Loss and fear

JORDAN

I watched my mom walk into the condo casually and felt pain in my heart. She was sacrificing her happiness for me, she was sacrificing her freedom for my happiness and I could not imagine how long she had been doing that for. The staffs who had been taking care of condo welcomed her and escorted her into the house while I turned back to my car and drove off.

I had never wanted something so badly in my life. Not even when I wanted Samantha or companionship. I had never craved for life the way I did now, because I never knew what it was like. I always had to just breath and walk and wait to be taken away. I only wanted to be with the woman I loved, believing that it would give me true happiness especially because I felt she was the only one who could understand me. I was so ignorant, so foolish, so cold like a corpse that I never thought outside the box. I never sorted for anything more till she came into my life, ruining everything and stealing what I thought was the most precio