*Previously in A Night With The Billionaire*
"He said something. About my parent's death, he said... Said you caused it. I mean that accident. "
I look into his eyes, looking for something. Anything that will give me hope and make me realize what a stupid fool I am for even mentioning it, but my heart beats faster against my ribs when I see nothing. His eyes are cold with his jaw clenched.
He brings his hands to cover mine and his thumb soothingly moves against my hand. That means something, right? That I was right. That Oliver was just messing with me.
But then,
He mutters the words, almost as if they taste like poison coming out of his mouth and they do. The words that shatter my entire world. My whole heart and my total belief. It shatters my entire soul and dangles it before my own very eyes in a way to mock me. The words that knock the breath out of me, and not pleasantly. In a terrifying, agonizing pain.
"Your parent's car didn't go off the bridge because of that storm. It was because of me. I killed them. "
DAWN.
Silence.
No sound. Only silence.
Silence fills the room as I stare at the man before me; Ryder Smith. The one man that had saved me from the misery that was my life.
I gulp in twice before shaking my head, words that I have no control over tumbling off my lips.
"What do you mean? What are you talking about? Say it again, "
I move closer to him, closing the small distance that's left between us, and he moves his gaze to meet mine, his expression unfazed as he yet again mutters the words I thought had been my imagination.
"It was a mistake, a terrible accident that I never meant, but Oliver was right about everything, Dawn. I killed your parents. "
It hits me like shocks of waves and how I can still stand on my feet comes as a fucking surprise to me too.
He isn't the right man for you, Dawn.
He's going to do nothing but ruin you.
You're going to leave, I'm going to lose you. You'll leave me just like everyone else, I will lose you and it's going to be my fault. I've messed up badly Dawn; so badly and I can't fix it anymore.
You might want to know just how badly Ryder Smith had ruined you without you knowing.
All those words, all those warnings. Everyone has made them, even him himself, but I never thought deep into any of them. I never had a reason to, I never thought.. I could have never thought that this was it. The warning that I refused to heed to. I could have never thought the one man I fell so deeply and madly in love with caused my ruin all along.
I take a step back, my lips quivering as I try to hold back my tears. Ryder's gaze falls on my action and he reaches his hand out to me.
"No! Don't you dare touch me! Don't you fucking dare!"
Words leaves my mouth but my gaze is on the door. I need to leave; I need to leave this place. I can't do this, I can't. Thinking my life was finally going to be better, thinking I could finally put all those years behind me, thinking I finally found my happiness only for this to happen. I can't handle it.
"Dawn please, I know you're upset with me and I know you have every right to but, "
"Upset?"
I scoff, an ugly laugh tearing off my lips as I meet his gaze once again, tears threatening to blind my vision. "Upset? You think this is what it's about! Me being upset?!"
"Just listen to me, Dawn, let's.. "
"No! I do not want to listen to you! Why should I? How could you? How could you do that? How could you?."
Have you ever thought that storm did not cause your parent's death?
He had asked me that question himself. I still remember the way his face had changed when I told him about the day I lost my parents. I remember the words he had said to me that night. He knew. He knew about it all this while and yet, he never uttered a word of it to me.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I swear I was going to, but I was scared, I couldn't, "
"You were scared? You knew about my parents’ death all this while and yet you kept it away from me because you were scared? You fooled me, Ryder. You fooled me! You didn't think of telling me while you had me beneath you? You didn't think of telling me when you mentioned your past? You thought keeping it away from me was the best? I deserved to know, Ryder! Not from Oliver! I shouldn't have had to confront you about it, I deserve to know that you fucking ruined my life!"
"Stop it, Dawn!"
