"What? What are you talking about, Mom?" I can't keep my voice from shaking. Mom has the worst timing I've ever encountered in a person before, and here she is, cementing that fact."I know you chose NYU because of him." Mom says calmly over the phone.Oh my God. Oh my God. I want to scream."Oh my God, Mom. What is this? How do you know about Zane?" As I ask the question, the answer forms in my head.Fuck! I knew I had forgotten something when I was packing for college. She must have stumbled on the diary I kept when I was fifteen and discovered him for the first time. Oh God. I wrote some crazy things in that damn book."How else? I read your diary." She says."You are not supposed to read that!" I scream, I didn't expect to sound this shrill, but a cold sweat has broken out on my back.I know it is completely irrational to think she must already know what happened just a few hours ago, but my mind is beyond rational thoughts at this point. I am so strung tight that I fear I might u
Alex's POV:"Come on, Alex. We will be late." Penny says, it is the third time she will be repeating the same thing and I am still no where close to being ready to leave the room. To attend that class today. To see Zane Orion again. It is the first class he would be holding since the incident that happened at his house on Sunday. Today is Friday.He cancelled his previous classes since Monday, there was some talks about that being weird since he never cancels on classes. Ever. People shared gossips and speculations, each one being more insane than the last. Since Zane Orion was a pretty private person, nobody had concrete gossip. We just knew he wasn't available.And I have driven myself insane wondering what it all meant. Why was he missing classes after what happened? What did Daisy do? Or rather, what did she not do?I have been anticipating the apocalypse since Sunday. Been waiting for the roof to fall on my head. For the storm to hit. I hear her loud angry voice yelling that sh
"Claire! My name is Claire, Professor Orion." The girl beside me breathes, blushing and visibly excited at having caught the professor's attention. The lecture hasn't even lasted for thirty minutes, and I already feel a clawing anxiety. Zane is not looking at me. It is not like I expected his attention to be on me, but there is a coldness in the way he avoids even looking in my general direction. I can't read him because I can't fucking see him even though he is right in front of me. He has shrouded himself in that familiar mask again. He allowed me only a tiny peak behind his shields but it is back up now. Unyielding than usual. "Okay, Miss, what was your question?" Zane asks Claire who is standing beside me so there's no way he can continue not meeting my eyes but I seem not to know the man because he manages just fine. No other person in the classroom would understand or even notice what I feel, but it is there and it is undeniable. Professor Zane is ignoring me. "Okay sir.
Zane Orion POV:I feel like complete shit. Like an asshole. I didn't come in today with the intention to ignore Alex, but as soon as I stepped into the class and caught her startling eyes watching for mine, I panicked.And it all went downhill from there. Quietly. Privately. A battle between just the two of us in the full classroom. One, I failed woefully. I couldn't face her after the way she left my house the last time. And I was the careless one who brought her in. I really don't know what I was thinking. I guess I simply wasn't thinking at all. I was the one at fault. And yet she bore the full brunt of it. I can't look her in the eyes without feeling my guilt lodge itself in my throat."Professor Orion?" The girl in front of me says, pulling my attention away from the closed door Alex just walked through. I look down to see that I am squeezing the book in my fist. This is the first edition of my first ever published book. I loosen my hold."Oh. Yeah. Here you go." I do the autogr
Alex's POV:"Oh, it is nothing sir! We are sorry." Claire pipes up. The class is so quiet, I can feel all the piercing stares directed at me but I am only concerned about one particular pair of intense dark eyes trained on me the most.Claire had been whispering to me nonstop about some shit I am vaguely interested in since Zane Orion joined the class, five minutes late. Judging by the way she is currently beaming, enjoying the attention from Zane and the whole class, I now understand that she might have been doing it on purpose."Okay." Professor Zane says after a few more tough seconds of silence pass. I can't look up to meet his eyes.It is Monday morning. I still hear the tortured sincerity of his apology from when he called me out of the blue last Friday in my head every time he speaks in this class. I feel like a broken record player already. I should still be mad at him for what his ex wife did to me and how he handled the aftermath of that situation, but I knew it would be ha
Zane Orion's POV:Hearing the applause doesn't quench the angry fire in my chest.The little impudent prick. He doesn't realise I could end his career before he even started. The audacity to question my qualifications. Tristan Bryan. I note the name to memory. I will think of a better way to deal with him.For now, all I want to focus on is Alex. She doesn't seem as mad or unforgiving as she sounded on that call. Just neutral. Annoyingly neutral. But that is what is so bothersome about it. I can't accept nonchalance from her about us. It meant something to me, and it would truly pierce me in the worst way possible if it didn't mean anything to her.That night in the parking lot, her moans, her hot mouth sucking me off, the look in her eyes as she did it, how much cautious we threw to the wind that night. The recklessness. It was new and exhilarating. Just listen to our bodies and make magical love. The momentary madness that took hold of me to invite her to my house for the weekend.
Alex's POV:Zane has me cornered. My back is against the wooden podium, and he is an air's breath away from me. I can't breathe. All the air in the room, and I can't instruct my lungs to take some in. All my anger peeled away, and I was left defenseless even as I stubbornly held my chin up. Refusing to let him see."Yes. According to your wife." I spit out the words like they are a bitter pill.Zane pauses, does a double take, it is all the time I need to escape and I take it. But I don't make it far before Zane grabs my wrist, spinning me around and I come too close to his body."You mean ex-wife." He says through gritted teeth. Is he angry right now? What right does he have to be angry? I was the one that was humiliated! I don't think I will ever walk down his street for any reason till I leave this earth. That is how bad the shame runs. I can't think of that Sunday without being acutely reminded of my walk of shame down the street."I don't care." I say, the anger slipping out in
I get to my dorm after a thirty minutes walk. I walked instead of taking the bus because I thought it would be good for me to think things through. But it didn't do anything. I just walked the distance in a sort of exhausted rage induced trance.I am worried about Claire. I have never seen anything like that performance she put up with me. It is such a scary thing to think about the repercussions if she spread whatever she saw to the class. I have never dealt with a situation like this before, I am so lost."Oh! Hi." I say to Penny as I enter the room after a tiring walk up the stairs to our room. I was looking forward to a few quiet hours of napping before she came in. It is so surprising to see her in the room after classes. She usually hangs out around the college or even outside around the city with her gang. But here she is, laying on her bed, popcorn in front of her, her laptop playing a film loudly.She doesn't reply. I don't know if she didn't hear me or just doesn't want to