Julian’s father was away most of the time and we have always had our make-out sessions at his house. We were in his living room after he had made me feel him and kissed me again, this time it was different and something happened, I let him lead me to his room.
My brain wasn’t thinking at all because all I knew was, we never went to his room and I saw him smirking as he turned back kissing me again pulling me into his room. When we went in he slipped out of his shirt in one swoop as he reached to kiss me before helping me out of my dress.
This was the moment I had waited for eighteen years was happening with Julian. Our breathing had shifted ten times as he took off his jeans and reached to kiss me again. My brain was numb while my body was in consent with whatever was about to happen. Julian let me lie on the bed, taking my unclipped bra off as he gave them a squeeze making me breathe deeply as he trailed down to my panties before taking them off throwing them aside and he pulled his boxers off after quickly.
I couldn’t look at him, so I looked at the ceiling as he moved closer spreading my legs, he brushed his right hand on my knees before he had his finger inside. He smirked as he had another hand on my chest.
“You are wet,” he moved his head, kissing my neck before he whispered in my ear. “You need to relax, can you do that, hmm?” He kissed me again pushing his finger further making me pant without responding and he slipped his hand out before kissing me on the lips.
I didn’t know what to do. I was as still as a rock as he reached for his pants taking out a condom and putting it on with ease. I was still staring at the ceiling and I squeezed my eye taking a deep breath. He crawled back on the bed his hands, taking my legs up on his shoulders pushing me closer to him. He slid inside me for a moment before pulling back again because I had flinched.
“Maya look at me, ” he moved to closer kiss me again, “Relax,” he whispered between our kiss before pulling away too soon and this time he pushed his whole length inside me.
I felt the pain as he slid in and out of my entrance and I gripped at the sheets with my eyes closed waiting for the pain to stop.
“Fuck, you feel good,” he said panting.
He was the one doing all the work as my legs were dangling on his shoulders while I lay on his bed as he started pumping into me with slow paces at first before going harder and faster. They say that once the pain has stopped this gets replaced by a good sensation or feeling but it never came for me. I lay on the bed for some time before I heard a roar like a sound from him before he stopped while still in me.
He waited for a few seconds and he slid out of me taking the rubber out as he reached out smiling at me. He went out of the room to dispose of it. The moment he walked back, I didn’t know what to do or expect so all I did was put on my clothes, fast in silence as he grabbed the stained sheets.
“I can do that,” I said He shook his head and he walked away and I followed.
He started to rinse it out before throwing it in the machine. I looked at him in silence as my mind started functioning again. At least I wasn’t walking funny like what I’ve heard other girls say.
He finally turned to look and he moved closer to smile and giving me a small peck on the lips. I felt different but he didn’t notice. I had given him my virginity, but he was distant the talkative person had gone silent.
Was he embarrassed by me was there more I needed to do?
I was about to say something before I saw Tiffany, Julian’s ex barged into the living room where we had moved to.
“Tiffany, what are you doing here?” I asked, puzzled. “Julian, what’s going on?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Look, Maya,” he said, walking to Tiffany, “we never broke up that’s why she is here,”
“Did you do it? Did she finally let you swipe the v card?” She said in a high-pitched annoying voice laughing. Julian nodded smirking, looking at her and my eyes saw red and I started screaming at him.
“How could you? After all -” he interrupted me.
“After what hm, Maya? Do you know how long I had to entertain you so you could just open those legs? I wanted to prove a point to everyone that you are nothing special, ” he spoke not looking at me.
“What?” I looked at him in shock and anger blinking back close tears, but, I told myself not to cry and give them satisfaction.
“You are just like your sister pretending to be a saint to everyone and I just proved it,” Tiffany added.
“What did you say?” My hands were curled in a fist now
“Macy was a slut. Selling her body at Star Maya, you were too naïve and living in a bubble to notice. You have just proven that Strong women are weak just like your mother.”
“What did you just say?” I glared daggers at her.
“You heard me, bitch,” she folded her arms tilting her head at me smiling.
“Maya, listen,” Julian said, trying to reach for me.
“Not another step asshole,” I said, looking at him.
“Or what?” Tiffany chimed, with a laugh.
My tears were free-falling and I couldn’t stop them and the next thing I had kneed Julian and pushed Tiffany on the sofa as I grabbed bags and shoes.
“Take that for weakness, you two deserve each other,” I slammed the door hard letting the glass door shatter as I walked away.
The stories I was told about the first time being special were lies. Most people say the person will be gentle and the pain will be replaced by pleasure and that I will enjoy it as much as he would but the boyfriend, I thought was sweet deceived me and insulted my family.I was angry and sobbing as I ran home. The sky felt my pain and decided to join in on my misery as it started to rain soaking in no time. I guess the rain covered all my sobs and I didn’t realize that I had taken the wrong turn and had stopped at the wrong bus stop.
“What are you doing? Please let me go.” I started to cry again.“Maya, stop crying,” he reached out to wipe my tears, but I looked away“What are we going to do with her?” Ty asked, “You had Macy first it’s my turn,” he proceeded to give me a disgusting smile that made the back of my hair rise.
“What did Macy, tell you?” Ty had let go of me as started taking steps at Tom, who was now sitting clicking on the computer screen.Had I forgotten that he had choked just a few minutes ago or was Macy’s betrayal enough to make me feel anger rising in me that my feet started moving toward Tom? Ty held my shoulders playing bodyguard or protective brother to Tom as I was moving to him. I managed to elbow him making him release his hands off me as I slammed the table at Tom.
Tom had his hand on my neck again, squeezing tighter and tighter. Ty held his hand over Tom’s hand and he released me as I gasped for air.“Tom, let me, ” he gave him a look and a nod.“How could you let that idiot of all people?” He looked disappointed and angry, “Ty, when you are done with her, bring her to me, you have forty-eight hours.”
Ty“Please I thought you said you wouldn't do anything to me tonight,” she pleaded, her eyes looking down at my arm that was holding her before I let go.I smiled at her before I cup her cheeks “I kind of changed my mind,” she had flinched a little when I reached for her before she conceded with a panicked nod. Her eyes never left mine, which made me a little n
MayaI started walking back to his room with determination because I had done the math of all the bills and I knew the answer. The zeros to be paid were not enough for me to sell the house and pay the debt, which left me with this disgusting option.As soon as we got into his room all the confidence I had shown was thrown out of the window and all that was left was fear. I never want
I never sleep a wink last night I could not bear it anymore, so I decided to take a shower and brush my teeth. I brushed my teeth with much-needed urgency as the reminder of what Ty did came rushing back as I stared at the mirror.I was on my knees as Ty asked me to give him a blowjob something I have never done before. He made me blow him for a long time and my knees have bruises from kneeling. I was in tears choked a few times not to mention almost gagging and my eyes have never bugged out the way they did when his hands held my hair pushing me back and forth. I tried to sleep it off, but the ni
MayaI was disgusted with him after last night and now he had made me take off my clothes as I was walking to the door. The way he kissed me made me feel like throwing up. I was at his disposal and there was nothing I could do. Noone was coming guns blazing to my rescue me so I had to just do as he instructed.“Stop,” he commanded.