He yells, his jaw clenching as he steps closer to me. " Stop talking like that. Stop acting like this was easy for me too. Stop acting like I used you, just stop it! Did you know how hard it was for me when I found out about it? Did you know how hard it was to have kept that away from you because I couldn't lose you? I just couldn't. I finally got something good, someone that turned me better. I finally found you, Dawn. I couldn't lose all that, I just can't. It was a selfish and dick move from my end, but I couldn't Dawn. If I could, I will turn back the hands of time and change everything, I would have never- no, no actually I wouldn't change it. I wouldn't change a single thing about what I did and what happened because if you had not lost your parents that night, I wouldn't have got you. You would never be here, you'll probably be busy living your perfect life and I would still be the monster I grew up to be, I would never have met you and I don't want that. It's probably stupid and selfish and any other word you will call it, but I wouldn't change a single thing about what happened if I could. I can't lose you. "
"You lost me the moment you kept that away from me, "
I shake my head, swiping my hand across my face to wipe away the tears blurring my vision.
"No, no Dawn. Please, don't do this. We can fix this, "
He grabs my hands, his eyes pleading as they meet with mine, and at any other moment when I didn't know this man was the killer of my parents, I would have broken down. It would have hurt to see him like this but this very moment, with the words he had muttered minutes ago lingering at the back of my mind; I don't care.
"There's nothing to be fixed, Ryder. My parents are dead, and it's because of you. There's nothing you can do. "
I step back, moving his hand away from mine, but he's quick to grab them back, once again closing the distance between us. My eyes are whirling, my legs are trembling beneath me–threatening to give up. I try to swallow the bile that's rising in my throat as my eyes once again move to the door.
I need to get out of here.
"No, I can fix this. I know I can, talk to me. Say anything, punish me, hit me, do anything Dawn. Just please, don't leave me. I can't, I can't lose you. "
I have no words. I want to say something, so many words to say, but I can't bring myself to say them. My mind is in a state of chaos, so many thoughts running through them at once and staying here, breathing the same air with him, will only make me lose control of everything. The only move I have is to leave.
"I can't, I can't do this. I can't, "
I tell him once again before splinting off.
I'm almost there, just one more step. I almost wrapped my hand around that fucking doorknob. Just one more feet. One stupid fucking more move. Just one last move and I could have saved myself, I could have avoided the storm.
But then,
"I love you, Dawn. "
DAWN.Pain.I never thought I could have feel as this much pain at once. I had grown accustomed to it since my parents’ death, but then he came along and took it away. He took everything away and now this is suddenly ironic, to say that the one person who took all those suffering away is the one causing it right now.I whirl around to face him. He's standing there, staring at me with an emotion I can't truly decipher, nor am I in my right state of mind to.I've always wanted to hear that word. I've cherish the memories of him saying it in my head. I've waited for so long; to hear those golden ones from the man I couldn't help but to fall in love with. But now that he said it, I hate it so much. It doesn't soothe the arching burn in my heart. It doesn't soothe the pain; instead of intensifying it. The words that I've yearned to hear now become one of mockery."You love me?"I laugh, a scoff slipping past my lips
DAWN."Dawn! What the hell happened to you?! I was very worried! "My aunt says immediately her eyes lands on me and I shake my head, not having the strength to mutter as much as a word."Are you okay?"She asked calmly this time, in a much softer tone.Am I okay? I'm not.I raise my gaze to meet here, giving her a small forced smile before nodding."Dawn, I, "The thunder roars above is, startling her and as if she just realized I'm still standing before her, out of the house; she grabs my wrist and pull me inside, closing the door behind her before turning back to me."Talk to me, Dawn. You're making me really worried about you. I thought you would be in after work but then I waited till I was actually getting worried. I get that you're graduated now and you can make decisions on your own withou
