SUMMER.There wasn’t anybody else I’d rather lose my virginity to than Vincent. But you see if you had asked me that any other time before this summer, I probably would’ve had no idea that it would happen anyway. That things would play out the way it did.But somehow here we were, with a condom in his hands and desire filled eyes piercing into mine. I was hot, and maybe a little nervous but I knew how I felt about him. I maybe might have even fallen in love with my father’s best friend. That was all I could think about.The endless possibilities that we might be right for each other. And it may sound delusional but when I looked at him, I could swear he was all I wanted. This was all I ever wanted.“Yes” I whispered, biting into my lips and he nodded with a smile on his. Vincent climbed out of his pants but he was never so far away from my face. “I’ll be gentle with you, sunshine” He kissed my forehead and I nodded. With his ever embracing arm, I felt the safest with him. “Are you o
SUMMER.The heat of the sun beamed against my face as I slowly opened my eyes to the warmth of the sunlight. He was right beside me with his hands already stroking my hair and I sat up with a smile across my face.“Good morning” I said softly and he heaved. “Morning, Sunshine” Vincent puckered his lips in a way that made me blush lightly. “The brightest of them all” He added. My cheeks were the brightest red of them all. “I made you a little breakfast” He darted an eye towards the bed stand on which there was a tray laying across. It was hard not to remember the last night, in fact it was all that was in my head. It shouldn’t have felt different, it should’ve been awkward but it wasn’t. It was as natural as it could’ve been, Vincent even going as far as placing a soft kiss on my lips. “Last night was amazing” I crossed my arms with a whisper leaving my lips and Vince grinned proudly.“It was.” He replied. “Come on…” He held me up and soon enough, there was a wave of uncertainty acr
SUMMER.I glided my shoulders to the sound of the thudding beat. By now, I was already slightly wasted but I could tell my left from my right. I don’t think I’d ever drank the way that I did that night. But luckily, Vincent was here. At least not here, but a safe distance away. He’d excused himself to take a call, the fourth time that night and the last time he left, I was able to catch a glimpse of Sarah’s name across his phone screen. But I guess she was just sort of like a business partner.I neared the bar of the concert, directing the bartender to pour me another drink which I downed through my throat. I exclaimed from my lips before slowly moving my shoulders to the music. The lights were flashing and the atmosphere was filled with a blend of booze and make outs.“Let it happen!” I yelled to the lyrical chorus of the famous Tame Impala song when suddenly I heard a voice draw close to where I sat. It wasn’t Vincent, I knew before I even turned around. “I like them” A man settle
SUMMER."I love you." I suddenly blurted out.That was the thing, I didn't think—I wasn't thinking when I said it. it just sort of escaped from my lips in a drunken moment. And I watched as his face suddenly drained of any color as I froze there. Vincent pulled away from me and though his lips were apart, he didn't even say anything.He couldn't."Fuck!" I was so embarrassed as I pushed him away. I gathered my shirt in my hands before trying to walk away from him. I needed to leave, no way I could look back in his eyes. I shouldn't have said that, I should not.What was I thinking?But both luckily and unfortunately, there was a sudden knock on his door and drifting both our attentions out of my head, we looked back. “Who is that?” We both chorused. Finally, he spoke.As Vincent sauntered towards the door, I wore on my shirt and behold when he pulled it open, I met the shock of my life. My father stormed in with an expression that was far from pleased. Almost immediately, he shot me a
SUMMER.“You know I love that one!” I exclaimed, looking into the photos that my mum ran through with her fingers. “Oh no, I look ugly in it” Lily shot me a stare and we both burst out laughing. I couldn’t remember the last time I laughed the way I did. Well, the last time before Vincent anyway.“You can never look ugly” I said to my mum and watched her scrunched up nose deflate. “Aww” She held me with an arm as we walked down the Oregon pavement. Behind us was the largest mall in the whole place and it was where we spent the majority of the day.From the infamous photo booth to the bowling alley, the sip and paint and shopping—I had a gazillion bags in my right hand. She held the photos and the paintings. The day didn’t seem to end, I didn’t want it to.But finally, the sun began to set and we decided to take a rest on a bench, left idle in the corner. We sat on it with ice cream in both our hands. As I squinted my eyes in the distance, I couldn’t help but notice the little quick gla
SUMMER.“Summer” My mum moved closer to me. “I am, I guess…” “Please don’t lie to me” Lily begged. “Please don’t lie” And my heart broke. “I don’t know mum. I just feel lost and there’s not many words to describe the way I’m feeling right now. Like I feel empty, like I don’t even know myself anymore. I find myself hating dad more and more each day and Taylor doesn’t even help matters. Then on the other hand, I find myself liking peo—things that I never thought I would” I whispered.“Im just…Lost.”“Oh Summer.” She called. “Don’t call me that, you know it feels like fall instead. A sunday morning in Autumn when the smell of dread fills the air. I should’ve been called that instead” I muttered beneath my breath.“Do you know why I named you Summer?” My mum suddenly asked and I darted a look back at her. “Yeah, you told me once on a drunken night” I scoffed and she rolled her eyes to the back. Mine were tearful.“After dad?”“After dad…” She echoed. “It was the time I met him and the ti
SUMMER.“How could you still let her to be on her own after everything?!” My dad raised his voice at my mum but she was well prepared for his tantrum. Wedging into him, she looked him straight into his eyes.“Give her a break, Davis” Lily urged. He panted heavily, pinching the bridge of his nose. I caught his lackluster stare as I giggled my way up the stairs. Most especially whilst covering my scarred arms. At least it was healing but it was only about an hour since I got the tattoo.“You’re going to spoil this girl…”“Taylor, please.” My mum replied. I heard a couple more back and forths before I reached my room door. I slammed it, immediately finding my way into the bathroom. I stared into the mirror, looking down at my arm, across which was a little V inscribed into my flesh. It was scarlet red in color so as maybe small as it was, it was still so visible.I fell in love with the experience, I was definitely getting another after this. I squealed in front of the mirror, the most a
SUMMER.The past few nights, Vincent and I had spent together. They were perfect, down to every last bit of it. Once the clock struck midnight, I would already be waiting by the windows. He'd bring his bike and I'd bring myself.They were the perfect few nights, sometimes we'd stay by the lake and just gaze into the star filled skies. He'd tell me everything he knew about Orion and I never would've been able to guess that Vincent was into astrology. But he was just so layered, it was beautiful.Each moment I spent with him was never dry or boring, there was always something more that I knew about him. And he'd said the same about me. But with every night that passed, it filled with me even more dread than happiness because it was a reminder that Summer was nearly over. At least for me.As much as I would've loved to stay in Oregon, I still had a life back at New York, med school and my mum. Everything else that had been planned since the beginning of time. I usually didn't care so mu