Broken inside
The feeling you feel when you don't feel. When you've given up on all love, hope and faith and you know there's not a way to get over it. You feel that there is actually nothing left in you.
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25 / 12 / 2021
1 : 00 am
I feel so at peace now that I am asleep , though I am in my on little dream land I feel so at peace and relaxed. Now that I am here , no one can hurt me – no one can use me or betray me ; this is my paradise. I know that this is short lived though as I will have to wake up in the morning and face reality. How ever , right now I am just relishing in the dream world where any thing unexpected can happen.
In the dream world , I watch as my surroundings become hazy – almost as if my dream is lagging the way an online game would. It then starts to glitch &ndas
Seeking Danger to Find a Sense of LifeThrills unveil your mortality and make you feel aliveFeelings of sadness and hopelessness, guilt, lack of energy, and irritability — some of the most common symptoms of depression — affect about 7 percent of adults and about 12 percent of adolescents in the United States. The symptoms of depression can make it hard to get through the day, and though treatment is available, it may take weeks or months to feel better. That increases the temptation to engage in risky behaviours that offer the allure of feeling better right now.____________________________________________________________________________25 / 12 / 2021Christmas day“ So…You only acted like your were interested in me because…you were bored?” I asked him.“Why less would I act that way?&rdqu
Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on meProverbAfter being tricked once, one should learn from one's mistakes and avoid being tricked in the same way again.___________________________________________________________________________________________________26 / 12 / 202110 : 00 am“Oh fuck…” I mummer to my self. My head aches to a point where I feel like it is just going to explode. Why does my head hurt so bad?!! I push my self off the bed , my feet stumbling over each other – I start descending to the ground , but I never make it there. I feel a familiar warmth rush all over my body , making me want to snuggle up closer to it but when I had saw from where it emitted from ; I push my self hard against David’s chest. The hands that saved me from hitting the floor , falls by his side when I am succe
Why do we kiss on New Year's Eve? The reasons behind the romantic momentThere is no definite explanation of why the kiss was done, but McCrossen said it most likely was meant to wish good luck going into the next year.Fast forward to 2021, and the kiss has become one of the biggest must-haves in American culture, turning into one of the most romantic moments a person can have. Look no further than movieslike "New Year's Eve" and "When Harry Met Sally" for evidence.___________________________________________________________________________________________________1 / 01 / 20220 : 00amMy breath is sucked away , as his lips captures my own. His strong hands , the ones that I have come to love yet hate grabs hold on to my waist as he pulls me closer towards his chest. My hands lay on his big pecks , oh how I want to push him away from me but his kiss intoxicate
New Year's resolutionA New Year's resolution is a tradition, most common in the Western World but also found in the Eastern World, in which a person resolves to continue good practices, change an undesired trait or behavior, accomplish a personal goal, or otherwise improve their behaviour.___________________________________________________________________________________________________1 / 01 / 20225 : 45 amI close my eyes embracing the winds of change as they blow through my hair and caress my face. I feel a bright smile appear upon my face – this could be because I am going home , or because my new has started off on a good note. I feel as if there is some thing in me just bursting to come out – call it a new found strength , or new excitement for new beginnings.I know that this past year I have been nothing but a mess – from havi
Do you know what it feels like?....I suppose some of you would know but the rest of you…I doubt it! Do not get me wrong , this story is not like your ordinary love story – it is not a romance novel to begin with…But I guess every sad story begins with a heartache. Every broken heart was caused by some type of action that shattered it into a million pieces – every person has a reason as to why they act the way they do.Have you ever?....Have you ever looked around and be constantly reminded of that someone? Looked back and feel your heart shatter , over and over again when you see that person in your memory – someone you have now lost? Have you ever cried knowing that that person will never come back – no matter how much you try? Ever sat up at night , praying to the Lord above for some kind of guidance to get them back – but even that too does not help?You see….I lost someone too , someone I di
I throw my head back , my short black hair whips through the air – not as elegant as the models do on television , but just sexy enough to make bite his lip and groan at the sight. I lean back into soft fabric , my back arching. The back seat of his white Toyota Tazz , a place I have become very familiar with over the last 3 weeks – is scattered with clothes , shoes and , of course – cum.My head falls back and are comforted with the cotton fabric that covers his seats. I swear I hear a car go by but I cannot be to sure as I am trying to catch my breath. I suck in air , trying to make up for all the air that I had missed out on. My breathing is hoarse but nevertheless , it seems to be going back to normal. I am so concentrated on getting my breathing in order that I do not realize that my eyes are leaking due to having a bad gag reflex and my mouth…is a mess. Spit and the mixture of his cum slowly drips and drags down the side of m
12:00pmI found a guy, told me I was a starHe held the door, held my hand in the darkAnd he's perfect on paper, but he's lying to my faceDoes he think that I'm the kind of girl who needs to be saved?I sit in class , I had come an hour before my first lecture begins. Luckily , I had carried my headphones. Lauren Spencer’s voice helps me escape from my troubled state. While listening to her lyrics , I think back about the mornings events. My heart still swells with pain at the thought of it.I close my eyes and let my head fall back , I reflect about everything we had been through. My mind takes me to the very beginning of our meeting. I remember the first time I had ever laid eyes on him.In 2020 , after the world had come out of lockdown – I planned to run after my goal of becoming a female bodybuilder. Within a day , I was registered and a member of the nearest gym. At first , trainin
It’s been exactly one week since I have last saw him. It has been one whole long week since I had the pleasure to lay my eyes on his perfect form and being ; one whole entire week of nothing but misery….and discovery.The tiny crystal drops gently fall onto my head , sinking down below finding my scalp. I feel as it tinkles down my scalp , leaving a trail of cold kisses – making me shiver from it gentle yet affective feel. Raising my face to the high heavens , I feel the rain showering my face. This feels good….My heart begins to grow heavier and heavier as each tiny drop covers my once dry self. Though a smile has appeared onto my lips , my heart bleeds. I smile at the fact that though I am bleeding on the inside , the weather takes my side by resembling my bleeding heart and soul and showers me.Why am I standing in the rain , when I could easily wait inside the gym?Well….I am waiting for someone