October 2nd, 2014
"Happy birthday to you... Happy birthday to you... Happy birthday my beautiful." I go into Alyssa's room singing. I have a small cupcake in my hand with a candle lit.
"My cake." Alyssa sits up smiling.
Alyssa is always happy. Even when she is sick and isn't feeling too well, she is still happy.
"Yes, baby. Make a wish and blow out the candle." I sit beside her on her bed.
Alyssa stands up, holding onto my shoulder to keep her balance, closes her eyes, and blows out the candle.
"What did you wish for?"
"A swing." was her short reply.
Will stayed over last night. I kept saying I wouldn't allow him to stay until I was more certain on how things would go between the two of us, but we both fell asleep at some point. When I woke up he was laying in between my legs with his head on my stomach. Will really was a good-looking guy. He may have cheated on me before but I must admit he is doing everything he can to prove how much he has changed and how much he wants to be in our lives.I look over at the monitor and see that Alyssa is still sleeping. That girl can sleep. It's already 8:30 and she is still knocked out. It wouldn't surprise me if she didn't get up till 10 or so."Good morning"I look back down to see Will glancing up at me. I smile at him."Good morning."
"I still can't believe you and Will got back together and didn't even bother to tell me! That bit of information could have stopped me from walking in on the two of you" Becca groanedI couldn't help but laugh. "That wasn't supposed to happen. Will and I have been working on us for the past 6 months now. I held out on the sex for that long. This morning, it just got the best of me and I couldn't hold out any longer. I needed that."Becca's mouth fell open, "6 months!?!? And I am now just hearing about this?""I'm sorry. No one really knows about us. Except for my parents and his. We have been keeping it on the hush-hush. Honestly, last night was the first night he has even stayed over. He usually stays until Alyssa is gone to sleep and then he comes back before she wakes up. But last n
The ride to the restaurant was quiet. Will wasn't talking. I knew right time Katie mentioned JP's name things would go downhill. I had to figure out a way to get our night back on track. Things were going way too good for Katie and her big ass mouth to ruin our night.I glance over at Will to see his face all wrinkled up. He was overthinking everything right now. What could I do to reassure him? I know sex would be good, but I don't want him thinking that that's all I want. I want things to work out with Will. I want my happily ever after with him. JP and I have had many chances to make us work and every time it just didn't. I don't want to have to go through that again. JP has a part of me, like I've said before, I know I'll never get that back but I can move on without that part."Will," I say his name.
My date with Olivia, last night, was great. My feelings towards her grow stronger with each passing day. She completely threw me off when she told me she loved me. I honestly didn't think I would ever get back to that point with her. Not only because of the fact that I cheated on her but because of JP.I can't help to wonder if Katie would have come around sooner, telling us about JP if she would have still told me she loved me. I can't help but wonder if she regrets it. Last night ended on a good note and she did say she would not be going back to JP, but that uneasy feeling is still lingering in the back of my mind.My phone dings. I look up at the clock on my wall to see that it is only 6. Who would be texting me this early?Olivia: Are you awake?
"Mommy!" Alyssa comes running and jumps on me."Hey, baby. Where did you leave your daddy?""He's coming. He's a slowpoke." She laughed as Will made his appearance."Get off of my mama." Will laughs as he plops down on the couch beside me."Daddy. This my mama. Yours is at home." Alyssa throws her arms around my neck and hugs me as tight as she can."When did she become so smart?" Will asked.I laugh and shrug my shoulders, "Seems like it happened overnight.""Mommy. Can we go to the zoo?" Alyssa asks sitting back so she could see my face.
"Did the two of you not learn your lesson the first time around?" His mom folds her arms across her chest.I look at Will, who in return looks at his mom. "How about you and dad take Alyssa up to her room? This is none of your concern." Will passes Alyssa over to his dad."I can't believe this shit. Why would you even be having sex with her?!?! Or why not be careful. Why was protection not used?" His mom argues."Mom now is NOT the time. Go." Will growled."Ok, so first things first. Why are you here?" Will looks at JP. But continues before JP can respond. "Oh yeah, your fiance broke up with you so now you're coming back to try and claim Olivia. Am I right?""Will, calm down, please. I handled this. JP is leaving. He has no business here now." I grab onto Will's arm trying to calm him down. I didn't want these two guys fighting here.Will looks down at me, I can see the questions written all over his face.
"Olivia. Please wake up, baby. Wake up." I hear as I slowly open my eyes."Where am I?" I manage to ask."You are at the hospital, honey." My mom says.In the hospital? I think to myself. Why am I in the hospital? I don't understand. Then it hits me. JP. Will. His parents. Alyssa. My baby. I grab my stomach and try to jump up but I try too quickly which causes my head to begin pounding."Lay back, Liv. Let me go get the nurse." My mom says and heads towards the door."Mom, wait!" I plead for her to turn around.She stops with her hand on the door but doesn't turn around."Please, j
It has been almost two weeks since my hospital visit. Two weeks of having only myself and Alyssa to worry about. I'm not going to lie, I miss Will like crazy. Falling in love with him for a second time has really hurt me."Olivia!" Becca and Nick come into my room.How in the hell did she even get into my house. I don't even bother sitting up or looking at her. "What?""You have got to get out of that bed and get back to life. I'm sorry for everything that has happened to you, but you are better than this." I feel the bed shift as Becca sits down."Look, I'm fine. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I just want to be left alone.""Too fucking bad. I have allowed you to be lik