of my soul. I felt vulnerable, I felt broken. Nothing was left in me because there was nothing to hold me together. By violating me like this I felt like there was nothing left to fight for. These men could do whatever they want. No amount of pushing, kicking, or yelling would keep them away from me.A flower without its stem is just a pile of loose petals left to go rotten. And when they took me from the nursery to the bathroom I saw that pile of petals laying down on the changing mat. The exact mat where I had to give up almost all of my dignity with my diaper changes. Almost all was gone but I had still that little bit of hope, which was now crushed, ripped apart. Caused by these evil men, by these devils who are guarding my personal hell.Silent tears streamed down my face. I didn't scream, nor cry,
After a quick diaper and clothes change we sat all at breakfast. Daddy was feeding me my food when an amazing idea popped into my head. When he didn't look at me I stuck my fingers in the porridge and when he looked back at me I smeared it on his face. He looked very funny and I couldn't stop my giggles. Even Papa couldn't stop laughing."Oh, so you both think this is funny huh? Well, then I will show you something funny as well." Daddy joked.Before Papa understood what Daddy was saying he had smeared some of my porridge on his face as well. This invited me to continue smearing the porridge all around. On my face, the high chair, my Daddy, and my clothes and hair. Papa and Daddy tried to stop me but I didn't let them I had too much fun.When I was done and there was no porridge left in the bowl. I looked at my daddies with a very innocent face in the hopes they wouldn't be mad. Making puppy-eyes and pouted my lips."Well it
The sweet moment I had with my daddies ended sooner than later, which I didn't like. Papa needed to work but I wasn't having it. I wanted to stay with both men and not just with Daddy and I was laying very comfortable in my Papa's arms.Papa handed me to Daddy and stood up from the couch. He gave me a last pat on the head while turning his body to leave the room."Papa no, Papa stay!" I put my arms in the air and made grabby hands to him. He couldn't leave me. He turned around and put me on his hip while bouncing me up and down."I know my princess but Papa has to work so he can buy you and your Daddy nice food to fill your tummies. I'll be back by lunchtime until then can you be a big girl for your Papa and keep Daddy company, he also doesn't like it when I leave him." He put my hair behind my ear and kissed my head. "Hmmm, can you do that for me?"I looked first at Papa and then at Daddy. I didn't want him to leave me, but I also
I was ashamed for my behavior yesterday, how I listened to them, how I wanted them, how I let them just do anything with me. I remembered how some of the things I liked before they bathed me, but with the bath situation and how I saw how they wanted for me to behave, my hate towards them grew with the second.All of that was wrong and today it was going to end. A storm was coming their way.For the next hours, I just needed them to believe that I was still in that state of mind of a little girl. Then just before naptime, I'd ask for a bottle, David has to leave me to go to the kitchen, and then I'd make a run for it. It was a solid plan now I could move my limbs more around. Still, it wasn't going to be easy but I will try with all my might.To make sure my act was on point I need to call them like I did yesterday."Papa!"...Nothing happened, did they know? No of course not they couldn't. Stop being so paranoi
As I was laying on Joon's shoulder I started to scream and shout for help but nobody helped me. The few people that were still outside, despite the rain, didn't even look at me and the ones that did look at my hopeless state would just turn away. They were acting like it was normal. How was this possible?"Nobody is going to help you not even your Daddy. I'm furious Fleur. We trusted you and you just used us. You're in for it little girl." Joon said with a dark and threatening voice which caused shivers to run down my spine.I didn't say anything after Joon's threat. I had become my old self where I'd submit at the sound of any lowered and threatening voice. I was paralyzed with fear pumping through my veins. I felt even weaker than before, noticing his big and tensed muscled arms around my frail body. My mind went blank and I didn't know what to do. I just let him take me, after everything I went through, I just let him. I felt like all hope was gone, I wa
When both David and Joon found out I could move more around during lunch, they took me back to my room. As I was laying down, waiting for what's to come, I saw Joon coming with that horrible pill in his hand."Please don't do this, I promise I'll listen, please!" I begged them."Uh uh missy, this is still part of your punishment and besides we don't trust you like we use to. So you're getting this," Joon said while holding up the pill."Please don't use the pill," I begged them again.Meanwhile, David looked between us, not really knowing what to say. I noticed he was still a bit sad and was more quiet than normal. "Would you rather have the syringe sweetheart?"Would I have rather the syringe than the pill? I didn't know, both were equally horrible. But I found it less horrible to have a needle in my arm than a finger in my behind. So I nodded my head at David."That's fine by me," said Joon and he left the roo
The last four days were terrible and delightful at the same time. They were terrible because I was sick, it was delightful because I was taken care of. The irony of it all was the fact that my two captors were the ones that nursed me. They made sure I wasn't too cold or too warm, that I was entertained and that I got my medicine on time. During my naps, one of them would stay with me or both of them. They had made a rule with me that I could sleep in their bed for my nap but at night time I had to go to my crib. David was against it but Joon wasn't and well he is the true dominant in this household.Another thing I found out was that I terrible liked it. I liked their attention and affection during the days I was sick. I even acted more like a child - some of it was caused by little me - but even big me acted like one. My princess blanket and a koala stuffie became my best friends, I even liked the pacifier. I know I hated them before but when I was sick it was quite so
I woke up in my crib with my paci in my mouth and embracing LaLa. I just laid down there enjoying the warmth of my bed. I was in no need to call my daddies yet. Today I was big Fleur and I needed some alone time. Therefore, a part of me was glad that Daddy didn't get his way yesterday evening. He wanted for me to sleep in their bed but Papa said no and quoted the rule, 'naptime in our bed, night time in her crib'.So it was no surprise it was Daddy who came to my room to wake me up."Hey there sweetie, I see you're already awake." He came up to me and picked me up. I put my head on his shoulder to stay close to him. I missed the warmth of my bed so he had to replace that warmth."You know, you can call us when you're awake sweetheart." I nodded my head in response because I had still my pacifier in my mouth.Daddy walked to the rocking chair and put me on his lap. He pulled the pacifier out of my mouth much to my disliking. I whine