Just to warn you all ahead, I did quite a lot of switching (POV'S) in this episode. It's all for a better understanding, so I hope you can cope.OLIVER.I stand in the darkness, my eyes moving across the room before settling on a certain alluring shadow that's quite visible even through the darkness.With little deliberation, I know exactly who he is and I know what he has come here for."Do you think you could pull that stunt on me and get away with it?"His voice echoes through the darkness, and I let out a chuckle, shaking my head."I knew you were going to come for me. I know you and I didn't expect less from you. "I shrug, crossing my arms against my chest, and the darkness falls into silence, which makes it quite terrifying with the fact that the bastard isn't making as much as any sound."Why did you do it?"He's getting closer to me.I move back a little, getting closer
DAWN."The fuck are you talking about?"Kira pull away from me, his eyes pinning me down; daring me to repeat the words I had just muttered and I know exactly what she's thinking. She thinks I'm making a terrible decision but if course she wouldn't get it. I don't expect her to."I have to go, Kira. ""No, you don't! What the hell are you talking about, Dawn? You want to leave here and go where? You have been here your entire life! Need I remind you! You don't know any life outside of this! Here's where your life is, it's where your friends are and it's where your last family is but you're just going to throw all that away because you got hurt by some guy?"She scoffs and the tone at the edge of her voice males me so angry."Yes, I am! That's exactly what I'm going to do and if you have even the slightest idea of what I'm going through right now; you would agree to my decision! Not try to trash talk it!""I'm not agreeing
DAWN. "Are you sure you want to do this right now?" Kira places a hand on my shoulder as we both descend the stairs and I let out a sigh, my gaze moving across the room before landing on my aunt who's currently preparing to head out of here. "I don't think I can. I should probably wait till she's back. " I say, and she nods before giving me a small smile. "You're up early, Dawn. Good morning, Kira. " "Good morning, Aunt. Heading for work already?" Kira greets with a big smile, which aunt returns with one of hers before nodding in confirmation to her words. "Well, you know how I am. " She chuckles before her eyes darts to me, her brows raising in slight questioning and weirdly, for some strange reason, j understand what she's trying to ask. "I'm fine, Aunt. I'm sorry that I scared you yesterday. I needed to - I just - well, I needed to think some things through. " She
RYDER. "Don't, Dawn. Please, " I plead, staring down at her and she giggles before pulling me closer, her lips hovering slightly over mine each time she moves it to say something. It's driving me fucking insane, and I'm sure she knows it. "What's it going to be, Smith?" She has been using that one all night, and it's bad that it gets to me each time she says it. "Fuck you!" I spit before grabbing her hands, crossing them over each other, and pinning it to the soft material of the bed above her head. "That's what I.." Her words end up with a gasp as I move my hips against hers, claiming her mouth greedily and selfishly, like it's the last thing I will do. Though in this case, it sounds close to it. I'm going to regret this tomorrow. I know I will, but do Igive a fuck right now? I really don't. If she's allowing me to touch her, then I'll gl
DAWN. My eyes flutters open and I let out a sigh as I take in my surroundings. Just one look at it and I know this isn't my place. I know exactly where this place is and judging by my sore legs; I remember what happened last night, too. I sigh again before rolling to the other side of the bed, my eyes meeting with Ryder Smith who's peacefully sleeping at his side, his one hand laying across my stomach while the other rests at his side. What the fuck have you done, Dawn? I promised I was going to stay away and hate this man with every fiber in me and yet, the first thing that came to my drunk mind was to get into his pants. What the fuck is wrong with me?! This is only going to complicate things further, and complications are very far from what I need right now. I swipe my hands down my face before attempting to sit up, only for his arm to tighten around me, encircling around my waist before pul
DAWN.Bryan is going to Boston? Why the hell is he going to Boston and how am I just knowing this?"I thought we all applied to Washington. How the hell is he going to Boston?"I turn my entire body towards Kira, who just shrugs, telling me she has absolutely no idea either."I really don't know, but it seems like its something he's been planning for a while because he already applied and did all other necessary things. According to him, he was going to tell us until the last minute but when he found out you're going too, he decided to just let the cat out of the bag but hey, you know this is a good thing, right? I have been worried about how your shitty self was going to cope in a new city, but now that you have at least one close friend coming along with you, you guys should be fine. "She smiles and I nod absentmindedly, staring ahead of us. She's right. In all honesty, I have been nervous about how it'll be moving to a new city, but