So much for diving into action. I arrived home from the Sidhe cavern to an anxious Mom and Shenka. Ever eager, Gram took Gabriel from me, fighting Charlotte for the chance to snuggle him. Sassafras's clear irritation at my departure lulled me back into keeping my family happy. I allowed myself to settle into that same pattern of care and love for my son.I did have a moment of intense fear jolt me from sleep only a few nights later, a nightmare reminding me of Fate's words to me:"You have so much more to do, Syd. I wish I could lay the burden on another, but you were made for this."Which meant, among other things, I wasn't done, was I? Fate had so much more in store for me.And, one day, I would outlive my son.Couldn't go there. Think that way. Lurched from bed and snuggled Gabriel close while he woke and cooed to me as though in comfort.Met Sassafras's glowing eyes in the dark where he slept in my son's crib.Sobbed.The demon cat sighed, rose, came to me. Set both front p
I didn't linger. Went immediately to Meira's quarters, shed the ridiculous outfit, slipped back into my jeans and food-coated t-shirt while my sister waited for me in her bedroom. Emerged to hug her."You call me anytime," I said. Leaned away. "Any. Time."Meira sniffled, shrugged. "I'm okay," she said. "But that was harder than I thought it would be.""Want to come home for the night?" I reached for the veil, felt Ahbi welcome me. Her sadness joined with mine. Odd to find her upset, considering it was her idea to make Dad Ruler in the first place. But my demon grandmother changed a great deal since her soul bonded to the Node keeping Demonicon's planes in alignment. Softened and became more human, if that was possible. Lost the deep, compelling drive of political maneuvering, which had existed most of her life.Amazing I loved her way more dead than alive.Meira shook her head, backed away with a firm smile. "I have to sit through the banquet," she said. A little too brightly."
I missed Charlotte's steady presence when she returned home at Oleksander's insistence. It was selfish of me to want her around all the time, to want everyone around. I wasn't, it turned out, the Center Of The Universe.When did that happen?I never expected to settle into a quiet life as a mom and love it. But Gabriel made everything so much better, simpler. Distracted me from the old angers and sorrows enough I fell into a kind of Mommy haze.So when I felt spirit power enter the back yard followed by the familiar touch of Sunny's magic, I shook myself free of my stupor and greeted her at the door with a big smile and a giggling baby in my arms.She swooped forward, a joyful cry on her lips, and lifted him from my grasp, swinging Gabriel around as he laughed, the sound so fresh and sweet I had to swallow the lump rising in my throat.I made him. Imagine.Sunny came to a halt, tucking my son against her, kissing his forehead while he ran his little fingers through her blonde hai
I half expected to run into resistance at Castle Sthol. Old habits die hard, after all. But instead of the typical animosity of the past, I was instead greeted with awe and more than a little fear by the vampires who stood guard at the front gate.Yes, I could have landed myself and my vampire friends in the middle of Pannera's throne room. But I was learning diplomacy and figured sugar might get me farther than arrogance and bullying.Sunny and Uncle Frank took the lead, Sassafras perched in my uncle's arms. Sebastian remained back, with me, his hand brushing mine twice as we entered the large gates at the front of the castle and were ushered inside.On impulse, I flexed my fingers and felt his slip into mine. Guilt tried to rise, Liam's face. But I pushed it down, tightened my grip on Sebastian's hand.Liam was gone. Had been for almost a year.Time to move on, Syd.I looked up, caught Sebastian's little smile, how his dark blue eyes watched me without pressure, but filled with
I hated to give her hope, but felt it rise like a flare of flame, her fingers trembling in my grasp. "You have a cure?"I couldn't help but turn and look at Sebastian who nodded to me before bowing to his former queen.Pannera coughed again, softer this time. "My darling Sebastian," she said. "How I've missed you."He came to her side at once, kneeling next to me, face so sad I wanted to hug him. "Sweet Pannera," he whispered. "Let Sydlynn help you."Her gray eyes went from his face to mine. "Tell me what you have in mind."Sebastian's power flared, engulfed her and Pannera gasped. "You know I've changed," he said. "But I'm certain you have no idea just how much."The Sthol vampires sighed as one as they felt his life, heard his heartbeat. I held my breath as the sound of it, amplified by his magic, thudded against the stone walls before he let it fall silent.Pannera's eyes flared with spirit power. "You can do this thing?""I can try," I said, suddenly afraid. What if I faile
I said goodbye to Sunny and Uncle Frank, refusing to even talk to them about their own transformations, at least for now. Not after I'd failed with Pannera, had to tread the walk of shame-at least, in my own head-down the throne room aisle, past the watching, grieving vampires until I couldn't stand it anymore.Lifted Sassafras into my arms, cuddling him close, as I tore open the veil and returned us to Castle Wilhelm."I won't pressure you," Sunny said as we touched down in her throne room, "but I want you to consider it."I nodded, miserable still, Sass's purr only taking the edge from my failure. No, I didn't care I'd failed. I cared Pannera was going to die and there was nothing I could do about it.Yeah, she'd been my enemy once. But damn.Hell of a way to go.Sebastian took my elbow in one hand as I tore the veil again for home."I'd very much like to speak to your mother," he said.Whatever. He could have traveled on his own, couldn't he? Still, it was nice to feel the w
We sat at the table, my carnal thoughts making me blush as Sebastian turned and sank into a chair, still holding my son. Those thoughts turned to "awww" as he softly rubbed Gabriel's back with one big hand, while Mom served us wine and some fruit and cheese. I bit into a strong piece of cheddar just for something to focus on as my demon rumbled her continuing interest, hand fisted around my glass of milk.Sebastian waved Mom off when she made the offer of some cabernet."I no longer enjoy the taste of alcohol," he said. Winked at me. "The only disappointment in all this."Mom's eyes locked on Gabriel as she sat and, without prompting, Sebastian handed him over while a little seed of resentment woke up, cutting through my consideration of his strong hands, the way his muscular chest rippled through the open collar of his white shirt.I'd tried to save his former queen, hadn't I? And he gives Gabriel to my mother.Typical.Sebastian told Mom everything while she rocked my son in an
Mom was already back and watching me as I turned away from where Sebastian had stood. Her eyes twinkled, a naughty look on her face as she closed the kitchen door behind her.Damn flushing reflex. He'd just told me we couldn't be together, hadn't he? And I was still all fangirl gooey over him.Mom had the decency not to say anything, just crossed the room and hugged me."I thought you had a meeting?" I didn't mean to be grumpy. She let me go, retrieved her wine."I rescheduled," she said. Shocking. "Not often my daughter and grandson come to visit."I felt Gabriel twitch in his sleep, disturbed a little. Probably gas. Then, he sighed and settled again."He's still passed out," I say by way of a hint.Mom's pout flashed across her face so fast I giggled.We sat again, she at the end of the table with her wine, me picking at the cheese tray as we talked. Funny, I wasn't ready to go home yet, just enjoying my mother's company.Until I had to open my big mouth and ask about the on